my mid term ended today!
actuali i only have 2 mid term papers - econs n film art
zarifah only have film art so good la!
me n jiajia same.
dun dare to think about the grades thou.
especially for econs (T~T)

reached home at 9pm plus..
zzz..
really dying of fatigue.
today had econs mid term.
6pm - 8pm
horrible man.
pls help me pray.
(>.<)o

getting more and more unable to study.
this is getting worse and worse.
today got quite a few breaks.
11pm - 4pm.
i ate my lunch until 12pm lidat with zarifah
then jiajia reached school
and she say want to go science eat.
then aiya, i see so much time
ok lo. since she always wanted to go so much.
help her complete her wish. LOL
then went science library which was DAMN! QUIET!
wa so different from central library (arts lib) la
central's like marketplace more than lib lol.
but didnt study much la
keep talking to jiajia zarifah n zul
(-_____-)||
then very fast 4pm liao
went for slack IT tutorial
end at 5pm
5pm - 6pm free again.
so tried to study with zul at BK.
then we were only halfway thru the paper me n him going to die liao.
so we stopped n i rested for 15min while he sit there stone.
both waiting for the doomed econs paper LOL
yea and went for the paper.
which was, well, disaster.

really very sick duh.
today was duno why, i felt reali like enjoying school with frens.
first time.
like.. finally get to have some fun with frens
like exploring the school... getting lost taking shuttle bus...
LOL...
long time nvr felt so "at school" ler.
i really missed the old kind of schooldays.
uni is not considered school at all marhs!
no fun!
=.=
then me and zul now on msn
then we realise..
less than 6weeks time we are changing classmates again.
....................................
and it's like.
i just started to know my IT frens can!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ward the.
im just starting to be able to join in their crap and fun
and it was quite difficult at first cux the guys always tok bout guy stuff i dun understan
then now finally understan abit
going to say byebye liao.
........................................
hate uni!!!!!

i really dun enjoy the life im leading now at all.

now let me have a good rest tonight before having to MUGMUGMUG for film tmr n sunday.

get lost books!
for tonight at least.
(T~T)

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still waiting.. still staring..

hais.

yewyew cannort study!!!!!!!!!!!
mid term is on friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but i dun have the energy to do anything.
i just feel like curling up and die!!!!!

im so gonna flunk my mid term.

hais.

at 11:04PM

yewyew feels slightly better after chatting with dixon and jiajia.

lols.

yewyew feels like dying...............
who is going to save me
(T.T)

a long time ago minmin asked yewyew
"are you sure?"
yewyew nodded her head.
now, minmin asked yewyew the same question again.
"are you sure?"
yewyew said.
"i will never regret."

ytd qinqin asked yewyew
"yewyew will u go search all the islands?"
yewyew knew her reply straightaway.
"i will search all islands until i find it."

today minmin asked yewyew
"what if it is finally conveyed and seen?"
yewyew replies.
"it wouldnt make a difference anyway. it is never bothered nor cared by anyone."

yewyew wants all minmin qinqin shushu tingting jiajia with her...........
then she can emo to them.

emoing alone is really horrible.

emoing and staring and being alone is worse.

~hello staring. you're early here this week.~

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5 cents made my 1 whole week!
=D

thank you.

i was talking with dave the other day about the end of the world.
and suddenly it hits me that i have alort of things not done.
yet i wish the end of the world comes sooner
bcux it would hurry me to do the things i've not done.
say the things i've not said.
that i never had the courage to do so.

have you ever thought of the things u wanna do if u only have one more day to live?

this is a really cliche kind of qns
burt i tort nobody would really go n think about it.

if i've only a day to live.

i tort i would have lots to say
burt i realise actuali i've only a few words.
and i guess after saying them out
i would really wan to spend the last moments of my life with the person i love most.
but who is the person tat i love most?
tat i couldnt answer.
perhaps since i couldnt decide i would wanna be with all the people i love.

i was browsing through some famous singaporean bloggers' blogs just now
bcux i saw the names of the blogger on the newspaper this morning and
i rmbered coming across one of the blogger's friendster and was wow-ed by her beauty
so i decided to check out her blog and well it just brought me to the others' blogs too
naming a few like xiaxue, dawn yang and nira chan.
nira chan was the blogger which i came across her friendster profile 2 years ago.
i never had the interest in reading blogs of people whom i do not know
so this is considered a first time.
in the past qinqin would have told me about this blogger n etc
and i wasnt really interested.
today, i spend the time to read some parts of their blog.
hmm.. and my conclusion after reading?
well.. i havent got much comments bcux i really dun feel anything?
it's just a blog anyway. a place where the bloggers record their daily life events.
it's just that a few of them like nira is really pretty.
well dawn is pretty too but seems like pple says she's plastic?
anyway i still couldnt understand why there's so much commotion about it.
hahas (o.O)||

it's been mugging and studying for me today and ytd
well today i havent been studying much as u can see.
today's friday and there goes my term break.
sobs.
nxt monday's gonna be schoolday again
!!!
i cant wait for the december holidays already
but i guess the december hols has another thing to dread about -
bidding.
FAINTS!

