monday econs test
tues history lect test
wed hist & econs STAR test
fri c.lit & hist test
in other words
everyday test test test.
mug mug mug.
study study study.
i ought to be studying now.
nxt tues c.lit test on song ci
nxt fri hist mock exam paper (full).
burt jux wanna come here to say
i wun be blogging from now on till after the end of A's.
reali gort no time la.
so ya.
and to all my frens out there~
my darlings..peeps of srjc..and fangyu et pearl oli huimin hinfan n etc
all the best lo!
jiayou..study hard=))

love holidays!!!
*muack muack muack muack*
great week no school =))
enjoying the temporary period of rest
and prays hard tat monday comes later.
(O.O)

do you know what it feels like,
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?

baby since you walked away,
i miss you,
i miss you more n more each day.
tell me do you think about me,
cux i think about u all the time
a million miles just stand between us
burt i wont stop until u're mine.

~ lyrics from songs by Enrique Iglesias ~

went meridian pool with the girls after sch today
was allowed to wear civilian to sch hahas..
kinda..uncomfortable actuali cux the weather sucks.
had a great time.
very funny n "entertaining" cux huiting keep disturbing us.
(-_______-)||
then qinqin abit stern when teaching us lols..
(>.<)! then i keep worrying my eyeliner would smudge cux i was using non-waterproof. gr. damn troublesome.

currently : emo-ing
life's fallacious.
would you still believe in life?

i'd upload the photos taken today when im free =))

GASP!
i FORGET there's econs revision timed practice
damn damn damn
gotta run mug AGAIN.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!
=(

went school early for history test today..
after tat went eat mc breakfast with ah qin, wenwen n jiajia
then went ps with wenwen to fix her mp3
jiajia n qin gort things on so left us two.
ting went home meet her mum..
den the person say wen's mp3 spoil..
so we tried our luck at marina's creative again..
burt still spoil =((
then me n wenwen saw monopoly lo!
so cute hahas
he gave us fake 10000 bills
then we oso saw the simpons standboard
and took photos with the monpoly n standboard.
then i was wondering how the person see me in his monopoly suit
then i kept staring at him(i assume is a him) to try finding the "peephole"
burt cannort find LOLS.
the monopoly guy mux be feeling weird why i stare at him lidat
like stalker HAHAHAS..
after tat i went hospital visit my gran..
then went for dinner with my parents
we ate at BaliThai @ velocity
and i ate tom yum despite being sick
LOLS!
was sneezing the whole day..runny nose sorethroat n slight cough.
grrr..
i reckoned i sneezed for at least 20 times today.
(-_____-)||
feeling very uncomfortable
burt still couldnt resist the seafood tom yum hahas!
YUMMY =))

now listening to the radio broadcast by siokwen n hinfan's fren
it's his last broadcast..
first time listening so sad..
=((
all the best dixon!
hope next time can hear your broadcast again.
=))

here's the photo we took..



~siokwen with the simpons!~



~me with the simpons!~



~MONOPOLY!! hahas~

went to siokwen's house after school today
super tired de..
been chionging n mugging like mad
so today went crazing arnd with my frens.
we played monopoly at her house.
LOLS!
it's been damn long since we played tat.
like we reali seriously deprived sia.
burt reali too tired to go anywhere..
wanted to go town burt everyone's zzz~~
so we went siokwen's house then nort so tired lo.
now my eyes closing soon.
..........................................................
k la burt today very happy playing with my frens
laugh until like siao.
ytd..
gave up somethings so tat i could concentrate on studies..
or shld i say. i gave up someone.
i wish it was a right choice.
well..
i think i reali gtg slp lers.
night guys.....

ytd talked to eunice ting on msn
hms..very happy la
almost one year nvr tok to this good fren
last time in sec sch she was my best fren sia
burt after go jc..
our character la hahas..so nvr reali contact each other.
we toked bout our current life lo..
then she told me:
"follow ur heart."
should i?
burt i oso duno ward my heart wants.
well..
i have to say thanks to e.t
cux she made me look through some things.



