can i say break up?
im feeling terrible
yet i dun have the courage
and i dun bear to break up wid u
cux i love u
can someone tell me ward to do?
why is this happening?
why have we came to this?
someone pls save me
my heart is broken
my heart is almost dying.
Friday, November 17, 2006
today chat wid forest ne
thou he never say much
burt it was truly enlightning
lols.
forest read tis dun float into sky.
burt reali..
after hearing ward forest said
i never realised tat dar was lidat lo..
hms..
maybe i do noe in my heart,
burt everytime gort probs i will think of the worst.
actuali dar's jux like the crowned prince..
nort good at expressing his feelings
and it's jux his character. jux him.
so..
i have to accept it since i love him barhs.
i will try..
i noe it's hard burt i will..
thou he never say much
burt it was truly enlightning
lols.
forest read tis dun float into sky.
burt reali..
after hearing ward forest said
i never realised tat dar was lidat lo..
hms..
maybe i do noe in my heart,
burt everytime gort probs i will think of the worst.
actuali dar's jux like the crowned prince..
nort good at expressing his feelings
and it's jux his character. jux him.
so..
i have to accept it since i love him barhs.
i will try..
i noe it's hard burt i will..
Sunday, November 05, 2006
tmr is his birthday
i will always rmbr bcux it's only a day before mine
so very difficult to forget la
it's always him tat can make me laugh
and cheer me up.
i will never feel sad when im wid him.
burt he's jux history,
i noe,
and i have no feelings for him anymore.
still,
im glad to have met him-
somemore who can always cheer me up when im sad
share my happiness
and never make me cry.
such a perfect guy in my heart.
i will always rmbr bcux it's only a day before mine
so very difficult to forget la
it's always him tat can make me laugh
and cheer me up.
i will never feel sad when im wid him.
burt he's jux history,
i noe,
and i have no feelings for him anymore.
still,
im glad to have met him-
somemore who can always cheer me up when im sad
share my happiness
and never make me cry.
such a perfect guy in my heart.
why is this happening again?
am i reali so stupid,
always making u unhappy?
tell me ward to do to be ur ideal girl.
am i jux ur teddy bear?
when u happy hug me
when u r nort kick me away
do u noe treating me lidat makes me very sad?
am i ur gf or nort?
can u stop breaking my heart?
can u stop making me sad?
can you stop making me cry?
can you???
i dun hate u,u noe de
i always think too much?
i think is u too insensitive barhs.
y r u always giving me attitude?
im nort jux ur any fren.
if u cant treat me well,
at least stop breaking my heart!
im sorry if u r reading tis
im nort scolding u
burt im reali very upset.
how can u treat someone who loves u,
and someone whom u love tis way??!
u make me question myself
"am i reali a good gf or nort?"
"am i reali tat bad?"
pls
im begging u
dun push me away anymore can?
everytime when i feel tat we getting nearer
everytime when i feel very blissful
den quarrel
over STUPID SMALL things!
i hate it.
i hate it when u treat me lidat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
am i reali so stupid,
always making u unhappy?
tell me ward to do to be ur ideal girl.
am i jux ur teddy bear?
when u happy hug me
when u r nort kick me away
do u noe treating me lidat makes me very sad?
am i ur gf or nort?
can u stop breaking my heart?
can u stop making me sad?
can you stop making me cry?
can you???
i dun hate u,u noe de
i always think too much?
i think is u too insensitive barhs.
y r u always giving me attitude?
im nort jux ur any fren.
if u cant treat me well,
at least stop breaking my heart!
im sorry if u r reading tis
im nort scolding u
burt im reali very upset.
how can u treat someone who loves u,
and someone whom u love tis way??!
u make me question myself
"am i reali a good gf or nort?"
