~went out with minmin n qinqin ytd!~

we met at cityhall mrt..
and ah herms.
ms late queen was late
so me n qin waited for her
while chatting bout stuff..
well i didnt know i was so honoured n powerful huh
ms late queen took an hour to decide ward to wear
when she's only meeting me.
(-________-)

so
we went marina for lunch
and chat till 2pm+3pm
and then went shopping arnd
marina's topshop didnt have the pants qin wanted
so we went to the wisma outlet
then bought the pants
and went shopping arnd again
trying on clothes here n there
lols.
min super funny
she went forever21 and fell for tis dress
she went in the fitting room
took ages to get it on
and woo!
isnt she gorgeous in tat!
"yupps it's perfect on you, buy it =)"
tat was ward me n qinqin said
so well
ms lim huimin went back into the fitting room
after waiting for ward seems like ages again
the door opened
i thought she's done changing back into her own clothes
burt no.
she opened the door n said
"omg i just LOVE tis dress. it jux looks SO good on me."
.....(-____-)
so i practically screamed
"you took so long inside n u were admiring urself in there??!!!!"
so well i had to threaten her to get changed quickly.
ms late queen is also miss drama-mad queen.
after tat we went for a drink n rest at starbucks
and chatted bout tons of stuff including tat black demon(according to minmin lols)
and wasnt she disgusted when she heard bout all the things he did.
well i guess anyone would anyway.
then we went heeren and cine..
and just shopped arnd
and went to the arcade at cine
we played the game where we played at vivo the other time
qinling's a damn tough opponent
or shld i say
me n huimin were jux too weak.
-.-
yupps.
so tat's my day with qinling,
and huimin -- qinling's new met (mad) fren.

had a great time with them
before i left house to meet minmin n qin i even spoke to fan
it was a happy day for me.
=)

here's a sneak peek at our meet up:



that's me n huimin at heeren's toilet



qinling & her new met (mad) fren.wahahahas..



the 3 of us!



me n qinqin~~

alright!
now i cant wait to go out with them again
=D

tmr's fan's last paper orhs
morning paper
study hard!
i know u are studying cux u're offline hahahas..
jiayou =)
and be careful when u drive
so scary la u!
(-____-)
so dangerous can!
=(

alright
im going to "meet" qinling now
tat's all folks!
=)

~it's one day after the end of A's..~


my feelings and thoughts 1:
YAY A'LEVELS FINALLY OVER!!!!!
...
feeling kind of empty.
lols...(-_________-)

was on the phone with siokwen jux now
and toking about how sian we are.
yupps.. i think human all r retarded creatures.
when u're busy..
u complain about too much work,
too less time to play.
now you have all the time in the world to play
u think there's too much time and feel bored cux u duno ward to do.
humans suck.
in my next life..
i wan to be a cat.


my feelings and thoughts 2:
meeting huimin n qinqin tis sunday.
hurray!
althou time isnt confirmed yet.
burt i reali miss huimin sooo much.
and im so happy tat both my pri sch n jc sch best frens r there
althou the et isnt there
burt..lots of time!
herh herh herh.
=x
want to ask all my frens out
pri sch: minmin, xinrou
jc: qinqin, siokwen, ting, jia & anna's clique
sec sch: meowmeow et & fish!
lols i realised my sec sch buddies all nort "human" LOLS!
(-_____-) sorry being lame hahas.
yay!
miss u guys =)


my feelings and thoughts 3:
read qin's blog jux now
were u "inspired" by me qinqin?
hahahahhaahahs...
burt i am.
so here goes:

im the little baby..who only spend weekends with my parents when i was young.
who cried like hell every sunday night when my parents left me with my babysitter
and the little baby who dun even noe how to talk, burt took my baby shoes and waited at the gate of my babysitter's house for my parents, at friday 8am. (when they'll only come at 5pm.)
the little girl..who didnt have any siblings..and my teddy bears were my only listeners.