i feel sick.
i feel freeeeaaaaaaaaking sick.
know why am i up so early in the morning today?
to do my stupid readings.
but i ended up checking my mails and surfing arnd and i havent read a single word at all
wth.
i know la my fault
burt i really feel damn sick.
later 10.30am must go school liao.
monday somemore.
and i dun feel at all like going anywhere.
heck it man.

ytd was a day crushed by history
and i actually forced myself to swallow the assignment and finish it.
i dun know how i did and i dun wanna think about it.
to think tat it's graded.
OH MAN.
and then i started doing history in the morning all the way till late afternoon,
almost evening.
then i wanted to do my film art readings at night burt when i looked at it i felt so sick
so i thought i'll do it today morning.
oh well everyone could see ward im doin now.
blogging instead of reading.
damnit.
and i dun feel at all like dragging myself over to the sofa and bringing my notes to me.
no i dun.
nonononononono
get away from me.

then all the while when i was doin my history ytd
i was on msn appearing offline.
but i know better than to chat with anyone and end up getting my history screwed up too.
so i didnt.
so while i was doin my history.
people pop up and go.
online and off.
it was sunday.
so it was all about the staring, the emptiness, and the speechlessness again.
until finally, it's offline.


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been feeling damn sian n empty these few days.
duno why.
maybe study too much i feel damn lifeless.
hais.
since school started i havent been able to go out properly at all.
=(
and somemore,
even if in school,
dun have much to play cux no breaks, no one to play with.
like go to school attend lessons go home liao
school time very short so nort like last time,
got recess, got lunch, got free period with frens.

i miss everything.
i miss my life. where is it now?
=(

i finally bought my lappie and ipod touch!
ahaha veryvery happy love both of them muackmuack
lol i love them so much everytime pick them up i very careful
cannort let anything happen to them LOL.

it was teacher's day on monday & i sent sms-es to some of my fav teachers
kok kok of cux!!!!!!!!!!!!
=D
and u noe ward!
he sent me his son's photo!!!!!!!!
OMGOMGOMG
u know i saw the photo n i exclaimed in surprise!
so cute ok.
but due to their privacy, i shalt not post it
if u wan see can ask me ok!=D
so cute so sweet so happy for tis fav teacher of mine.

very tired ar today after school still mux teach tuition.
but ok la, my student very weak so wanna help her
then after tuition it was raining heavily wor
i took 28 go home then motion sick-ness almost vomit out on the bus.
(-_________-)||
damn dots.
but thanks darling for calling me and distracting me from the uncomfy feeling=)

ward isit on earth tat im searching for in my future?

i used to have ward i want in the future planned out.
why am i suddenly lost?

why everything tat im once working towards,
i dun feel like doing them anymore?

why do i sdnly feel tat..i've no confidence of passing thru this stage?

and why am i being put down by my mother?
or rather, why am i putting myself down???

i've no confidence. im lost. i feel small. i feel lousy
i duno ward i wan. i duno why im studying.
i duno.

can someone please tell me where to find myself?

in anyway. my phone number/address/house number is still the same. always open to you my dear qinqin.

let's go eat choco muffins again =)

okie i was browsing huimin's blog and my i was sooo shocked!
she plucked up the courage to post her past photos to everyone
*OMG*
i think i'll never have tat kind of courage ok.
same goes for anth of my longtime fren diona
to the both of you..
i salute u guys!!
really really. applause!

i wonder when i'll ever have tat courage!(>.<)o huimin pardon me burt i have have have to show everyone pple! i tell you ! i've known minmin since pri school and at tat time.. i know her as...

but look how gorgeous she is now...



