the singapore flyer!
the big ferris wheel that i LOVED since young.
dave actuali asked me if i wanna go with him.
we're going on next sat and i reali cant wait.=D

some photos of the flyer i grabbed from the web:


at night:


isnt it soo pretty?
it's a dream come true tat i can now finally take a ride on the tallest ferris wheel of the world.
so happy and so in anticipation~~
im really surprised he asked.
last sunday when we went out
we were on the bus going home and i saw the singapore flyer
i only told him tat since young i loved the ferris wheel
and tat very night he asked.
=D

i fell sick neh.
burt even thou i dun feel well im very very happy.
just now on the way home i passed by the singapore flyer again~
couldnt resist the temptation to come online and check out the singapore flyer website.
burt oh man, the rides are expensive.
$29 per adult leh.
(-_______-)
burt i dun care cux it's been my childhood dream till now to sit on tat.
it's finally coming true!
lalalalala~~

today called qinqin at work
she told me she's resigning.
good choice qinqin.
dun let pple step on u anymore ler ok
dun feel guilty cux u're right and they are wrong.
dun feel bad ok? we love yoU!
=D

today the maomao walked past me into the bushes.
i call out for it and said "meowmeow!"
it turned and meowed back at me.
so sweet!!!
aw =)

half an hour of happiness n laughs!

today has been a very very tiring day for me.
i went to work and reached my workplace at 7am
and then still the invigilator ask me to be earlier tmr
so tmr i have to be in by 6.45am
(T~T)

and then i spent the day packing test papers test papers n MORE test papers
checking the number of scripts sent back
i didnt even have a good lunch cux my phone's RINGING non-stop from work n personal calls,
it rang like 5 or 6 times when i was eating.
i almost choked.
and the chief invigilator came back so early
i had to shove down all my beloved ajisen ramen
and rush back with the fastest record time.
DAMN.

worked hard the whole day
=(
very tiring..then dun even have energy to talk much
burt i see everyone working so boring so i tried to joke arnd
it did lightened the atmosphere
burt after laughing pple start chatting and i just stay quiet n listen.
too tired liao LOL.
then monotonous work work work..
and anticipating the end of work.
then finally it's 6pm and dave told me he end work ler
and finally met him at the mrt station at 6.30pm
=D
he kindly printed a copy of the japanese book for me.
=D
thanks.
=D
and then we talk talk laugh laugh on the train and without realising the time,
i reach bedok ler.
=(
then we were like saying "aye, like very fast hor
burt actuali half an hour of journey just flew past.
althou it seemed like a few minutes only."
so i alighted and said thanks n bye.
and now it's anticipating tmr's end of work.
=)

oh ya!
today my workplace de maomao is lazing on the wall.
so cute.
ytd it was under the tree sleeping.
meow~~~
=D

gtg lo. sleeping lo.
nightnights all my beloved beloved frens!
=D

WEEEE~~~~~~~~~

today...
my colleague took the train with me again..saying "it's on the way"
(-______-)
HELP ME SIA.
(T~T)
then was abit "xia dao" cux ytd alrdy lidat
then i was like like "huh...again ar...*tong ku*"
i told dave and then we met at paya lebar for 3 stops again
=D
=D
=D
lucky to escape for 3 stops LOL.
burt it will be lidat until the end of this week i think
cux he's having chalet at coasta sands..pasir ris
which means same line as me
(T~T)

burt dave offered to see me home from work.
=D

lalalala~~~~
happy happy me~~~~
in a happy happy mood nowadays =)
tomorrow have to reach office at 7am ar.
very very tired sobsobs.
burt still anticipating tmr, thurs and fri.
and the singapore flyer!!!
i SO cant wait for it.