the little girl..who gort into a fight in pri3..and caused my good fren to have bruises n nailmarks all over her arms (hahas =x)
the little girl..who always liked to do stupid things like mixing baby powder with water and made dough figures out of it.
and stupid things like putting medicated oil on my feets and pretended i was ice-skating. and ended up making the whole floor oily (i finished the big bottle of new medicated oil lols.)

then tis little girl went to sec sch..
and quarrelled with frens over the slightest things.
(i wldnt do tat anymore. sorry xinrou.)
the little girl whom i think sucks.
for doing such things to hurt the pple arnd her.

so now..little girl is slightly older..
going on to jc..
still as stupid..
she still did stupid stuff like singing and dancing tian2 mi4 mi4 with qinqin at the bus stop (with ting n jia pretending they duno us and siokwen laughing like hell)
she had qinling piggyback her arnd the school every now and then.
and she bites. lols!
and tis girl always liked to hug her frens.
especially qinling & huiting
cux she feel tat she had a group of great frens tat r always there for her.
oh ya.
she always always liked to emo.

so yupps.
tat's the girl u're reading about now.
she's changed alort since then.
for the better and for the worse.
ward bout u?
how have u changed?


my feelings and thoughts 4:
happy~
cux on wed night
i received a pleasant surprise.
actuali it was only a phone call la.
and the conversation was quite retarded
throughout the whole phone call
the thing i heard most is
"STUDY AR.GO STUDY NOW." (x 1000000 times)
burt it reali made my day
and made me mug like no tmr.
and it was funny
"GO STUDY AR.IF NORT NO DINNER.*herh herh*"
i hear u laugh "herh herh" i wanted to laugh out loud.
cux ur laughter very funny lols.
then everytime when i started stoning when i study until tired
ur voice rang beside my ear
"STUDY!IF NORT NO DINNER.*herh herh*"
then i will stupidly laugh to myself
and continue studying..feeling completely energetic.
so i nvr stone or slack orhs!
cux althou i hate studying history
i studied hard, bcux u asked me to do so.
so thank you.
i was able to study despite sleeping onli for 3hours.

been long since i heard ur voice.
so long.
almost a year plus i suppose.

and after tat call till now
i still rmbr ur voice.
it was such a pleasant surprise.
i tort u will only reply me a sms.
when my phone rang
it's reali the last thing, tat i will think tat it's u.
bcux it's been so long.
still..thank you.
u duno how much tat call meant to me
how much it impacted me
and how much difference it made.


my feelings and thoughts 5:
siokwen's nort going hk with me.
sadded.
nobody go disneyland with me alrdy.
=(
ok la.
enuff emo-ing.
tat's all guys.
update tmr lo.

~ 6 more days to play.. ~


6nov was fan's birthday
and my gran's lunar birthday too
so my gran n i celebrated our birthdays together
went to her house on her bday..
here are some photos we took..



from left: my maid, granny, me n my mum

how cute my gran is..hahas..




yupps..glad tat my gran was happy.

so well..
*counts*
26 hours and still counting.
hahas..i dun think anyone know ward i mean
it's alright
i jux wanted to let myself know how many hours it had been.
hahas.
went to check out facebook
wanted to sign up burt i guess i wanna change my email after A's
so maybe till then..
yupps.
cux like ward tim said...i feel tat my email's too kiddy too.
been using tat since pri6..
it's time to change i guess.
been lazy hahas.