"Big Girls Don't Cry"

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS]

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]

La Da Da Da Da Da

undeniably.
i miss you.

yer!
so disappointed.
sad liao.
=(
wa if sihui never see my phone
nvr see tat photo
i think i tis life oso wun noe.
sucks.
grrr..
after i see i reali speechless.
siokwen i guess she speechless oso lols.
zaizai tis morning still say
"dun look like leh"
burt i guess if she know she will turn off duh.
maybe.
life's full of surprises. and SHOCKS.
nvm la.
fated.
hahas..

very tired.
chionging history like it's the end of the world
sleep very little..
eyes oso red red ler..
jux now took photo with qinqin..
then wa! my eyes so sore la.
i wan sleep!!!!!!!!!

recieved a msg from fan.
sho happy hahas.
=(
why happy still =( ?
duno leh.
feeling very empty.
when i saw the mail i was like "YAY!"
hahas.
burt only for a sec.
then emo again.
nvm la.
in my depression state..as usual
esp after knowing bout ward sihui said.
damn!
very very depressed lately.
feel like everything's the end.
aiya.
dun care.
maybe one day smth will make me happy?
well.
i hope one day smth happens to make me happy.
i HOPE.

Walk Away
By: Paula Deanda



I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me
I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me

You gonna remember me boo
I'm gonna remember you too
I can't forget all the crazy shhh.. we used to do
You was doing too much
I wasn't doing enough
That's what your friends are saying
You got a man anyway
I can't explain it neither
I ain't never wanna leave ya
Hell ya its hard to walk away when I see ya
When I see ya I remember the day
You put your shoes on and moved on
Before I could say

I saw you with your new girl just yesterday
And I feel that I must confess
Even though it kills me to have to say
I'll admit that I was impressed
Physically just short of perfection
Gotta commend you on your selection
Though I know I shouldn't be concerned
In the back of my mind
I can't help but question
Does she rub your feet
When you've had a long day
Scratch your scalp
When you take out your braids
Does she know that you like too
Play PS2 till 6 in the morning
Like I do

I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away
(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)
Walk Away, Walk Away
(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)

I can't forget how we used to be
Our life from day to day
Hoping maybe you'll come back
And though I tell myself not to be afraid
To move on but it seems I can't
Though a new man has given me attention
It ain't the same as your affection
Though I know I should be content
In the back of my mind
I can't help but question
Does he kiss me on the forehead
Before we play
Show up on my doorstep
(with a bouquet)
Does he call me in the middle of the day
Just to say hey baby I love you
Like you used to

I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away
(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)
Walk Away, Walk Away
(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)

I'm Gonna Remember You
Your Gonna Remember Me
The things we did
The way we shared our fantasies
Just you and me
My friend, my love, my family
How did we loose a love that seemed meant to be
Sometimes I kiss her and wish that it was you I'm kissing
Sometimes I miss him and wish that it was you I'm missing
Sometimes I hug her and wish that it was you I was hugging
And I realize how much I'm bugging
I miss you

Walk Away, Walk Away

(I'm Gonna Remember You
Your Gonna Remember Me)

So hard to express this feeling
Cause nobody compares to you
And you know she'll never love you like I do

I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away

(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)

Walk Away, Walk Away

Remember You

(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)

(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
so sweet tis song?
yeah.
i posted tis song before..
burt decided to post it again.
with lyrics tis time.
cux was talking to siokwen today
and i thought about tis song
yeah.
it's..hais i duno.
it jux kept reminding me.
went makan at mos today..
then tok tok tok with siokwen..
then i realised..
actuali sometimes..things in tis world is reali unpredictable.
it's been YEARS ok.
never tort tat after YEARS it wld be brought up again.
life is reali ... duno. speechless.
i hope.
i oso duno ward im hoping for.
k i mux be so crazy tat i duno ward im toking about.
i jux hope.
to be happy.
ya.
maybe tat's ward im hoping for.
althou i duno how to achieve it.