k lo i have to sleep.
need to wake up at 5am tmr (T~T)
burt i'll be looking forward to end of work!
=D

went to watch Rule #1 with dave today.
we met at bedok mrt arnd 11pm burt i was late for half an hr
><
sorry lols.
we happily took the mrt to cityhall and went marina
ate at the jap restaurant tat i had always always wanted to go!!
YAY!
he ate curry katsu don and i ate matcha zen!! YUMS
think next time must bring qinqin go eat cux qinqin like matcha!
=)

and then we went to get the tickets
and then walked around abit to wait for the movie time.
we went aracade and played lots of games there.
and wasted alort of money lol ><
we played the one tat gort red blue green buttons de,time crisis,and the jungle de
then the jungle one very nice cant rmbr name lol
and then i wasted some of his money on the doll machine ><

then we went for the movie!
it was nort too bad, good storyline.
nort very scary burt i dun dare to look at the ghost face as usual LOL.
then as usual use popcorn box to cover face LOL.
and then after the movie we went to gelare to have a drink n sit down n chat.
and then he saw me to bedok interchange.

in the meantime something very embarrassing happened i shldnt say ward it is.
he'll know STOP LAUGHING AT ME!
he duno laugh how long super paiseh la !
burt ok la i think it was funny oso lol.
just tat it's nort-so-funny since im the one being laughed at.
(-_____-)
it's all my stupid heels' fault.
(-_____-)

i wan go kbox i wan go kbox!!!
i wan play with maomao!!!!!!!!
i wan sit ferris wheel oso!!!
lols.
so many things i still wanna do.
burt only left 2weeks 2days.

hi guys im finally here to blog.
sorry for not blogging for sooo long.
part of the reason's cux my comp's down since saturday,
most of the reason's cux im just plain lazy.

alright alort of things happened.
we gort our results back,
i changed my job and is currently working at seab.

today my colleague bought me half a dozen of donuts from donut factory
and puffs from beard papas
=)
burt the bad thing is the whole office is saying there's smth going on between us
(-______-)
i didnt ask him to buy ok.
he just bought for me i already say i dun wan ler.
(-______-)

been feeling happy/bored/emo for this period of time.

happy~
gort to know a "new" fren lately and had been hanging arnd quite often.
actually not considered "new" cux i know him from guitar burt jux that we only started talking alort lately.
bored~
just plain bored.
emo~
nort emo-ing much burt sometimes still will think of stupid things.

okie tis is considered my summary of ward happened lately barhs.
really too much details to go into one-by-one la.
duno where to start and ward to talk about actually.
ward is life and why are we living?
i haven't found my answer.
everything's the same
the same old work, the same old phonecalls n sms,
the same old place, the same old emo-ness.

see that's me getting sick of life again.

when would i ever find my reason to living in this world???
after so much..
finally might be able to get into uni
burt very afraid of what lies ahead.
will i make true frens?
will i cope with the work?
time flies im nort prepared to go into the society yet.
this will be the last phase of my student life.
... ...
in a blink of eye everyone's grown up.
student life's going to be over soon.
I DON'T WANT LA.