was studying econs earlier on
and was searching for some stuff
when my pri6 class photo fell out.
fated?
hahs. why did it fall out.
so i jux gort abit emo
tat's why im here.
(-_____-)
then i was looking thru our faces one-by-one
and trying to figure out the names of every faces
and i realised.. hey i rmbred quite alort
maybe only forget 10+
hahas.
=p


my clique was made up of 3guys, 5 girls.
althou 2 of the guys always bully us la.
and hey i tort we were in the SAME CLIQUE?
>=(


i recalled once,
when me n huimin were at the block beside our sch
playing with the cats
(yes i loved cats since young)
then there was 2 little kittens
a black kitten n an orange-tiger kitten
that we loved to play with everyday.
burt they were so thin..and weak
and was always hungry.
and i rmbr tat stupid WK always bully the cats
and me n huimin always scold him whenever he does tat.
and ya CW oso.
anyway they bully US too la.
lols.
well so tat day as usual
WK come disturb us
so minmin n i were hopping mad
and shoo-ed them away
then fan came and hey! he loved the cats too.
he even bought catfood for the kittens using his own pocket money
(althou his parents dun give him much money)
then huimin n i were amazed
n he told us
"i used to feed the cats every evening in hk,
cux my house there the hillpark alort of cats"
huimin was like so surprised tat a guy wld do tis kinda things.
me too.
burt i guess he wldnt do it now in spore
will kena warning from the police lols.
anyway he's the first guy i know who like cats.
or.... no, who like animals. cux he likes dogs too.


burt my pri6 class was quite big
hms..arnd 32 if i didnt rmbr wrongly?
and yes tat number 33(or was it?) who joined us only on 24th july 2001.
i still rmbr it was a thursday,
the day after our school anni celebrations.
and tat thurs morning
my classmates were all discussing softly bout tat new classmate tat's joining us
and wondering ward would the person be like
we didnt even know if it's a boy or a girl
burt i was hoping for a girl to join our clique hahas
so tat we can outrule the 2 guys who always bully us.
(-________-)
and tat huimin was hoping for a boy so tat she can gossip again.
duh. (-____-)
so we saw our form teacher Mrs Kwek talking to auntie n uncle,
with our new fren silly silly standing one side.
then auntie n uncle left,
and tis little new fren joined our line.
Mrs Kwek told us to be friendly,
and kind of told us he transferred from hk int sch to here.
bcux i was the only one who can speak cantonese
i was forced by everyone to ask for his name.
so well tat's when my nightmare begun.
and well..
since then.

and yes.
huimin realised her hope for a new gossip.
till now.


oh damn i think im thinking further n further.
soon i'll be writing out everything tat has happened btw my pri sch clique
so yupps.
=x
better stop.


yupps i better leave alrdy.
been here too long.
study hard guys~~

happy birthday boy..
happy birthday.......



and yes.
i'll . always . always . remember ur birthday.

here's something i grabbed from eddie's blog..
it's long burt it's reali meaningful..
do spend the effort n a short 3 min to read it kies?

Life's Paradoxes; Paradox of Our Times
borrowed from Pootchkee

We have taller buildings, but shorter tempers; wider freeways,
but narrower viewpoints; we spend more, but have less;
we buy more, but enjoy it less.

We have bigger houses and smaller families; more conveniences,
but less time; we have more degrees, but less common sense;
more knowledge, but less judgment; more experts,
but more problems; more medicine, but less wellness.

We spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast,
get too angry too quickly, stay up too late, get up too tired,
read too seldom, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values.

We talk too much, love too seldom and lie too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life;
we've added years to life, not life to years.

We build more computers to hold more information,
to produce more copies than ever, but have less communication;
we've become long on quantity, but short on quality.

We've been all the way to the moon and back,
but have trouble crossing the street to meet the new neighbor.

We've conquered outer space, but not inner space;
we've done larger things, but not better things;
we've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul;
we've split the atom, but not our prejudice; we write more,
but learn less; plan more, but accomplish less.

We've learned to rush, but not to wait; we have higher incomes;
but lower morals; more food but less appeasement;
more acquaintances, but fewer friends;
more effort but less success.

These are the time of fast foods and slow digestion;
tall men and short character;
steep profits, and shallow relationships.

These are the times of world peace, but domestic warfare;
more leisure and less fun; more kinds of food, but less nutrition.
These are days of two incomes, but more divorce;
of fancier houses, but broken homes.