used a few min and did tis little thing..
cux i rmbred qinqin said she'd love to have smth like tis..
paiseh ar qinqin..
my adobe abit sotsot..
tis's the best i can do ler..
=))

alright!
i'd be back later lo~~
=))

midyr's FINALLY over.
gosh tis is reali difficult..
feeling very very xin ku
and couldnt study well.
i know A'level's gonna be worse.
hais.
i really canort take tis
exams REALLY suck.
im so tired of everything.
i wan to throw away my everything.
i dun wan anything anymore.
i dun think i can handle anything.
im so tired.
can someone give me a break?

alright..
tok about something happy..
after the last shitty history paper ytd
me n ting they all went marina square
went seoul garden makan..
then shop wid qin for her gf's present..
then qin wanted to buy ring for doreen de
burt marina there dun have nice de.
so sweet.
it reminds me of tat time sihui tat ring..
the black one from couple lab
it's so nice..can turn de.
somemore it's BLACK!
hahas.
then i went cut hair lo
my fringe damn long very irritating.
pity fyn wasnt in..she off
sian i like her hairstyling skills.
next time book appointment wid her barhs.
after trimming my hair
wenwen went creative fix her mp3
den we all very tired
in the end we went sitting at "world of sports" (is it?)
hahas..
sit until almost wan fall asleep.
then after retrieving wenwen's mp3 we went home ler.
damn tired cux didnt sleep much the night before.
zZz..

hms..
recently
i begin to have some new thinkings
burt im feeling guilty about it.
am i very selfish n bad?
i think i am.
i keep thinking : "how can i do this?! it's so bad of me"
then i told qinling..
and i asked her "am i very bad?am i very heartless to have such thinkings?"
she told me..
"no..i think it's jux normal.maybe girls are lidat de la.always think too much."
really?is tat so?is it jux normal?
i duno la.
i really duno ward to do.
i think..i've changed.
ya. i did.
and it's nort good?
hais.
who can tell me the answer?
burt i dun dare to do anything lo.
cux im afraid of the ending.
the consequences might be dire.
i think i'd jux pray hard n die la.

chris gaylor..tyson ritter..mike kennerty..nick wheeler!!


nick wheeler~~!!!!

so cute!!
starting to like them recently..
esp nick wheeler
he's so damn cute (>.<)
hahas! bleahs~~

hate studying~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeah im back.
i know i should be studying hahas.
burt im reali dying la!!!
was on the phone wid zaizai jux now
damn funny lols
siao one la she.
burt it reali did brighten my day.
so long nvr tok to her ler sobs.
i miss my frens.
=((

toking to desmond on msn now..
glad to know tat he's doin fine
seems like he's very happy in temasek poly
he's drooling over the babes lols.

earlier on..
i talked to fan too..
he's back in hongkong now for the hols
burt he's still mugging there lols..
he's still the same i guess.
still such a nice and gentle guy.
it's been a long time.
i wonder how he's doin?
talking to him
all the memories flooded back..
(huimin if u're reading tis, pls dun anyhow say. dun cry too haha.)
i sdnly recalled the times we had together
we were so young then.
hahas..
the primary school days..
sigh.
i miss huimin oso.
rmbr how we used to make fun of fan?
hahas!
it was so carefree then.
nort like now..
hais.

as pple grow up..
we tend to close our hearts.
cux we've been hurt too many times
we close our hearts to avoid being hurt again.
it's scary.
the innocence's gone
ward's left is selfishness..lies..and heartaches.
im suddenly reminded of winston.
(cux he jux gort online)
hahas.
i cant believe he'd changed SO much.
from tat blurblur innocent boy to lidat.
i wouldnt say he's bad now.
burt duno leh..
i dun like the present him.
he used to be true and sweet.
burt hais.
yeah i know pple change.
it's cruel.
even fan will change.
yeah. i know.
he did changed.
burt..he didnt change much?
or maybe only bcux i duno la.
burt talking to him..
he's still him leh.
after so many years
how can he still be so nice??!!
i think if it's other pple
they'd ignore me already.
after all the things i've done.
i've been so extreme towards him.
it's inconceivable how he can still talk to me so nicely and gently.
is he human? lols.
burt.. im so thankful he still regards me as a fren.
he'll always..ALWAYS be my good fren.
right?
=))
after we all grow up..
minmin.. do u still rmbr?
me.. minmin.. fan.. wileen.. susanna.. liwen.. waikwong.. chinwee..
no matter how old i'd be..
i'll still rmbr the days.
the happy times we had together.
=))