... ....
sorry ar thinking rubbish again.
~~~~~welcome to my life~~~~~
if u wanna read my blog u should jolly well know and be prepared to read such emo stuff.
=D (sorry getting kind of attitude)


byebye.

oh man oh man oh man!!
i heard from minmin tat her school principal is opening 2 retainees classes for tis batch.
cux it was rumoured tat our batch is super lousy and even moderation didnt help.
tat's why so late release results cux needed time to moderate.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:O
*faints*
HELLLLLLLLPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

today's my last day of work!

well i still handled it quite well,
i thought i was going to get emotional.
burt well..
nice nana left early cux she didnt want the both of us to reali start emoing.
burt before she left i bit and hugged for so hard.
LOLS.

joyce gave me a cute pillow and nana gave me a SUPER cute doggie plushie tat im hugging it everywhere i go.
reali looooved the doggie.
i bought a cig box for nana, a bracelet for siqi, and a box of roche for joyce.
i will miss you guys =)

went shopping for their prezzies ytd
so dragged dave to come along
met after our work ended
and ate at fish n co,
it was my first time eating there.
we had the seafood platter for 2 and the both of us couldnt finish half of it
cux we were too busy talking and laughing and in the end we felt full alrdy.
hahas..
and then he was funny cux he didnt know how to take bus.
he's normally drove by his parents u see.
otherwise he'll take taxi.
in the end the both of us shared taxi home.
(-______-)||
i cant reali rmbr ward was said burt i just rmbred laughing all the way.
when i gort home my cheeks were so tired from the smiling n laughing.
and then still laughed somemore when he sms-ed me.
then the both of us just fell asleep beside our phones.
and then this morning he was shocked awake by my call.
LOLS!!!!!!
he said im his human alarm clock -.-
burt thanks to me otherwise he'll be late for work.
HAHAHAs...

tomorrow results are going to be out leh.
(>.<)
kancheong.
(T~T)

made a new background myself
(with credits to photobucket)
had a real hard time struggling n trying to understand javascript.
(-_______-)
the background makes my blog kinda messy burt i will try to do better tomorrow.
maybe i will try changing fonts and colors after i found the perfect font n color.
and after i figure out this damn javascript thing.
i know how to change fonts/colors/backgrounds/pics now
burt the alignment for the snowflakes seemed to have some problems after i tried changing the background.
will look for a better background again.
this is just temporary.

YAY~~~~~~~~~~!!!
today went to watch L-change the world with my beloveds.
it was great cux we all loved L.
=D
and then i caught a bambi (ok qin i know it's nort BUM bi.) on the doll machine!!!!!!!
=D=D=D
it's the biggest plushie i've ever caught.
and it's the cutest.
i've gort 3 before,
my first was a 15cm (approx) doremon.
the second was anth 15cm panda.
both aint too cute.
this bambi is cute and it's almost 30cm!!!
YAY!
i tried to get the pinnochio for qinqin after tat burt no luck =(
i thought i could catch it and wanted to try until i did burt felt embarrassed cux later my frens say i waste money again >.<

so in the end we went to get our ticks n watch the movie.
thank god qinqin's sis helped us to get the ticks online.
the cinema was flooded by pple and the line was loooooong.
and then me n qinqin happy-happy deexiao-deexiao smile-smile walked to the online/phone/visacard ticks line ---- which was totally empty.
and gort our tickets within seconds.
HAHAHAHA!
i swear i saw some pple snarling at us.
LOLS!
the movie was nice and sweet,
i loved it especially tat L is so nice n caring towards the 2 kids.
bcux he seems cold normally,
so it was extremely sweet.
felt the warmth and was touched.
at the last part when L sent Near to the orphanage and left,
i was so sad.
the screen showed L leaving..
and then as he walked away he tried to stand up straight.
it was so funny yet so sad.
the tears circled in my eyes.
burt i did laughed it off cux he looked funny with the standing straight position.

after the movie,
my cousin came to meet me.
he helped us take photos and then we went off for dinner.
sorry girls, tat i had to leave lidat.
burt i pang-sey my cousin for alort of times ler =(
so we went citylink's newyork newyork
and i had a yummy brats with bacon cheese and the FROSTED BAILEY'S CHOCO VELVET tat i had always wanted to try!!!
=D
sadly, my darn phone is crazy and i couldnt take photos =(

and their service attitude was great.