These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers,
throwaway morality, one-night stands, overweight bodies,
and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.

It is a time when there is much in the show window,
and nothing in the stockroom.

Indeed it's all true. Think about it...read it again.
~Anonymous

posted by shunqiang at 8:32 AM

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
yeah i know i said i wun be blogging till after a's
burt jux suddenly felt like saying something

it's the start of sept term break
burt prelims are coming.
as soon as school reopens
our prelims start
and i guess all jc kids noe the kind of life already.
hms..............
....
........
........................
(-_______-)
damn.
suddenly im speechless again.
i think i mux be suffering from the lack-of-sleep-syndrome.

anyway.
today we have a history mock prelim exam
despite the fact tat today is teacher's day celebrations.
burt after the paper,
we were supposed to stay back n go thru the paper
burt me n my sisters grabbed the answer key n scooted off.
lols..
well..
i needed a getaway before i start mugging again la.
so i went shopping n bought tons of things
n my mum took me out for a sumptuous dinner at a restaurant along katong
thanks mummy, i noe u wanted to give me a time away from studying =)

oh ya!
im SO disappointed can!
suay pok!!!!
tat day me n qin went parkway parade shopping
den we saw tis damn pretty pencil case n music box
today i went back to buy
burt the pencil case was OUT OF STOCK
and it will onli replenish stocks in mid sept.
(-_________-)
AND
i wanted to buy the music box (there're a lot of different songs)
burt i wanted Canon In D
but it's OUT OF STOCK TOO.
kns.
the pencil case n music box is SO.DAMN.PRETTY. can!
the pencil case is red color de..like a school bus
then gort pandas sitting "inside" the bus
i love pandas duh!!
and the "bus" can move!!!!!
(T~T)
then for the music box
u have to manually turn it for it to play
so it's unlike those tat u wind it up,
it wun be damaged so easily.
and the Canon In D sounded soooooooooooo heavenly!
(T~~~~~~~~~T)
and there was also the "You Are My Sunshine" music box
it's very sweet too, and i loved it.
burt tat one..
hahas...

oh well.
bad luck i guess.
=(

alrights..
enuff crapping..
i wan go zzz already.
finally it's term break
althou need to study
burt at least i get more sleep.
tatas..
*snores*-

monday econs test
tues history lect test
wed hist & econs STAR test
fri c.lit & hist test
in other words
everyday test test test.
mug mug mug.
study study study.
i ought to be studying now.
nxt tues c.lit test on song ci
nxt fri hist mock exam paper (full).
burt jux wanna come here to say
i wun be blogging from now on till after the end of A's.
reali gort no time la.
so ya.
and to all my frens out there~
my darlings..peeps of srjc..and fangyu et pearl oli huimin hinfan n etc
all the best lo!
jiayou..study hard=))

love holidays!!!
*muack muack muack muack*
great week no school =))
enjoying the temporary period of rest
and prays hard tat monday comes later.
(O.O)

do you know what it feels like,
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?

baby since you walked away,
i miss you,
i miss you more n more each day.
tell me do you think about me,
cux i think about u all the time
a million miles just stand between us
burt i wont stop until u're mine.

~ lyrics from songs by Enrique Iglesias ~

went meridian pool with the girls after sch today
was allowed to wear civilian to sch hahas..
kinda..uncomfortable actuali cux the weather sucks.
had a great time.
very funny n "entertaining" cux huiting keep disturbing us.
(-_______-)||
then qinqin abit stern when teaching us lols..
(>.<)! then i keep worrying my eyeliner would smudge cux i was using non-waterproof. gr. damn troublesome.

currently : emo-ing
life's fallacious.
would you still believe in life?

i'd upload the photos taken today when im free =))