~stolen from qinqin's blog..~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

i would give my tomorrows for one yesterday. i know you will too. everyday when time doesn't permit us to stay any longer i leave with only half a soul. because i left the other half with you. it's undescibable.

heart attack kills someone instantly. but a broken heart slowly eats you up.

yes. for once indeed i thank god. not because he brought us together. but because he wrote in my fate, 'you will spend the most memorable times with him and thank me even if i gave you just one day to live.'

and yes, we will be friends. i'll be there. promise.

yea we're still standing strong don't worry.

just wanted to say you're the best thing that ever happened to me.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

ok i changed the words..i changed the "her" to "him"
tis was a post by qinqin a year ago..
tat's long (o.O)
burt jux came across it and felt tat it's so sweet.
ok gtg back mugging.
later~~
=))

went for camp on fri, 8th june
it was nort bad la
althou nort extremely exciting like the vball girls de
hahas..

bombed fonsus
and he n mingxiang sneaked attack on me
and i was drenched.
(-____-)||
idiot.
me n zarifah bought quite alot of food
and gobbled them up
hahas..

and we went star gazing at the soccer field
then timothy was playing the guitar
with illis and seewan singing..
mingxiang and his darling + xiangqi were sitting on the floor chatting
then me zarifah fonsus n ondreas were lying on the bench
half dozing lols
(we carried the bench there)
and it was damn nice..
=))
after tat tim n seewan went back guitar room slack
den fonsus started playing the guitar
"far away"!!!
and i started singing hahas
(stupid zarifah on the phone wid huda)
den me n david chat for a long...long...time
using canto lols
den fonsus keep disturbing us wid his guitar cux he dun understan a word
(-______-)
den me n david were singing
and heard somebody shouted
"falling star!!!"
(T~T)
me n dave was too busy singing so didnt see
sobsobs..
illis was dozing off, zarifah on the phone
so they didnt see oso
burt it was so sweet la^^
den fonsus n dave carried the bench back
and i rode on it
ahhahahas!
so nice
rocky rocky~~
burt when junsheng came over and wanted to sit on it
i jumped off immediately
fonsus n dave let go immediately oso
heng if nort everyone wld collapse.
LOLS!

den we went to IT room
and they watched "pirates of the carribean"
i watch before so i went out wid illis zarifah n dave to play poker
damn sian
didnt stay up cux dave didnt wake me n illis up
in the end we slept thru while they hang arnd
the classroom tables were damn uncomfortable
den zarifah (who slept beside me)
came nearer n nearer to me while she slept
cux it was cold
(-______-)
i was so scared i'd hit her when i turned la!
damn uncomfortable!
=(

oh ya..
sorry to my sisters..
i was abit in the depression state earlier on.
(>.<)
burt dun worry im ok
im jux emo-ing again hahas.

comp spoil cant update=(
finally get a chance to update now..
so well..
it's the start of holidays!=))

first day of holidays..
-monday 28th May 2007-
went out wid my sisters..
went vivo
ms tan hui ting
heard me wrongly
and made everyone meet at 10.30am instead of 11.30am
(-____-)||
so we all woke up damn early
and ms tan n ms yeo were LATE
in the end me n zaizai went walking arnd first.
...*bish!*
den shushu saw edwin tan
(-____-)||