my food came first and i was waiting for my cousin's to come before i start.
so one of the waiter noticed tat and came over and tell us tat he would hurry the kitchen so i didnt have to wait till the food gets cold.
and my cousin's food came shortly after tat.
=D

and there's anth waiter tat was so funny.
he came to me and then asked "is tat a bambi?"
i nodded.
he asked again "he (referring to my cousin) gave it to you?"
i shooked my head n told him i catch it on the doll machine.
he smiled and said "wow tat's so pro of u! could u get one for me the next time?"
i said "i was just lucky. maybe u can get one for me instead haha."
he replied "ah, sure. ward's ur name?"
i told him my name and said "well maybe i could give u my number too n u could call me once u get the plushie."
(burt i was joking too la, i didnt give -.-)
and then we both laughed as he walked away to serve anth customer.
and then when he was getting us the bill..
he said "my dear u're leaving? would u give ur bambi to me? it's so cute i love it."
he was joking burt i was like (-_______-) hahas.
then i said "no?of cux nort! YOU are going to give me anth plushie instead. and u better get me a big one."
and then he said "how big a plushie u want?"
and i said "one taller than u."
and then he laughed n said "ok sure. when i get it i will put it at the entrance here n u make sure u come n get it."
hahas.

im a happy yew today! =D
qinqin's leaving for malaysia tmr, hope u have a good trip darling!
=D

lalalala~~
im in a neutral mood today.
to me, neutral mood is good mood.
good mood is extremely great day.
cux my frens out there, u all know ward kind of person i am.
=)

boss took me n siqi out to main office today.
wanted us to do designs for postcards and advertisments.
i thought our ideas was okie burt he said he dun wan smth too soft?
o.O
like those too cute stuff he dun wan (which was our deisgn)
he wanted like professional n mature stuff n showed us many examples.
burt hello?
we are SEVENTEEN AND EIGHTEEN WITH NORT MUCH EXPERIENCE?!
(-_____-)||
he seems to think tat jc kids are smart.
sorry ar, im from SRJC, LAOPOK jc.
and siqi told me tat joyce seems to be despising her cux she's an N'lvl kid.
talk to her like ordering n giving attitude.
she doesnt does tat to me.
o.O
anyway.
i just told siqi,
WTF. as if joyce herself is any better ok. i doubt she even has a dip.
*rolls eyes*
why are adults so arrogant?!

and funny nana smsed me she misses us since we left the branch n went to main office.
LOLS.
so cute la she.
=)


2 hours later... ...


im going to SLEEP.
so bored~~~~~~~
=(

i had my company lunch today.

we ended our work early at 12pm and all went to park royal hotel and had a feast!
there isnt much to talk about thou,
we just ate n then went for kboxing @suntec after tat.
still, it was fun. hahas.
here are the photos taken:

haoxiang, siqi and me:


siqi, me, nana's right ear, nana, nana's left ear, haoxiang:


nana n siqi trying to murder each other:


us 3 little "kids" with nana n the two bosses:


and then after the kboxing i met up with my mum for dinner at cityhall.
we went to lerkthai.
yums yums! =)
the green curry was great.
and i LOVEEED the grilled cuttlefish
( qinqin are u drooling u xiao pang zi? LOL )

actually kind of sad today.
cux it's haoxiang's last day.
actually it's like...ok la we only know each other for 2 months.
burt we're humans with feelings ok.
this 2 months he took care of me alort.
most of the stuff he carry n will let me bully lols.
so still will bu she de.
i just feel tat..
like... pple arnd me are leaving one by one...
( okie i know im THINKING TOO MUCH AGAIN )
burt i mean..
like you see...
althou i still meet up with my girls nowadays
burt it's like...
graduation took them out of my everyday life..
and then i came to work..met new frens like nana sq n hx.
then now haoxiang left..
soon i'll be leaving too..which means nana n sq will be out of my everyday life too..
and then i will be getting back my results soon...
if it isnt good...future looks bleak.
if it's good..meaning i can go uni...im unsure of the future too.
i mean now im unsure la.
maybe i could cope when i reali face uni life.
burt..duno.
maybe it bcux im just unsure of life.
i havent really found the meaning of life,
and the reason for living.
i guess i just have to search harder...
sigh.
there wouldnt be anymore haoxiangs when i go to work next monday onwards.

i wanna forget
i wanna be happy
burt when i see u online again
the pain is there again.
now i know...
i have been feeling happy for the past week cux i didnt see you..
i thought i've forgotten...
burt i realised....