GASP!
i FORGET there's econs revision timed practice
damn damn damn
gotta run mug AGAIN.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!
=(

went school early for history test today..
after tat went eat mc breakfast with ah qin, wenwen n jiajia
then went ps with wenwen to fix her mp3
jiajia n qin gort things on so left us two.
ting went home meet her mum..
den the person say wen's mp3 spoil..
so we tried our luck at marina's creative again..
burt still spoil =((
then me n wenwen saw monopoly lo!
so cute hahas
he gave us fake 10000 bills
then we oso saw the simpons standboard
and took photos with the monpoly n standboard.
then i was wondering how the person see me in his monopoly suit
then i kept staring at him(i assume is a him) to try finding the "peephole"
burt cannort find LOLS.
the monopoly guy mux be feeling weird why i stare at him lidat
like stalker HAHAHAS..
after tat i went hospital visit my gran..
then went for dinner with my parents
we ate at BaliThai @ velocity
and i ate tom yum despite being sick
LOLS!
was sneezing the whole day..runny nose sorethroat n slight cough.
grrr..
i reckoned i sneezed for at least 20 times today.
(-_____-)||
feeling very uncomfortable
burt still couldnt resist the seafood tom yum hahas!
YUMMY =))

now listening to the radio broadcast by siokwen n hinfan's fren
it's his last broadcast..
first time listening so sad..
=((
all the best dixon!
hope next time can hear your broadcast again.
=))

here's the photo we took..



~siokwen with the simpons!~



~me with the simpons!~



~MONOPOLY!! hahas~

went to siokwen's house after school today
super tired de..
been chionging n mugging like mad
so today went crazing arnd with my frens.
we played monopoly at her house.
LOLS!
it's been damn long since we played tat.
like we reali seriously deprived sia.
burt reali too tired to go anywhere..
wanted to go town burt everyone's zzz~~
so we went siokwen's house then nort so tired lo.
now my eyes closing soon.
..........................................................
k la burt today very happy playing with my frens
laugh until like siao.
ytd..
gave up somethings so tat i could concentrate on studies..
or shld i say. i gave up someone.
i wish it was a right choice.
well..
i think i reali gtg slp lers.
night guys.....

ytd talked to eunice ting on msn
hms..very happy la
almost one year nvr tok to this good fren
last time in sec sch she was my best fren sia
burt after go jc..
our character la hahas..so nvr reali contact each other.
we toked bout our current life lo..
then she told me:
"follow ur heart."
should i?
burt i oso duno ward my heart wants.
well..
i have to say thanks to e.t
cux she made me look through some things.



"Big Girls Don't Cry"

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS]

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]

La Da Da Da Da Da

undeniably.
i miss you.

yer!
so disappointed.
sad liao.
=(
wa if sihui never see my phone
nvr see tat photo
i think i tis life oso wun noe.
sucks.
grrr..
after i see i reali speechless.
siokwen i guess she speechless oso lols.
zaizai tis morning still say
"dun look like leh"
burt i guess if she know she will turn off duh.
maybe.
life's full of surprises. and SHOCKS.
nvm la.
fated.
hahas..

very tired.
chionging history like it's the end of the world
sleep very little..
eyes oso red red ler..
jux now took photo with qinqin..
then wa! my eyes so sore la.
i wan sleep!!!!!!!!!

recieved a msg from fan.
sho happy hahas.
=(
why happy still =( ?
duno leh.
feeling very empty.
when i saw the mail i was like "YAY!"
hahas.
burt only for a sec.
then emo again.
nvm la.
in my depression state..as usual
esp after knowing bout ward sihui said.
damn!
very very depressed lately.
feel like everything's the end.
aiya.
dun care.
maybe one day smth will make me happy?
well.
i hope one day smth happens to make me happy.
i HOPE.