(i shldnt post diona's without her permission)
howhowhow!
now minmin so pretty liao hor!
haha tat's my pri sch bestie
ask me for her number anytime!
=D

and then she asked me to post mine..
er...
we shall see huh?
=)
LOLS.

today had history lecture
quite funny.
the lecture was supposed to be from 4pm-6pm
burt it started at 4.10pm and ended 4.40pm
LOLS!!!!!!!!!
funny la onli intro intro then go home liao=.=
quite waste time sia.
althou i dun like history,
burt actuali i wished they taught something
at least i learnt something marhs.
now i feel like..i went school for nothing.
(-_____-)||

then after the "history lecture",
zarifah, xavier, AL and me went to engineering to check out my venue for IT class on thurs
then we realised it's reeeali far
so we ended up in mac instead.
then we ate and chat there and it started pouring reali heavily
when we finished eating we went home as the rain had stopped
but the very moment we stepped out of the engin block,
a gust of wind blew and raindrops splattered on us
zarifah, AL and me were like "waaaaaa!!!!!!!!"
and we all ran back into the block again for shelter.
we thought it started raining again and were like "WALAO SO SUAY!"
but it was actuali the wind blowing the raindrops off the trees=.=
so de ne ne but we had a good laugh.
HAHAHAS!
especially zarifah AL n me were like "WAAAA!!!!!"
girls =x
LOLS!!!!!!!!!

today is officially the first day of lessons.
this week we're only having lectures thou,
tutorials will start next week after.

our very first lecture of uni life is - intro to film art.
i have to say,
it's a really very good lecture to start the new school life with.
it's extremely interesting (at least to me)
and i reali loved it.
althou the film we watch after tat (some 1924 US silent film called "Greed")
was quite a snoreeee movie,
relatively, the lecture was a good one.

like me n jiamin said,
"we'll never look at movies the same way again."

LOLS.
seriously.
we never realised that there's so much in a movie.
we're normally only more concerned about the storyline, plot, characters & artists
but for the very first time (at least for me too)
we're looking at the way the camera angles are held, how it's shot, the different takes
and manymany smallsmall details that we've never thought tat they're impt.
through all this,
we are looking thru the director's eyes.
thinking like the director.
cool isnt it!
=D

and it's really amazing how the lecturer could link the truck as a metaphor to a cyclops.
HAHAHA!

in all. i really love today's lecture.
maybe it's too early to say but it's a good start and im glad it has been.
after all the stress and worries,
today's start had eased me up a LITTLE bit.
better than nothing.
lols.

im having history lecture tmr thou.
cant imagine (x.X) (OH MAN!)

i realise we cant keep people with us,
because time and the sucky reality washes everything away
bit by bit, and before u notice, its gone.
its not totally gone yet i know,
but bitbybit i think im losing you.
maybe when u read my blog now u'll feel tat my life is now different from urs
im talking about things u dun know
hanging out with frens u dun know
living in a world u dun know.
and u'll wonder.. is this still the friend i know?
i only wanna tell u.
yes im still the eunice u knew and i'll always be.
no matter how much my life had changed.
just like ward u always tell me,
im ur fren, and it will stay that way.
only tat, i wanna add something in.
u're my best fren, and it will stay that way.
in any way, i noe u wanna be left alone so i'll respect tat.
it's not sympathy, because it's something i feel tat i wan my best fren to be happy.
it's not negligance, because althou im letting u have time alone,
u know im always talking about u. everyday. to everyone. around me.
i hope tis msg could reach ur heart.
listen to my heart with urs.. ok?
eunice will always be ur eunice. (cheesy cheesy XD)

i saw 13 different maomao today!!!!!!!!
SO HAPPY TODAY IS MY LUCKY DAY!!!!!
meeeeeeeeow!
XD

very irritated leh.
why so many things to do one.
stupid orientation so ma fan for ward.

~partly adapted from me&baby's blog~

hi im here to blog!
went to sentosa with baby on wednesday and we had a great time!
we met at 10.30@bedok and ate at BK @vivocity
then we went to palawan to fly kite
it was a very gd kite but sadly no wind =.=
it was damn sunny la!
in the end we tried quite alort of times the kite oso dun fly
(T.T)
baby more poor thing cux he's the one running not me
=x
*patpat*

so we took tram to siloso instead lor.
we went to kayak, and it was great cux we can kayak very fast since dar is stronger.
if just us girls kayak very slow LOL
then we kayak to the little island n dar taught me how to swim
but i still cant swim LOL
but i can float abit leh!
yay!!
hahas..
then we went to return the kayak n played with the waters
and then we went to wash up and went earl's swesens @vivo for dinner
it's reali veryvery delicious.
different from normal swensens neh
the fisherman's catch is even nicer than the seafood platter from fish&co

it was reali nice n fun we shld go when we can!
girls u guys owe me a sentosa outing too!!
HMPH

bidding sucks.
good night pple.
im not going for orientation tmr im dying of fatigue.

BIDDING SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!