"am i reali tat bad?"
pls
im begging u
dun push me away anymore can?
everytime when i feel tat we getting nearer
everytime when i feel very blissful
den quarrel
over STUPID SMALL things!
i hate it.
i hate it when u treat me lidat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Thursday, October 12, 2006
in the beginning
everything is like a fairytale.
perfect
and almost even the smallest things make u happy.
of cux
small things still make me happy
a little smile
even if jux a sec of eye contact
can make my day.
burt..
as we move on..
things will get to settle down..
things will get simple
and nort as exciting anymore
burt tat's ward love is like.
yups..
i still love u more den anything
u r still my everything.
burt little conflicts occur
every now n then.
making me n u upset
unhappy
sometimes breaking my heart.
burt still.
i will nort leave u.
bcux i love you alort alort alort.
always.
everything is like a fairytale.
perfect
and almost even the smallest things make u happy.
of cux
small things still make me happy
a little smile
even if jux a sec of eye contact
can make my day.
burt..
as we move on..
things will get to settle down..
things will get simple
and nort as exciting anymore
burt tat's ward love is like.
yups..
i still love u more den anything
u r still my everything.
burt little conflicts occur
every now n then.
making me n u upset
unhappy
sometimes breaking my heart.
burt still.
i will nort leave u.
bcux i love you alort alort alort.
always.
Friday, September 22, 2006
long time never blog
i come here onli to say one thing.
project work sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Damn
Idiot
Nabe
Er xin
Shit
Hum
Stupid
U...cant think of any vulgarities lols
Cheebye
Kanasai
Sucks to the core!!!!!!!
~select all n read the first word of every line~
i come here onli to say one thing.
project work sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Damn
Idiot
Nabe
Er xin
Shit
Hum
Stupid
U...cant think of any vulgarities lols
Cheebye
Kanasai
Sucks to the core!!!!!!!
~select all n read the first word of every line~
Sunday, August 20, 2006
-stolen from Si Hui's blog-
Message: 10th Grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me.
She was my so-called "best friend".
I stared at her long, silky hair.
I wished she were mine,
but she didn't notice me like that.
And I knew it.
After class she walked up to me
and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before,
and I handed them to her.
She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I wanted to tell her.
I wanted her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her,
but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why.
11th Grade
The phone rang.
It was her on the other end.
She was in tears,
mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart.
She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone,
so I did.
As I sat next to her on the sofa,
I stared at her soft eyes,
wishing she was mine.
After 2 hours,
a Drew Barrymore movie,
and three bags of chips,
she decided to go to sleep.
She looked at me,
said "thanks,"
and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her.
I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her,
but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why.
12th Grade
The day before prom she walked to my locker.
"My date is sick," she said. He's not going to go.
Well, I didn't have a date
and in 7th grade we made a promise
that if neither of us had dates
we would go together just as "best friends,"
so we did.
Prom night
after everything was over I was standing at her front door step.
I stared at her.
She smiled at me
and stared at me with her crystal eyes.
I want her to be mine,
but she doesn't think of me like that,
and I know it.
Then she said, "I had the best time,thanks!"
and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her.
I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her,
but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why...
Graduation Day
A day passed.
A week passed.
A month passed.
Before I could blink,
it was graduation day.
I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma.
I wanted her to be mine,
but she didn't notice me like that,
and I knew it.
Before everyone went home,
she came to me in her smock and hat,
and she cried as I hugged her.
Then,
she lifted her head from my shoulder and said,
"You're my best friend, thanks!"
and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her.
I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her,
but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why…
A Few Years Later
Now, I sit in the pews of the church.
She is gettin married, now.
I watched her say, "I do"
and drive off to her new life,
married to another man.
I wanted her to be mine but she didn't see me like that,
and I knew it.
But before she drove away,
she came to me and said,
"You came!"
She said, "thanks!"
and kissed me on the cheek.
I want to tell her.
I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her,
but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why...
Funeral
Yrs passed,
and I looked down at the coffin of the girl
who used to be my "best friend."
At the service
they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years.
This is what it read:
I stare at him wishing he were mine.
But he doesn't notice me like that,
and I know it.
I want to tell him.
I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love him,
but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
I wish he would tell me he loved me…
i wish I did too…
i thought to myself,
and I cried.
Message: 10th Grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me.
She was my so-called "best friend".
I stared at her long, silky hair.
I wished she were mine,
but she didn't notice me like that.
And I knew it.
After class she walked up to me
and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before,
and I handed them to her.
She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I wanted to tell her.
I wanted her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her,
but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why.
11th Grade
The phone rang.
It was her on the other end.
She was in tears,
mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart.
She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone,
so I did.
As I sat next to her on the sofa,
I stared at her soft eyes,
wishing she was mine.
After 2 hours,
a Drew Barrymore movie,
and three bags of chips,
she decided to go to sleep.
She looked at me,
said "thanks,"
and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her.
I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her,
but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why.
12th Grade
The day before prom she walked to my locker.
"My date is sick," she said. He's not going to go.