Walk Away
By: Paula Deanda



I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me
I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me

You gonna remember me boo
I'm gonna remember you too
I can't forget all the crazy shhh.. we used to do
You was doing too much
I wasn't doing enough
That's what your friends are saying
You got a man anyway
I can't explain it neither
I ain't never wanna leave ya
Hell ya its hard to walk away when I see ya
When I see ya I remember the day
You put your shoes on and moved on
Before I could say

I saw you with your new girl just yesterday
And I feel that I must confess
Even though it kills me to have to say
I'll admit that I was impressed
Physically just short of perfection
Gotta commend you on your selection
Though I know I shouldn't be concerned
In the back of my mind
I can't help but question
Does she rub your feet
When you've had a long day
Scratch your scalp
When you take out your braids
Does she know that you like too
Play PS2 till 6 in the morning
Like I do

I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away
(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)
Walk Away, Walk Away
(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)

I can't forget how we used to be
Our life from day to day
Hoping maybe you'll come back
And though I tell myself not to be afraid
To move on but it seems I can't
Though a new man has given me attention
It ain't the same as your affection
Though I know I should be content
In the back of my mind
I can't help but question
Does he kiss me on the forehead
Before we play
Show up on my doorstep
(with a bouquet)
Does he call me in the middle of the day
Just to say hey baby I love you
Like you used to

I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away
(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)
Walk Away, Walk Away
(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)

I'm Gonna Remember You
Your Gonna Remember Me
The things we did
The way we shared our fantasies
Just you and me
My friend, my love, my family
How did we loose a love that seemed meant to be
Sometimes I kiss her and wish that it was you I'm kissing
Sometimes I miss him and wish that it was you I'm missing
Sometimes I hug her and wish that it was you I was hugging
And I realize how much I'm bugging
I miss you

Walk Away, Walk Away

(I'm Gonna Remember You
Your Gonna Remember Me)

So hard to express this feeling
Cause nobody compares to you
And you know she'll never love you like I do

I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away

(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)

Walk Away, Walk Away

Remember You

(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)

(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
so sweet tis song?
yeah.
i posted tis song before..
burt decided to post it again.
with lyrics tis time.
cux was talking to siokwen today
and i thought about tis song
yeah.
it's..hais i duno.
it jux kept reminding me.
went makan at mos today..
then tok tok tok with siokwen..
then i realised..
actuali sometimes..things in tis world is reali unpredictable.
it's been YEARS ok.
never tort tat after YEARS it wld be brought up again.
life is reali ... duno. speechless.
i hope.
i oso duno ward im hoping for.
k i mux be so crazy tat i duno ward im toking about.
i jux hope.
to be happy.
ya.
maybe tat's ward im hoping for.
althou i duno how to achieve it.

used a few min and did tis little thing..
cux i rmbred qinqin said she'd love to have smth like tis..
paiseh ar qinqin..
my adobe abit sotsot..
tis's the best i can do ler..
=))

alright!
i'd be back later lo~~
=))

midyr's FINALLY over.
gosh tis is reali difficult..
feeling very very xin ku
and couldnt study well.
i know A'level's gonna be worse.
hais.
i really canort take tis
exams REALLY suck.
im so tired of everything.
i wan to throw away my everything.
i dun wan anything anymore.
i dun think i can handle anything.
im so tired.
can someone give me a break?

alright..
tok about something happy..
after the last shitty history paper ytd
me n ting they all went marina square
went seoul garden makan..
then shop wid qin for her gf's present..
then qin wanted to buy ring for doreen de
burt marina there dun have nice de.
so sweet.
it reminds me of tat time sihui tat ring..
the black one from couple lab
it's so nice..can turn de.
somemore it's BLACK!
hahas.
then i went cut hair lo
my fringe damn long very irritating.
pity fyn wasnt in..she off
sian i like her hairstyling skills.
next time book appointment wid her barhs.
after trimming my hair
wenwen went creative fix her mp3
den we all very tired
in the end we went sitting at "world of sports" (is it?)
hahas..
sit until almost wan fall asleep.
then after retrieving wenwen's mp3 we went home ler.
damn tired cux didnt sleep much the night before.
zZz..