it's becux i didnt feel ur existence (since u r in outfield) tat i didnt feel so bad..
cux i will treat u as a dream...far away from reality.
and since it's a dream...it didnt hurt so much.
burt now tat u're back again..
the pain is back cux i know u're real.
it's nort just a dream.

another day of work.
working back at Cotten Care was so far so good.
cux new year's just over and there isnt much to do yet.

im in a good mood now actually.
just getting kind of bored.
this saturday is our company lunch @royal hotel!
yippeee!
hope it's good. =)

hm...
recently im feeling rather okie.
the emoing n missing had nort been so strong.
it's like im very temperamental i know,
one moment this, one moment tat.
hope this good mood could be here to stay.

it is kboxing day!!

we were also celebrating shushu's birthday in advance
cux i tort we're all working and it would be better if we celebrate it on a weekend where everyone's relaxed and energetic
anyway
i met qinqin up for lunch at 12.30pm
and we ended up walking from orchard mrt to far east
cux she said she wanted to go there.
i tort she said she wanted to go there n EAT so i jux said ok.
in the end we go there we DUNO WARD TO EAT
then i asked her "u say wan come here de so ward u wan eat?"
and she replied "i only wanted to come here to walkwalk cux vry long nvr come ler."
(-________-)
and i was like thinking "tian ar im starving"
so we ended up buying Shi Lin chicken chop and fruits
thinking we jux eat some finger food n later go wisma for lunch.
then we gort SO full by the "finger food" and the chicken chop made the both of us breathe out fire.
we even shared one chicken chop burt couldnt finish it bcux i think the person was trying to murder us by adding so much chilli powder.
he gave us an extra big serving thou. ( maybe he's oso trying to stuff us )
so we took a walk arnd, and ended up to mogu mogu's to try out the cute bento.

here're the photos we took:

chicky chick bento!!!! how cute!:



a close up of the chick:



we gave it a "hat":



qin trying to "sexual harass" the chick LOLS:



and me trying to eat it up haha:


oh ya!
we also saw this weird guy tat keeps drinking water.
it's like he drank TWO LARGE drink from KFC
and ONE CAN of soya milk.
(-_______-)
me n qin were thinking there's a high possibility he'll have his fourth drink too.
well so after that we went to meet shushu,
and went to kbox @cineleisure.
then at arnd 5pm tingting n jiajia popped out with the cake
they bought oreo cheesecake n it was excellent!
*drools*
shushu was surprised!
and we're so glad to see her happy =)
happy birthday again shushu! hope you liked the day! =))

here are the photos @kbox:


shushu and qinqin AND our messy table:


shushu n qinqin with mic:



unglam me n qin take 1:



unglam me n qin take 2:



unglam me n qin were singing "ai cuo" by leehom:



and then after the session ting n jia left while we continued singing for an hour
then meeting up again after tat for dinner @takashimaya
and here are some zilian-ing photos of us in taka's toilet:



(i will add more photos in after receiving them from jiajia n shushu's camera)

that's all for now!=))

happy valentine's everyone!

as usual.
this year's valentine's im single.
and this year,
there's NO SCHOOL
NO FRENS to hang arnd with.

burt hey,
im taking it well.

eddie's right.
valentine's day is overrated.
one can be happily single on valentine's too.
at least im happily chatting on msn now. haha.
to 8 singles???
im definately breaking my msn chatting record.

saw the reply. the doll IS a volks williams.
the point is,
the collectors like to change their eyes and face paint,
so this volks williams looks different from the original one on the volks web.
it's a main structure of the doll, then pple customize it.
ah.. now we know.
learnt so much from this.
and im starting to be interested i think.
burt one thing for sure,
i wanna find that doll and buy it.

if anyone sees it plsplsplspls tell me plssssssssss?
here's the pic of the volks williams im searching desperately for:



it's the doll in white suit, in the individual photo on the left,
and wearing specs in the groupie.

i've found the owner.
he created this doll.
the problem is, i dun think he wanna sell it?
burt i've just ask him if he would sell, or know anyone else who has the exact same doll.
keep ur fingers crossed and pray hard for me pls.
i really really wan tat doll so much.

i guess i should not watch "e zuo ju zhi wen" ( a taiwanese idol serial ).

bcux everytime after i watch it,
i get too into it and feel sad.
bcux i know i'll never be as lucky as the girl in the show,
