Sunday, April 22, 2007

adapted from siokwen's blog..

When you think you're in love with that someone,

-you will think of that person anywhere, anytime, at any moment
-you will laugh or smile to yourself when you think of things which are related to him (can be jokes you both talked about)
-you will message him any time when you feel like it.
-you will wait for his message anxiously if he never reply, you will start to wonder if you send it to the wrong person, or think he might be busy so he can't see (find thousands of excuses to make yourself feel better)
-when you see him, you are usually not really yourself. (if you get what I mean.)
-every word he said, anything he mentioned before, you happen to remember, and when you happen to come across things that he mentioned, you will think of them indefinitely.
-if you happen to be with him in the same school, whenever you see his class, you will notice if he's there, when you see him coming towards your direction, you will then talk to friends, look else where instead.
-when you're in the same lecture with him, you will listen to lecture while noticing his actions, his moves.
-you will notice the changes he made (new bag, new shoes)
-you will realise both of you share same similiarities (same taste in a particular thing, same interests, same likings)
-you will get easily hurt by his words (he feel might not be offensive) , but definitely offensive to you.
-any promise he made to you, you will always remember and when he break his promise, you'll feel damn sad about it, and keep asking yourself why must he do this to you.
-if he has friendster, you will go to his page whenever you're free to check his new updates
-you'll stare at his same photos in friendster, even though you just seen it last month.
-if you log in msn, you'll see if he's there.
-if he changes his nick, you wonder who is he refering to in his nick and why he put such a nick (thinking a thousand reasons)
-when you listen to any slow songs, you happen to think about incidents that related to him, be it happy or sad.
-you will feel like talking to him whenever you go msn, or sms him when you're bored outside.
-you will keep his messages (even though it doesn't mean anything in that msg) for years, even if you inbox is flooded, you'll just delete the rest and save his.
-you'll try to keep a photo of him (not in wallet I meant, maybe just wanna have a photo with him)

can't think of other for now..what do you guys have then ? if you know of any, just post it in my tagboard.

Had a talk with eunice. Realised something.
Sometimes, when you see two person who seldom talk to each other in school when they meet, they might be a couple that you least expect.
being a couple in school not doesn't mean to have to eat together, accompany each other everytime in school, it could be two person who seems distant between both of them, that you never think of.

距离并不表示爱情已不存在,
因为重要的不是彼此是否各自一方,而是是否彼此还存有对方。

爱情不一定需要轰轰烈烈才算浪漫,
单纯悬疑默默的爱着对方才算得上浪漫。

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okie..i have to say
ward siokwen said is VERY true.
i've been thinking.
of my own feelings.
out of the 20 things siokwen said
20 things were exactly the way i felt.
only tat i have some additions to them.

--you'll stare at his same photos in friendster, even though you just seen it last month.
(it shld be even though u jux seen it tis morning)
--you nort only wait anxiously for his reply, you wait anxiously for him to contact u. be it phone call or sms.
--the first thing u think of when u open ur eyes in the morning, is him
--the first thing u do when u wake up, is to check ur phone for his sms-es
--he's the last person u think of before u doze off to dreamland
--u jux put down the phone n u feel like hearing his voice. AGAIN.(-_____-)||

okie i think tat's the most i can think of at the moment
there could be more.

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oh ya!
special day today!
it's my gor's BIRTHDAY~!


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once again..
sorry i couldnt celebrate wid ya kkies?
im feeling damn guilty over tat..
hope u enjoyed urself wid ur frens!
20 yrs old ler mux grow up liaos.
muahahas~~
dun so childish always bully me!!!!
*bish*
anyway..
may all ur wishes come true n many returns of the day~~!!!
^^

Saturday, April 21, 2007

went MOE today
and was damn sian
cux i saw other jc pple wearing sch-u
den i was wearing civilian
den i damn scared is i wear wrong
somemore i duno anyone there.
and my frens were nort arnd=(
den i called zarifah n huiting
and paniked like hell.
lols..
i was damn retarded k.