Well, I didn't have a date
and in 7th grade we made a promise
that if neither of us had dates
we would go together just as "best friends,"
so we did.
Prom night
after everything was over I was standing at her front door step.
I stared at her.
She smiled at me
and stared at me with her crystal eyes.
I want her to be mine,
but she doesn't think of me like that,
and I know it.
Then she said, "I had the best time,thanks!"
and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her.
I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her,
but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why...
Graduation Day
A day passed.
A week passed.
A month passed.
Before I could blink,
it was graduation day.
I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma.
I wanted her to be mine,
but she didn't notice me like that,
and I knew it.
Before everyone went home,
she came to me in her smock and hat,
and she cried as I hugged her.
Then,
she lifted her head from my shoulder and said,
"You're my best friend, thanks!"
and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her.
I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her,
but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why…
A Few Years Later
Now, I sit in the pews of the church.
She is gettin married, now.
I watched her say, "I do"
and drive off to her new life,
married to another man.
I wanted her to be mine but she didn't see me like that,
and I knew it.
But before she drove away,
she came to me and said,
"You came!"
She said, "thanks!"
and kissed me on the cheek.
I want to tell her.
I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her,
but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why...
Funeral
Yrs passed,
and I looked down at the coffin of the girl
who used to be my "best friend."
At the service
they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years.
This is what it read:
I stare at him wishing he were mine.
But he doesn't notice me like that,
and I know it.
I want to tell him.
I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love him,
but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
I wish he would tell me he loved me…
i wish I did too…
i thought to myself,
and I cried.
long time since i blogged..
dun blame me cux school's busy.
hahas..
i noe tat's an excuse thou.
jux come here to pour out my torts.
i hope life can be a little more colorful.
i may be too greedy
to be asking for more
when i already have a great life.
great frens..
great jc life (althou it's stressful)
great hubby
burt..
i feel tat somehow somethings r wrong.
i duno ward's wrong thou.
it's contradicting.
im thinking too much.
maybe it's jux me getting emo again.
it's always the emo period
tat makes me think a lot.
stupid me?
thinking of reali leaving singapore immediately.
leaving my frens n evrything
and leaving hubby.
burt i noe i wun bear to.
cux i'll cry like crazy if i do tat.
i'll imagine
ward if hubby left me?
my world will collapse barhs.
burt life have to go on.
ward if my frens left me?
ward if my parents left me?
ward if evryone left me?
i duno.
i think i'll jux curl up n die.
last night at my gran's house
i suddenly felt very scared
and very sad.
im so scared one saturday i wun have to go her house anymore.
cux she's no longer there.
when i think bout tis
i feel like crying.
life's short.
and being human sucks.
next life i wan to be a cat.
den i can laze arnd all day
and all i have to worry bout is food n shelter.
hubby ?
can i jux tell u i love u ?
i dun wan to let go of evrything
burt im tired
do u noe tat ?
dun blame me cux school's busy.
hahas..
i noe tat's an excuse thou.
jux come here to pour out my torts.
i hope life can be a little more colorful.
i may be too greedy
to be asking for more
when i already have a great life.
great frens..
great jc life (althou it's stressful)
great hubby
burt..
i feel tat somehow somethings r wrong.
i duno ward's wrong thou.
it's contradicting.
im thinking too much.
maybe it's jux me getting emo again.
it's always the emo period
tat makes me think a lot.
stupid me?
thinking of reali leaving singapore immediately.
leaving my frens n evrything
and leaving hubby.
burt i noe i wun bear to.
cux i'll cry like crazy if i do tat.
i'll imagine
ward if hubby left me?
my world will collapse barhs.
burt life have to go on.
ward if my frens left me?
ward if my parents left me?
ward if evryone left me?
i duno.
i think i'll jux curl up n die.
last night at my gran's house
i suddenly felt very scared
and very sad.
im so scared one saturday i wun have to go her house anymore.
cux she's no longer there.
when i think bout tis
i feel like crying.
life's short.
and being human sucks.
next life i wan to be a cat.
den i can laze arnd all day
and all i have to worry bout is food n shelter.
hubby ?
can i jux tell u i love u ?
i dun wan to let go of evrything
burt im tired
do u noe tat ?