to be able to spend so much time with the guy i like.
this is getting bad cux it makes me emo.

eventually the girl will get married to that guy she liked for 5years.
all along,
it was an one-sided love for the girl,
burt after knowing each other for so long,
the guy felt touched by her actions bit by bit,
and fell for her too.

althou i know it's a happy ending already,
i wanna watch on.
bcux it's nort the ending that makes me feel touched,
it's the process of how the girl strived on and was heart broken again n again.
burt still, she clinged onto that faith,
the faith that she loved the guy,
and the hope that he will be touched one day.

i know it's stupid.
taiwanese idol serials are nothing burt fairytales of the modern world.
and that a girl should never get so crazy for a guy,
to put down her pride and soul,
for a guy who most probably will never love her back.
burt.. who says this is impossible in the real world?
it can be that a girl is waiting stupidly for this guy she like for a long time too.
the only part that will never come true is only the ending.
which good-looking, IQ200 genius guy will be so honest n true?
and choose a blur and dumb girl over the other smart beauties?
the ending was bullshit.
burt it still made my tears flow.
bcux..
isnt that ward i'll never be able to achieve?

i duno ward i wanna achieve too.
why am i waiting?
ward am i hoping for?
i dun have any answer.

a simple "hi" could make my day.
a simple call could make my week.

the guy felt touched eventually because he could SEE and KNOW all the things the girl did for him.
burt he couldnt see ward i've done and went thru,
so he'll never know.
how can he be touched this way?!

so it's hopeless for me.
i wished i could be like the girl.
i wanna be there,
burt he's drifting further n further instead.
im willing to do anything,
give up everything,
wait forever,
to exchange that one day of him turning arnd and notice me.
i could trade a lifetime for a day.
no?
how about a lifetime for an hour then?
god can u hear me???!

no. no replies from god, no chance no hope.
no im nort a christian,
burt i've been praying to him since i was 12 to grant this little wish of mine.
christians, no offence pls.

someone laughed and jokingly told me that im under a spell.
i wished, at least there'll be an antidote.
where's MY antidote??!

he was packing earlier,
now, he just left home, back to camp.
i rushed thru my stuff to come back online before he leaves,
so that i could pathetically hold onto the last minute to see the green little figure beside his name STILL green.
now it's back to red again.
and then i'll have to wait another five days before it turns green again.
and then the same routine again.
i pathetically typed a msg to him
gort his pathetic answer telling me he's "packing n have to go already"
and then pathetically told him to take care cux i didnt know ward else to say.
and pathetically came here to emo again.
and then now pathetically staring at the window he replied me,
and that pathetic sentence:
"[ahfan]™ HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!! WISHING ALL ANG POW MANY MANY!!!! appears to be offline. Messages you send will be delivered when they sign in. E-mail this contact instead"
now how PATHETIC can i get???!!!

why make myself so miserable when i can be happier,
why choose misery over happiness?
burt that's my choice.
and i will never regret it.
( this is to the other him is reading this. in case u're wondering. )

well. enough of emo-ing.
time to get back to my senses.
work tomorrow,
and cant wait for sunday to come.
cant wait to meet my mates,
cant wait for kboxing.

pray for me that tmr's work isnt too stressful pls.

still feeling abit grey today
burt the work and hanging arnd with my colleagues made me forget about emo for awhile.
smart nana...
saw thru me and sms-ed me if im ok.
she was the only one who felt the emo in me..
she's really nice,
wanted to take me for a starbucks treat today.
unfortunately..thanks to MR ANTHONY (lao pa) who gort his accounts wrong.
we couldnt go for lunch with the boss and she couldnt treat me.
we waited for the lunch till 3.30pm
cux the boss-es wanted to treat us a meal at tampines.
in the end cux the accounts wrong we couldnt leave
and the treat had to be postponed to after newyr.
in the end we ate our lunch at 3.30pm (x.X)
(-_____-)

sadded`
nana's going back malacca tonight..
wouldnt be seeing her tmr
and wouldnt be seeing her arnd for 2weeks cux im taking leave from 11-15th feb.

something funny happened today.
a customer sent her curtains over for washing
and they're white curtains with star-prints on it.