after huiting n jiajia reached
we all went to buy tickets for pirates of the carribean
den after we makan
we went walking arnd the mall
we went giant and bought food hahas
den went to sit at the merry-go-round outside
hahas!
huiting zaizai n me were on it
den pple were looking
burt it was damn funny lols..
who cares bout other pple looking as long as we enjoyed ourselves?
(^.<) after tat we went daiso and arcade and we played for some time den it was time for the movie it was great! johnny depp's sexy! hahas..bleahs~~ orlando's nort bad too when he "died" me n jiajia was damn sad la luckily he was revived=) burt i think jiajia was more sad when CHOW YUN FAT died. LOLS!!! seriously i think she did. cux when i said to zaizai n shushu "when he(orlando) died i was so shocked n sad la!" jiajia: "ya lo ya lo!" me: "cux he's shuai rite..lols" jiajia: "ok la chow yun fat nort bad." me: "!!!wth i toking bout orlando bloom lars!!" HAHAHAS!!!! it's okie. cux we ALWAYS knew jiajia liked old men plus she's a stalker. ahahahahahas.. den after the movie we went arcade again lols..wasted alort of money burt it was fun la hahas. we had a great time playing the "counter" game ok watever cux i duno ward's the name of tat game hahas. burt i kena hit duno how many times by miss tan. (-_____-) ah dui. den their "controller"(or watever tat's called) can fly out somemore (-_____-)|| damn funny laugh until i get cramps it was nice lols..let's go play again someday=) second day of holidays
-tuesday 29th May 2007-
went bugis today
and bought a pair of Kappa shoes!
it's black!
hahas and i loved it.
den today supposed to have lessons in the morning
idiot teacher made us wake up early
(i woke up at 5.30am)
and then she pangseh us!
wth..
burt nah
so there's no lesson and we went mac
and i spilled my cappuccino.
it was all over the place.
(T~T)
sadded!!!

third day of holidays
-30th May 2007-
SIGH!
gotta go back to school today for econs n history
damn sian.
as usual woke up at 5.30am
and now im dozing off in front of the comp.
well i jux did doze off.
sian!
burt after the lessons went compass point makan wid my sisters
we couldnt make up our mind on ward to eat
so retarded lor.
so we ended up drawing lots.
and so we ended up in BK.
(-____-)||
and huiting reali noe how to choose seat.
she actuali chose the EXACT seat we used to sat.
lols?
(-____-)||
burt we changed seat after tat la
and after eating the herseys choco sundae pie
i felt happy hahas.
den we talked for a long time
about almost everything we could think of.
it was nice talking to my sisters like tat.
and it was great to laugh our heads off together like tat.
it was the best of times.=)

=))
today went kovan pizza hut wid my sisters
the chinese girls anna janet n zarifah
den ate gelato!
felt so happy hahahas..
den we went to play pool
and gort tis two SUPER CUTE didi
omg so cute lor they
one 11yrs old one 9yrs old
and they looked like twins!
hahas..
they dark dark de abit like malay
burt they are chinese la
and so young already ah beng ah beng lidat.
lols!

so cute k
den dun see they two so young k
they quite pro in pool la!
den me anna n qinling played
den super paiseh k
cux we very lousy
esp me lols..
the two didi are brothers
den the older one coached me
and the younger one helped anna
(the elder brother decide one. hahas)
den very funny
i said
"u two keep staring at me play i will stressed leh"
den the both of them hide under the table!
LOLS!!
so super cute!!!
den the older brother was telling me where to hit
the younger one like gave abit comments
den the older brother like very irritated lidat ask him quiet.
hahas!
still very confident say
"i NEVER fail before."
lols..
pro sia..
den make us these "da jie jie" so paiseh
cux we very lao pok.
hahas..

den go back sch tat time
rain super heavily
we all 8 pple share 2 umbrellas.
(-______-)||
needless to say we were drenched
esp me n jiajia
cux we sheltered the rest
den anna still so evil go flick water on jiajia.
hahas..
bleahs~~

zarifah zarifah!!!!!
can you feel the heat?
you know ward i mean!
HAHAHAHAHAS!!!!

"When You're Gone" -Avril Lavigne

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

[Chorus]