Sunday, July 30, 2006
make up post for friday, 28th July 2006
i quarelled wid baobao..
actuali is over some stupid thing lor..
i jux said smth bout him..
den he angry ler..
burt i was onli joking marhs..
i din noe he'll take it so seriously
den it's like
the bus came
he jux said bye.
den i tort he din mean it
so board the bus lor..
in the end he reali never follow..
and i was so shocked la..
den i call him
he picked up
burt sound like it was none of his business
den i never tok
so he jux keep asking me "zuo shen me"
and i jux kept quiet.
den he was like
"hello?"
den i jux say "ward"
burt never tok after tat..
den guess he sensed tat i was reali upset
so he said "sorry"
den i jux said
"how can u lidat lor.."
i reali din noe ward to say..
den he said sorry again..
den i jux cried..
burt he duno..
den he asked me
"so ward now?where r u now i go look for u"
burt he din sound sincere ok.
he reali din.
so i gort pissed and just said
"suan ler u go home barhs"
and guess ward?
he say "ok byebye" and hung up.
i was so sad la!
den jux cried n cried.
den he sms me
"baby..sorry k?"
den i tort..i dun wan to quarrel
i dun wan to lose him..
so i replied
"can we meet?i still wan to see u.."
den he said ok
den we met at zarifah's house tat bus stop..
it took him arnd 15min to reach
n when he came
my tears dried ler..
den he sat down
n hugged me..
i din noe ward to say..
so the both of us jux sat there quietly..
den he softly said
"sorry.."
den duno y..
my tears jux rolled down..
at first he din noe..
burt i was very quiet so he lowered his head to look at me..
den guess he was shocked..
den he kan cheong liao
jiu ask me
"baby ward happened?why u cry?"
still gort why u tell me la
still gort why i will cry
idiot.
den he wiped my tears..
n hugged me..
burt he was at a loss n din noe ward to do..
den he took my hand
n put it against his lips..
for tat moment
my heart was aching
i reali love him alort..
den the bus came
n we board
after we sat down
it was all quiet again.
den he hug me n said
"sorry baby..dun angry ler k?我答应你我以后再也不会对下你一个人了(i promise u i wun leave u alone lidat again)"
den he hugged me reali tightly n said
"i reali love u alort.."
sigh..
i love u too..
burt dun u understan?
it was very heartbreaking when u jux walked away like tat.
promise me u wun dun do it again k?
i still love u de..
jux dun abandon me like tat..
*muacks*
yong yuan ai ni..
i quarelled wid baobao..
actuali is over some stupid thing lor..
i jux said smth bout him..
den he angry ler..
burt i was onli joking marhs..
i din noe he'll take it so seriously
den it's like
the bus came
he jux said bye.
den i tort he din mean it
so board the bus lor..
in the end he reali never follow..
and i was so shocked la..
den i call him
he picked up
burt sound like it was none of his business
den i never tok
so he jux keep asking me "zuo shen me"
and i jux kept quiet.
den he was like
"hello?"
den i jux say "ward"
burt never tok after tat..
den guess he sensed tat i was reali upset
so he said "sorry"
den i jux said
"how can u lidat lor.."
i reali din noe ward to say..
den he said sorry again..
den i jux cried..
burt he duno..
den he asked me
"so ward now?where r u now i go look for u"
burt he din sound sincere ok.
he reali din.
so i gort pissed and just said
"suan ler u go home barhs"
and guess ward?
he say "ok byebye" and hung up.
i was so sad la!
den jux cried n cried.
den he sms me
"baby..sorry k?"
den i tort..i dun wan to quarrel
i dun wan to lose him..
so i replied
"can we meet?i still wan to see u.."
den he said ok
den we met at zarifah's house tat bus stop..
it took him arnd 15min to reach
n when he came
my tears dried ler..
den he sat down
n hugged me..
i din noe ward to say..
so the both of us jux sat there quietly..
den he softly said
"sorry.."
den duno y..
my tears jux rolled down..
at first he din noe..
burt i was very quiet so he lowered his head to look at me..
den guess he was shocked..
den he kan cheong liao
jiu ask me
"baby ward happened?why u cry?"
still gort why u tell me la
still gort why i will cry
idiot.
den he wiped my tears..
n hugged me..
burt he was at a loss n din noe ward to do..
den he took my hand
n put it against his lips..
for tat moment
my heart was aching
i reali love him alort..
den the bus came
n we board
after we sat down
it was all quiet again.
den he hug me n said
"sorry baby..dun angry ler k?我答应你我以后再也不会对下你一个人了(i promise u i wun leave u alone lidat again)"
den he hugged me reali tightly n said
"i reali love u alort.."
sigh..
i love u too..
burt dun u understan?
it was very heartbreaking when u jux walked away like tat.
promise me u wun dun do it again k?
i still love u de..
jux dun abandon me like tat..