burt it's so old it's turning greyish-and the prints are fading.
i think the prints were those kind of iron-on rubber prints.
so it's quite fragile especially since they were so old.
and then after wash and drying
the auntie came upstairs to our office and said
"nana, i show u something very BEAUTIFUL."
and then she was like "TADA!" and flashed the washed-curtains.
everyone stoned for a minute and then fell laughing to the floor.
cux after washing, the old curtains were torn with many many holes.
burt the funny thing is.
the holes are all STAR-SHAPED.
it looks like someone use the star-shaped cutter for baking cookies to cut it thru.
and then i said
"now we can call the customer and tell her we've gort her new-styled curtains."
it's hilarious tat all the holes all STAR-SHAPED okie?
LOL.

it's half day work tomorrow
let's hope the kbox outing with qin n shu arrives fast.
i always love it when im with them.

~still waiting stupidly.~

work was crazy ytd..
with the rushing of stuff before new year holidays start.
nana give me a breakfast treat in the morning before work
and told me stuff bout her life.
it was nice of her.
=)
things were fine except i gort pissed off with haoxiang cux he didnt help me out at first.
burt he coaxed me and things gort better in the end.

and then i went to buy my clothes today!
kind of happy cux i gort the dress i saw with qinqin at mango tat day.
it's a sweet dress.
finally i found my new year clothes after shopping for 3weeks.
LOL?

it's sunday and u're gone again.
as usual,
i havent been talking to you.
it's like.. one week and 2 days since i talked to you.
and.. 3 weeks and 2 days since you talked to me.
it's shane ward's breathless on 98.7 fm now.
the artist n song u introduced me.
im thinking of you.
i feel so... helpless when it comes to you.

who could tell me ward to do?
who could tell me how to forget you?

today's work suck to a certain extent.

i shouldnt talk about ward sucked burt yes it's bcux of stupid AUNTIE-joyce and some stupid uncles again.
now i know nort only aunties are bad, uncles are as well.
( i dun mean all thou. jux tat alort of them do. )
basically, i hate the adult world.
i hate this society thing.
i dun wanna grow up,
can i remain a young 18 yr old pls?
burt it's impossible.
maybe when i turn 30 i will get so pissed off with the world the society the HUMAN creature and the turning old and wrinkles and stuff
then i will go kill myself and get reborn as a cat.

yes this sounds crazy burt who knows?
i might get so tired and sick of life i will do exactly tat.

or maybe on HIS wedding day i will do tat.
ah yes eunice goh dun be THAT crazy and stupid and dumb and retarded to kill urself when HE gets married to ANTH girl ok!

look im really crazy to think about these.
im just in one-of-those-kind-of-mood again.

i dun wanna tok bout such pissing-me-off stuff.
burt im seriously, very, super, tired.
my arms are aching like shit,
and tmr's saturday and yes there's work AGAIN.
i cant wait for the kbox meetup with shushu n qinqin.
i hope we'll organise it like SOON burt i know it will be at least after CNY hols.

it's like damn.
lately im starting to feel abit sad again.
im refraining myself ok? i really am trying very hard.
burt i guess im starting to have the "im-alone" mood AGAIN.
bcux nowadays, my beloved frens cant be there everyday to pull me out of the "alone-ness" thing.

nope im nort lonely, cux i know i have my sweetest and closest mates like qinqin n shushu.
burt i reali yearn for someone to be there for me.
i just need someone to be there for me whenever im tired..
to give me a chest to lie on and let me rest from the busy day.
i just need someone to be there for me whenever im sad..
to wipe my tears for me and give me a good ol' hug and tell me he's there and everything's gonna be alright.
i just need someone to be there for me whenever im angry n provoked
to give me a listening ear and pat my head and tell me tat i dun have to bother about such pple.

where is HE?
is it really THAT difficult to find someone who can do all these?
i know of someone who can definitely achieve these,
without me even saying anything he can guess my thoughts.
burt too bad,
he's nort mine.
and i dun think i'll ever have that one-tiny-weeny-chance.

all i ever need is that ONE chance.
you know?
it's been sooo long?
i know if i ever have that ONE chance,
i'll definitely hold onto it forever.
cux after going thru so much and so long,
i know more than anyone how impt you are.
the memories are still so vivid,
it was like yesterday.
burt we're all grown up now,
i cant believe how time flies.