den reluctantly
i went into the civil service college
thinking if even those SRJCian wore sch-u
den i'll skip it.
luckily i saw a few from the science n they were oso wearing civi
den i was sian again
cux i didnt noe anyone from tat grp of science pple.
so i was waiting arnd
seeing if there were any arts students.
sadly.
i dun see any.
(T~T)

on the verge of dying from the sian-ness
i saw my saviour.
DAVID from guitar!!
at last someone i noe!!
so we went in together(cux he didnt noe anyone too lols)
and saw TESSA from guitar too!
hahas!
i love my cca muacks muacks.
thank god.

so we sat together
and went arnd together lols.
the PSC scholarship is tempting.
burt..
it's difficult to get tat thing huh?
and i dun reali noe if i wan to work in the govt sector in the future.
it's gonna be boring working in the ministeries huh?
(o.O)

after tat thing
me dave n tessa went cityhall to makan
den we went New York New York
it was delicious duh!!!
except tat i couldnt finish my food
the serving was damn HUGE k!
you should have seen the coke float.
it's like 1-litre coke + choco icecream.
lols..ok tat was an exaggeration.
burt reali alort la.
in the end dave had to help me wid the float.
and the smoked-salmon velvet is YUMMY!
i wished i finished up my food.
it's a waste cux tat place's expensive.
and the food is DAMN NICE.
argh!
next time i go i wanna try the chocolate bailey's frost!
i saw tat on the menu and i was super tempted.
burt i din have the stomach n money anymore.
sobs.
they have fruit fondue too!
*drools*
strongly recommand to all of you!!
=D

Friday, April 20, 2007

COMMON TEST'S FINALLY OVER~~~~~~~~~~~!!!

it sucked like hell duh.
i finally gort thru tis hell period.
for the time-being.
sigh.
the next hell period's gotta be mid-yr.
(x.X)

SYF was ytd
and we gort silver
im nort sad..nor happy
lols.
dun reali care ward we get anyway
cux it was an expected silver
anyway ward do u expect
when more than half of the ensom started out as guitar-idiots?
(including me lols.and i still am.)
so..
ya i think we did great!=)
on the way back to sch
the whole ensom was damn high
and me n zarifah were waving to the pple outside
den tis bus came
and gort one uncle looked at our bus
n i waved frantically.
he gort the shock of his life i think
LOLS!!

den we were singing on the bus
singing idiotic n retarded songs
and mr fons..
your singing sucks okie?
(-_____-)||
sing so loud and non-stop somemore
i practically died.
(x.X)
wahahas~~
and stupid fonsus tied my dress to the chair
ah herms!
it's nort funny ok mr-idiot-fons.
dun think u section leader can anyhow.

den zarifah so chio la!
so elegant wid her hair and the gown
both me n zubaida tort she looked like those high class taitai
hahas!
ms SRJC indeed.
LOLS!
and eric looked like mafia
lols!
burt seriously
i think our gown S-U-C-K-S
other jcs ALL wore black
we were damn striking standing there
fons said he heard a hwachong guy said we looked like cooked prawns.
(-_____-)
wth..

den we gort a new couple in the ensom!
hahas..
right mr hua xin?
*winks*

love the ensom.
--``*muuaaacks*
ytd was the first time i was so high wid the ensom
beginning to blend in well
burt we're stepping down soon.
=(
hais.
burt tat's life isnt it?
i'll miss the days going for practice..
and im so looking forward to our "camp(?)"
or maybe chalet or watsoever.

yupps..
so last night reached home at arnd 9pm
and STILL HAD TO STUDY LIT
*pukes*
and dun forget tat there's H1 maths too.
so i think
i flunked both papers today.
esp my lit.
argh..
i was like a walking zombie
er..
a walking-and-studying zombie.
yupps.
until now=)
im alive again!
lols..
yay!!!common test's over!!!
yay yay YAY!!!

anyway
tmr i still have to go MOE for the stupid thing
tat means i have to wake up early.
damn.

gor dunch angry ler la!!
=((

Saturday, April 14, 2007

ANNOUNCEMENT:
it's common test week so i wun be blogging for tis week.
=((
no choice.
cant help it.