*muacks*
yong yuan ai ni..
Thursday, July 20, 2006
tis reali sucks.
alright i have to say
im living a happie life
having a great hubby
having great fun
with my great frens.
burt i reali cant stand it.
when i saw meow's tagger
i was so damn upset n pissed.
it reminded me
tat in tis world
suckers do exist.
come on suckers
leave my fren alone can?
she's feeling horrible enough.
i can understan how she feel
cux i went thru tis once.
meow's my best sister
she's very vulnerable too.
it reali hurts me to see her so upset.
afterall
she was once my classmate
my good sister
n she'll always be.
so suckers.
mind ur own business n leave her alone.
alright i have to say
im living a happie life
having a great hubby
having great fun
with my great frens.
burt i reali cant stand it.
when i saw meow's tagger
i was so damn upset n pissed.
it reminded me
tat in tis world
suckers do exist.
come on suckers
leave my fren alone can?
she's feeling horrible enough.
i can understan how she feel
cux i went thru tis once.
meow's my best sister
she's very vulnerable too.
it reali hurts me to see her so upset.
afterall
she was once my classmate
my good sister
n she'll always be.
so suckers.
mind ur own business n leave her alone.
Monday, July 17, 2006
heya~!
today after school stayed back to support my baby's match
he lost 1-0..
sigh..
can see tat he's very upset n disappointed..
wanted to muack muack him to make him happier
burt..
he was totally perspiring like crazy after the match
(-_____-)||
onli can muack him in my heart lo
hahas..
baby dun upset kkies?
最爱你了。
u're the most shuai when u play soccer.
好帅啊~!!!
=)
it doesnt matter whether u win or lose.
cux to me,
cux in my heart,
u're forever the best.
对我来说，你永远是最好的。
知道吗？
宝宝！
我爱你！！ (^ ^)
today after school stayed back to support my baby's match
he lost 1-0..
sigh..
can see tat he's very upset n disappointed..
wanted to muack muack him to make him happier
burt..
he was totally perspiring like crazy after the match
(-_____-)||
onli can muack him in my heart lo
hahas..
baby dun upset kkies?
最爱你了。
u're the most shuai when u play soccer.
好帅啊~!!!
=)
it doesnt matter whether u win or lose.
cux to me,
cux in my heart,
u're forever the best.
对我来说，你永远是最好的。
知道吗？
宝宝！
我爱你！！ (^ ^)
Sunday, July 16, 2006
hehes..
ytd early in the morning go RJC..
for some lecture on xue shan fei hu..
after tat went J8 wid ting they all and ate at mos..
den he came to fetch me..
and we went ps to watch pirates of the carribean..
he wanted to go ps de..
evrytime watch movie he want to go ps
cux he say the seats de arm rest can lift up.
lols..
ah pek..
den we went to ps..
to see tat all the tickets for tat show was sold out.
(-________-)||
gek ar~!!
den dun have good timing for the other shows tat i wan watch
so i suggested going cine and see gort tickets nort.
so we walked all... the way to cine
and bought tickets for "Just My Luck"
den i chose the seats J3 n J4
thinking tat it was the last row..
den he ask me
"Row J not the last row mehs?"
den i replied
"PS the last row is J so should be la.."
reali ward
where gort pple put Row A as last row de?
in the end..
Row A was reali the last row.
and we ended up sitting at the first row.
(-_________-)||
darn it..
so paiseh la..
den stupid ah pek keep laughing at me..
grr..
he kept teasing me until we part.
*ar bish*
burt..
i did had a happy date
=)
*muacks*
missing u baby..
ytd early in the morning go RJC..
for some lecture on xue shan fei hu..
after tat went J8 wid ting they all and ate at mos..
den he came to fetch me..
and we went ps to watch pirates of the carribean..
he wanted to go ps de..
evrytime watch movie he want to go ps
cux he say the seats de arm rest can lift up.
lols..
ah pek..
den we went to ps..
to see tat all the tickets for tat show was sold out.