cliche, burt i cant believe why fate abandoned us like that.
no.. fate abandoned me.
why must it be "fated burt nort meant to be"?
i would rather it be nort fated at all.
at least it would not make me hang onto it so much.
why let us be fated burt nort give us a chance?
why so cruel?

i was thinking the other day
if god ask me one day,
to give me a chance to go back to the past,
and skip the day knowing you,
will i want that?
im very determined and my answer will be,
even if i have to start all over,
go back to that day when i met u
and then go through all these all over again,
my answer is still NO.
i would go through these a million times if i could,
cux that would mean i could go through the days i spent with you for another million times.

it was only for a mere 5months or so,
burt do you know, those days with you were the happiest days of my life?

i've never regretted knowing you.
you are the only person i'll never, ever regret knowing.

went out with qin after work ytd!
it was funfunfun!
she was so crazy and i was so happy to see her.
we met at parkway at 6pm+
and then went for meesiam!
qin finally get to eat the meesiam after visiting there for the third time
(the first 2 times the stall wasnt up lol)
she had the sooo contented face when she finally get to eat it lol.
and then we talked and laughed so much we couldnt eat our dinner properly.
hahahas..
and then the guy sitting at the table behind us were staring at qinqin so weirdly when she pretended to cry
HAHAHA..
and we saw this auntie with a super HOT hairstyle
(qin said maybe she could balance a plate on her hair LOL)
i laughed so hard i was shaking and i almost puke out my laksa
in the end the both of us agreed to shut up and finish up our meal first
burt we always gave up and started talking.
lol.

afterwhich,
we went to shop arnd for my contact lens, clothes and toner,
while qin needed to shop for her present, teeth whitener and earphones.
she gave me lots of suggestions on clothes,
and there was this blouse she made me wear at espirit,
and i thought it was nice.
burt i wasnt used to seeing myself lidat so i didnt buy in the end..

i went to get contact lenses and the stupid shop took away my lenses and ask me to come back 20min later for an eye check up.
i just walked arnd like a blind woman and qin was my only support.
and i had to shop for clothes like that.
in the end i have to place the clothes so near to me squinting so tat i can see and i was like some weirdo.
qin just kept laughing and walking here and there to tease me
( cux she was my ONLY support, then i was like "qinqin where are you??!!" )
after tat we went back to the optics and then qin started to fool arnd again.
she said i looked like a cyclops with the optics specs
and then it's like qinqin went arnd disturbing pple tat we duno.
for example.
the guy said i could come back next time and ask for an eye check up again
then qin said "burt her eyes dont want to see you~~"
and then the guy laughed and muttered something i cant rmbr and she said
"burt her contact lenses dont want to see you~~"
then after tat i asked the guy if he needs to take a look at the eyedrops im using n he said ok
then qin said "burt her eyedrops dont want to see you~~"
then i was like (-______-)||
the guy must be cursing inside LOL.
then gort this woman who came in and shouted so loud at the guy
"oh HI JEREMIRE!" and started to ask him stuff
then before we left qin said
"BYE JEREMIRE~~"
and he was like "eh??how did u all know my name??"
burt we just laughed and said bye and left
leaving the silly guy feeling weird how we know his name.
LOLS!

after some shopping,
qin saw me to bedok interchange,
she wanted to see me home burt i didnt allowed
afterall she still have to work the next day.
i dun wan to see my fren so tired ok?=)
anyway...thanks for the dinner-meetup duh.
and thanks for seeing me home
we'll see each other very soon again huh?^^

today's work was fun cux nana came to help
then stupid nana keep irritating me again.
for example.
we were double checking the stocks,
so she's reading out the invoice numbers and im checking,
then it's like: -
nana: "6021"
me: "okie"
nana: "6069"
me: "okie"
nana: "6069"
me: "...okie here!"
nana: "6069"
me: (turning arnd to look at her) "i already said it's here lor! there!"
nana: "6069...the recorder spoil already. HAHAHHAHA!"
me: ".....(-____-)|| maybe if i try hitting the recorder it will be okie again."
nana: "6032....ok already HAHA."

and then i drew on nana's hand writing "IM DOREMON! HUG ME!"
lols...
so funny la. haha.
work's so fun with her arnd.
burt i really dread the work.
(T~T)