..............ANYWAY..................
TO ALL MY FRENS OUT THERE:
GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR COMMON TEST!!!
let's cross our fingers n hope we'll survive=))

AND ZARIFAH!!
let's do our best for the upcoming SYF!!
XD
guitar rocks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yay!^^

Thursday, April 12, 2007

we belong to two very different world.
so ya..
sigh.
forget it.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

tis's a super nice song..
tat's reali very sweet=))


"Far Away"


This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
tort about it for very long
yupps.
and i've decided to be true to myself.
let nature take its course
if it will happen, den let it be.
no longer avoiding anything.

common test's nxt week.
yuck.
and mister ur birthday very good timing hors?
exactly on my common test week.
(-____-)||
so too bad la.
hahas!

tmr's guitar full dress rehearse.
eee yer!!
u'll see me dead in tat sucky dress man
duno which kns de choose the color n design
*pukes*
im so gonna hide my face tmr
better bring a paper bag.
and
the principal's coming to see
errr!!!
damn i hate tis!
i hate the syf dress.
i dun wan to wear it larss!!!
*pouts*

k la.
i should be studying now actuali.
tis is making me slack.
burt i jux dun feel like looking at tat book.
i've gort a feeling i'll flunk my common test2.
sigh.

Friday, April 06, 2007

went amk hub today!
finally hahas=))
nort bad
quite alort of nice nice shops
bought a SUPER NICE schedule book from artbox
and i bought the movie "step up"!
it's damn nice i mux say
was watching it jux now
strongly recommend to u all^^
im broke..
(T~T)

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

today gort lesson after guitar
until 8pm
(-_____-)||
teacher super siao.
den damn tired
n it was very dark when i was going home
den im all alone so i was abit scared
thanks gor for calling me
n pei-ing me.
tat was very nice of u.=))

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

today after sch went study wid timmy
he met me at kovan mrt
den we went compass bk to eat
and studied there.
actuali is more of me studying for my test tmr
and him disturbing me every now n then.
(-______-)||
wasnt reali able to concentrate totally
wid him distracting me everytime
den was very funny
we communicate thru writing little notes
cux both of us listening to song
n he din wan to disturb my studying
and he sweetly drew me a little cartoon
tat said "study hard=)"
make me so happy lols..
den he keep stepping on my foot
and kachiao kachiao
so irritating lols..
den i drew on his hand using PINK highlighter
and PINK pen.
hahas!
den he tried to draw me burt the ink wun come out
LOLS..
and smth hilarious happened when we were on the way home
we were walking to the bus stand
and he was playing wid tat wax he bought
and................
.......................
hahas!
i promised him i wun say out
it's too embarrassing
everyone was turning arnd looking
yupps i wun say out
if nort someone will break ties wid me.
hahahahas..

thanks for the great day timmy
u're the best=))

Monday, April 02, 2007

Adapted from Zarifah's blog..

I played summer for other sections other than section 4 alone at home using Guitar Pro.......and suddenly, I'm overwhelmed by this feelings of sadness that took over me all of a sudden.....I felt like crying cuz it reminds me of all those happy faces that played guitar with me and all those jokes that we crack to make ourselves less tired to repeat the songs that we played over and over again......to know that it all will end soon...less than a month, we wont be gathered that much anymore to play and disturb and mingle with one another. We would be focusing on other important stuff like A-levels....it's like I go guitar everyday with Eunice cuz we cherish the times spent with everyone there......it's like we're united....and both of us already did miss guitar now......though it's too soon...i wonder how the rest feels.....cuz I know I feel sad to wait for the day that we step down from Guitar Ensemble. THough we're admittedly not good, but we work hard and most importantly, we enjoyed the times we spent for our beloved CCA..................I'm anxiously waiting for that day cuz I know I'll be crying like mad.
As for the rest of my classmates.....I'll miss everyone especially my close frens like Huda, Anna, Janet, Eunice.....2A08....
P.S. DAmn!!!! Does it sound like as if I'm going to die tomorrow or migrate to another country forever...hahaz. Just too tired and stressed up I guess.

aw..
im so touched by ward Zarifah said lars..
yupps i will miss u too=))
and yeah..
time reali flies and we're goin to step down soon
i think i will hug my beloved monkey(my guitar) and cry like crazy
Guitar 29..
i will always love u k?
(T~T)
althou im nort ur only owner
burt i reali have to tell u i love u alort.
*muacks*
sorry for nort able to let u produce beautiful music
cux my guitar skills reali sucks
burt i reali treasure u.

ok i noe i sound stupid
toking to a non-living thing lidat.
burt hey
i reali love my guitar.
and after reading zarifah's blog.
im so touched n all emo now k
sigh..
the days im having now are reali the best times of my life so far
althou the stress from studies n stuff
i reali hope time can slow down
and continue feeling so blissful wid my frens arnd..

hist quiz tmr..chinese test on wed
the stress reali sucks.
thank god i have u=))
thanks for always showing support for me
u reali rock!
and ya..
i mean ward i say=))
they come from the bottom of my heart
can u hear it?