(-________-)||
gek ar~!!
den dun have good timing for the other shows tat i wan watch
so i suggested going cine and see gort tickets nort.
so we walked all... the way to cine
and bought tickets for "Just My Luck"
den i chose the seats J3 n J4
thinking tat it was the last row..
den he ask me
"Row J not the last row mehs?"
den i replied
"PS the last row is J so should be la.."
reali ward
where gort pple put Row A as last row de?
in the end..
Row A was reali the last row.
and we ended up sitting at the first row.
(-_________-)||
darn it..
so paiseh la..
den stupid ah pek keep laughing at me..
grr..
he kept teasing me until we part.
*ar bish*
burt..
i did had a happy date
=)
*muacks*
missing u baby..
Friday, July 14, 2006
today
a very sucky thing happened.
a very very very sucky teacher
scolded ting for some sucky reason.
@#!!*&$%`$#%@$!!!!!!!!!
i reali hate tat teacher
ward a hypocrite.
used all the vulgarities i could use on him.
sigh~
it made me rmbr the good teachers in my life.
ms khai..
mr kwek..
ah kay..
miss them lorts.
today i finali learnt how to play qing tian using my beloved guitar ler!!
=)
k la actuali nth much to post
feeling abit pissed off now..
by a good guy fren
burt i wun wan to say name
n ward happened.
now i just wan to think bout tmr
n look forward to seeing my xiang gong
kekex..
a very sucky thing happened.
a very very very sucky teacher
scolded ting for some sucky reason.
@#!!*&$%`$#%@$!!!!!!!!!
i reali hate tat teacher
ward a hypocrite.
used all the vulgarities i could use on him.
sigh~
it made me rmbr the good teachers in my life.
ms khai..
mr kwek..
ah kay..
miss them lorts.
today i finali learnt how to play qing tian using my beloved guitar ler!!
=)
k la actuali nth much to post
feeling abit pissed off now..
by a good guy fren
burt i wun wan to say name
n ward happened.
now i just wan to think bout tmr
n look forward to seeing my xiang gong
kekex..
Monday, July 10, 2006
alrights..
just now eddy told me wei's phone gort stolen..
den he fell sick so din go school today..
*prays*
i hope he's okie..
burt at least now i noe he's fine..
and at least i noe ward happened..
hais..
ed gave me his hse no..
burt..
let him rest barhs..
i dun wan chao ta xiu xi..
*baby i reali love u*
*muacks*
*prays tat he gets well soon..*
just now eddy told me wei's phone gort stolen..
den he fell sick so din go school today..
*prays*
i hope he's okie..
burt at least now i noe he's fine..
and at least i noe ward happened..
hais..
ed gave me his hse no..
burt..
let him rest barhs..
i dun wan chao ta xiu xi..
*baby i reali love u*
*muacks*
*prays tat he gets well soon..*
today he din come to school..
actuali..
im more worried bout him den sad..
and more sad den angry..
it's okie
no matter ward i wun be angry at u..
can u pls let me noe ur whereabouts?
im reali very worried.
qin ling called ur hp..
and it was off..
did u lost ur phone?
ward on earth happened?
pls..
someone tell me ward happened hao marhs?
im very very very very very worried..
im very very very very very scared smth happened to him..
im scared he fell sick or smth..
i just wan to noe how r u..
it's a horrible feeling to wait for u to contact me
like im checking my phone every now n then
afraid tat i'll miss ur call or sms..
im wishing reali reali hard tat u'll be in sch tmr
so at least i noe u're okie
im reali scared..
i duno who to go to..
actuali..
im more worried bout him den sad..
and more sad den angry..
it's okie
no matter ward i wun be angry at u..
can u pls let me noe ur whereabouts?
im reali very worried.
qin ling called ur hp..
and it was off..
did u lost ur phone?
ward on earth happened?
pls..
someone tell me ward happened hao marhs?
im very very very very very worried..
im very very very very very scared smth happened to him..
im scared he fell sick or smth..
i just wan to noe how r u..
it's a horrible feeling to wait for u to contact me
like im checking my phone every now n then
afraid tat i'll miss ur call or sms..
im wishing reali reali hard tat u'll be in sch tmr
so at least i noe u're okie
im reali scared..
i duno who to go to..
Sunday, July 09, 2006
i feel very depressed.
ya it's him.
burt i dun noe the exact reason.
im very confused now
and i dun even noe ward im toking about.
i jux noe i keep wanting to cry
and i cant control it.
hao fan.
tis is reali bad.
i want to noe ward's wrong.