hms..
recently
i begin to have some new thinkings
burt im feeling guilty about it.
am i very selfish n bad?
i think i am.
i keep thinking : "how can i do this?! it's so bad of me"
then i told qinling..
and i asked her "am i very bad?am i very heartless to have such thinkings?"
she told me..
"no..i think it's jux normal.maybe girls are lidat de la.always think too much."
really?is tat so?is it jux normal?
i duno la.
i really duno ward to do.
i think..i've changed.
ya. i did.
and it's nort good?
hais.
who can tell me the answer?
burt i dun dare to do anything lo.
cux im afraid of the ending.
the consequences might be dire.
i think i'd jux pray hard n die la.

chris gaylor..tyson ritter..mike kennerty..nick wheeler!!


nick wheeler~~!!!!

so cute!!
starting to like them recently..
esp nick wheeler
he's so damn cute (>.<)
hahas! bleahs~~

hate studying~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeah im back.
i know i should be studying hahas.
burt im reali dying la!!!
was on the phone wid zaizai jux now
damn funny lols
siao one la she.
burt it reali did brighten my day.
so long nvr tok to her ler sobs.
i miss my frens.
=((

toking to desmond on msn now..
glad to know tat he's doin fine
seems like he's very happy in temasek poly
he's drooling over the babes lols.

earlier on..
i talked to fan too..
he's back in hongkong now for the hols
burt he's still mugging there lols..
he's still the same i guess.
still such a nice and gentle guy.
it's been a long time.
i wonder how he's doin?
talking to him
all the memories flooded back..
(huimin if u're reading tis, pls dun anyhow say. dun cry too haha.)
i sdnly recalled the times we had together
we were so young then.
hahas..
the primary school days..
sigh.
i miss huimin oso.
rmbr how we used to make fun of fan?
hahas!
it was so carefree then.
nort like now..
hais.

as pple grow up..
we tend to close our hearts.
cux we've been hurt too many times
we close our hearts to avoid being hurt again.
it's scary.
the innocence's gone
ward's left is selfishness..lies..and heartaches.
im suddenly reminded of winston.
(cux he jux gort online)
hahas.
i cant believe he'd changed SO much.
from tat blurblur innocent boy to lidat.
i wouldnt say he's bad now.
burt duno leh..
i dun like the present him.
he used to be true and sweet.
burt hais.
yeah i know pple change.
it's cruel.
even fan will change.
yeah. i know.
he did changed.
burt..he didnt change much?
or maybe only bcux i duno la.
burt talking to him..
he's still him leh.
after so many years
how can he still be so nice??!!
i think if it's other pple
they'd ignore me already.
after all the things i've done.
i've been so extreme towards him.
it's inconceivable how he can still talk to me so nicely and gently.
is he human? lols.
burt.. im so thankful he still regards me as a fren.
he'll always..ALWAYS be my good fren.
right?
=))
after we all grow up..
minmin.. do u still rmbr?
me.. minmin.. fan.. wileen.. susanna.. liwen.. waikwong.. chinwee..
no matter how old i'd be..
i'll still rmbr the days.
the happy times we had together.
=))

~stolen from qinqin's blog..~

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i would give my tomorrows for one yesterday. i know you will too. everyday when time doesn't permit us to stay any longer i leave with only half a soul. because i left the other half with you. it's undescibable.

heart attack kills someone instantly. but a broken heart slowly eats you up.

yes. for once indeed i thank god. not because he brought us together. but because he wrote in my fate, 'you will spend the most memorable times with him and thank me even if i gave you just one day to live.'

and yes, we will be friends. i'll be there. promise.

yea we're still standing strong don't worry.

just wanted to say you're the best thing that ever happened to me.

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ok i changed the words..i changed the "her" to "him"
tis was a post by qinqin a year ago..
tat's long (o.O)
burt jux came across it and felt tat it's so sweet.
ok gtg back mugging.
later~~
=))