4 days ler.
do u noe tat 4days had passed?
and tis 4days are like hell to me?
time is passing real slow..
torturing me evry min n evry sec..
i hope it's just me
burt is it?
maybe tis my retribution.
maybe tis my retribution for ward i did in the past.
n i deserved it.
for hurting him so much
now it's my turn to get hurt
and experience the pain he experienced.
now i understand..
it is reali very painful.
hao tong hao tong
tong dao hao xiang yao si diao ler.
i cant keep myself concentrated on anything
i cant sleep
and i have no appetite.
i dun wan to tok to anyone..
like..
just let me be alone k?
let my thoughts run wild for all it want
let me cope up and be ignored
let the tears flow till it dries up
althou it wun.
meowmeow..
is as depressed..
n she dun wan to tok about it..
how i wished she's here
n we can hug each other n cry like we used to
i reali missed the days i had wid her
i reali missed the days i had wid et
life is so colorful wid them arnd
who cares bout anything?
i had them and tat alone is enough.
burt
now i feel as if im falling
without them to grab me
i reali need u guys..
burt meow is unable to listen to me now
just like im unable to listen to her.
we're both feeling miserable
n i understan.
so i leave her alone
n leave myself alone barhs.
the wound will heal by itself
right?
ya it's him.
burt i dun noe the exact reason.
im very confused now
and i dun even noe ward im toking about.
i jux noe i keep wanting to cry
and i cant control it.
hao fan.
tis is reali bad.
i want to noe ward's wrong.
4 days ler.
do u noe tat 4days had passed?
and tis 4days are like hell to me?
time is passing real slow..
torturing me evry min n evry sec..
i hope it's just me
burt is it?
maybe tis my retribution.
maybe tis my retribution for ward i did in the past.
n i deserved it.
for hurting him so much
now it's my turn to get hurt
and experience the pain he experienced.
now i understand..
it is reali very painful.
hao tong hao tong
tong dao hao xiang yao si diao ler.
i cant keep myself concentrated on anything
i cant sleep
and i have no appetite.
i dun wan to tok to anyone..
like..
just let me be alone k?
let my thoughts run wild for all it want
let me cope up and be ignored
let the tears flow till it dries up
althou it wun.
meowmeow..
is as depressed..
n she dun wan to tok about it..
how i wished she's here
n we can hug each other n cry like we used to
i reali missed the days i had wid her
i reali missed the days i had wid et
life is so colorful wid them arnd
who cares bout anything?
i had them and tat alone is enough.
burt
now i feel as if im falling
without them to grab me
i reali need u guys..
burt meow is unable to listen to me now
just like im unable to listen to her.
we're both feeling miserable
n i understan.
so i leave her alone
n leave myself alone barhs.
the wound will heal by itself
right?
Friday, July 07, 2006
last night..
i came to know tat a girl n a boy had broken up..
they had been together for almost 5yrs..
yet..
sigh..
it made me feel tat love is so vulnerable
5years..
shuo fang jiu fang..
and just ended like tat
what's more when me n him 5months oso dun have.
why cant love last forever?
why do i always feel so insecure wid him?
nort tat i dun trust him..
burt his sudden cold sudden hot attitude
sometimes makes me feel afraid.
im scared one day
when i tort it's just him being cold again
den waiting for him to rmbr me
burt he'll just never come back.
no matter how long i wait.
yupps..
i noe im a paranoid.
burt i just cant help it.
and i cant tell him
cux i dun wan him to think tat im just being ridiculous
and getting worried over some stupid things.
im very happy wid him
reali.
when he's nice
he's REEALI~ nice.
and i love to lie in his arms
and put my head on his chest
he's xiang xiang de
maybe it's the soap he uses.
and it makes me feel so at ease.
when im tired
im so glad to have him to hug me tightly.
burt how long can this last?
how much i want to be wid him forever
i noe we'll end one day.
after the a'levels
i will have to make a choice.
stay?or leave?
my future?or him?
can tat day never come?
*i cant bear to let go*
[-x-] to the girl im toking about..
sorry to put your story in here..
burt i reali feel very upset after knowing it..
for u..
for ur him..
n for myself..
however..
dun worry too much
n dun get too sad..
cux i'll always be ur good sister
and support u no matter ward ur decision is.
rmbr..
im always here for u.
-zhu ni xing fu-
*hugs`*
i came to know tat a girl n a boy had broken up..
they had been together for almost 5yrs..
yet..
sigh..
it made me feel tat love is so vulnerable
5years..
shuo fang jiu fang..
and just ended like tat
what's more when me n him 5months oso dun have.
why cant love last forever?
why do i always feel so insecure wid him?
nort tat i dun trust him..
burt his sudden cold sudden hot attitude
sometimes makes me feel afraid.
im scared one day
when i tort it's just him being cold again
den waiting for him to rmbr me
burt he'll just never come back.
no matter how long i wait.
yupps..
i noe im a paranoid.
burt i just cant help it.
and i cant tell him
cux i dun wan him to think tat im just being ridiculous
and getting worried over some stupid things.
im very happy wid him
reali.
when he's nice
he's REEALI~ nice.
and i love to lie in his arms
and put my head on his chest
he's xiang xiang de
maybe it's the soap he uses.
and it makes me feel so at ease.
when im tired
im so glad to have him to hug me tightly.
burt how long can this last?
how much i want to be wid him forever
i noe we'll end one day.
after the a'levels
i will have to make a choice.
stay?or leave?
my future?or him?
can tat day never come?
*i cant bear to let go*
[-x-] to the girl im toking about..
sorry to put your story in here..
burt i reali feel very upset after knowing it..
for u..
for ur him..
n for myself..
however..
dun worry too much
n dun get too sad..
cux i'll always be ur good sister
and support u no matter ward ur decision is.
rmbr..
im always here for u.
-zhu ni xing fu-
*hugs`*
Thursday, July 06, 2006
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
(x.X)
die ler lar..
i just finished the maths quiz..
n gort 5/10..
den wei tell me gort count marks..
zen me ban???!!
i still anyhow anyhow do..
tort MCQ so just close eyes tikam..
sobs sobs..
today early early go school
for the hist mock test..
zZz..
very early wake up..
den after tat go heartland have lunch
wid jiamin..
we go thai express..
first time go try it..
eh..
nort bad lars..
after tat wei came to look for me..
and euguene acc him..
after tat me n wei go watch silent hill..
gross lar..
burt nort very scarey actuali..
onli very er xin..
den funny lor..
he saw his fren (girl)
den the girl was wid her bf..
so tis kpo kia say
"go see go see"
den drag me stalk them..
lols..
burt a while onli lar..
den he caught flu..
keep sneezing n sniffing away..
i see him so xin ku so ask him
"u wan go home rest norts?dun need send me home.."
burt he insist..
so..
i asked him
"last night never cover blanket is it?"
he think for very very very long.
den reply
"hehe..last night sleep never wear shirt."
(-______-)||
last night so cold lar~!!
i was shivering in my blanket
den he never wear shirt~!
wun fall sick den weird ~!
den u noe his reason for nort wearing shirt?
very simple.
one word only.
the reason is..
L-A-Z-Y.
(-_______-)|||||
still dare laugh~!
take care of urself ars~!!!
(>.<)
die ler lar..
i just finished the maths quiz..
n gort 5/10..
den wei tell me gort count marks..
zen me ban???!!
i still anyhow anyhow do..
tort MCQ so just close eyes tikam..
sobs sobs..
today early early go school
for the hist mock test..
zZz..
very early wake up..
den after tat go heartland have lunch
wid jiamin..
we go thai express..
first time go try it..
eh..
nort bad lars..
after tat wei came to look for me..
and euguene acc him..
after tat me n wei go watch silent hill..
gross lar..
burt nort very scarey actuali..
onli very er xin..
den funny lor..
he saw his fren (girl)
den the girl was wid her bf..
so tis kpo kia say
"go see go see"
den drag me stalk them..
lols..
burt a while onli lar..
den he caught flu..
keep sneezing n sniffing away..
i see him so xin ku so ask him
"u wan go home rest norts?dun need send me home.."
burt he insist..
so..
i asked him
"last night never cover blanket is it?"
he think for very very very long.
den reply
"hehe..last night sleep never wear shirt."
(-______-)||
last night so cold lar~!!
i was shivering in my blanket
den he never wear shirt~!
wun fall sick den weird ~!
den u noe his reason for nort wearing shirt?
very simple.
one word only.
the reason is..
L-A-Z-Y.
(-_______-)|||||
still dare laugh~!
take care of urself ars~!!!
(>.<)