Friday, March 30, 2007

guitar was great!
i was practicing wid zarifah
and was so addicted to my guitar
i wasnt willing to go home.
lols..
*siao*

after school went eat wid my sisters
it was raining so heavily
and noble de shushu ferried us wid her umbre
and gort herself abit drenched.
thanks shushu=))
so sweet of her.

and you.
you idiot.
you bendan!!!!!
dun treat me so good ler can?
it's turning my world upside down.
it's shaking my heart
making me lose my mind.
i jux wan to be carefree
cux im afraid of being hurt again.
so..
if u noe u cant give me eternity
leave me alone..can?

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

had a great date wid my frens=)

after sch i went taka wid huiting n jiajia
den we went to eat pepper lunch
after tat
we went cine to meet timmy
lols
idiot timmy late for like 45min!!!
*bish*
den he rushed like hell i think
and he was perspiring hahas.
den we went to buy tickets for "the haunted school"

and it's starts at 4pm
so we went heeren walk walk first
den we walked into tis shop
and jiajia was looking at the children's tee
and den the shop attendent was like telling us
"tat's for kids"
(-_____-)||
so paiseh k
erms.
as if we r reali interested lols
jaija's jux taking a look
burt damn paiseh k.
so super paiseh.
(o.O)

after tat timmy went to get a hotdog
(cux he haven ate lunch)
den we went cine lers.
wanted to take neos wid my sisters
burt timmy was there
so well..next time lo

den we sat in tis sequence:
aisle.timmy,me,huiting,jiamin.
den beside jiajia no one lers
den me n ting damn scared
and we stick to each other like glue
burt i realise jiajia very ke lian
cux she's all alone
and she's scared too
so i asked ting to go pei her
i alone nvm^^
see i so noble.
LOLS.

burt i reali damn scared k.
den tell u one secret:
timmy was scared too!
lols..
shhh..
den scary part he oso hidehide la
LOLS
den the both of us hide together
hahas..
den he kept trying to scare me
by tapping me out of a sudden
or grabbing my arm suddnly.
(-____-)||
lame pok.
he himself scared he keep scaring me
burt i wasnt scared by him.
wahahas..
laopok.
burt gort one part the ghost come out
den i was damn engrossed
he sdnly grabbed my hand
and i jumped.
(-______-)||
wth.
grrr..
den after the show
timmy pei me to bedok mrt
after he see me to bedok
he go back orchard.
(-____-)|||||
super eng la lame guy
cux poly holidays now.
den we keep suaning each other throughout again
(o.O)
watever!
lols.
idiot gor.

happy day today=))
wish to go out again
hais.
burt i think it's impossible wid tat amount of schoolwork.
waaa
(T~T)
nvm.
i will tell u when im free la.
hahas.

Saturday, March 24, 2007

went for the hist today at cjc
damn
saturday oso canort rest
grrr..

after tat hist thing
me n my girls were walking to the bus stop
then jiajia
attracted tis humming bird to her
and den she like swept it off screaming la
lols
den i first time see humming bird in real marhs
so i was saying
"wa!humming bird leh!so cute!"
the moment i say finish
the humming bird came attacking back for us
den i super scared la
the group of us faster run
and i was screaming "NOT CUTE LIAO NOT CUTE LIAO!!"
(-_____-)||

den jiajia and zaizai went home first
cux they going out wid their frens after tat
so me ting n shushu went eat lo
we went mos at toapayoh
den walked arnd
and me n ting bought earrings=)
star star de so pretty de
^^
den i pei tingting wait for bus
and we tok so much la
shushu was saying
"u all nort come shopping de
is come tok de.u all jux walk in rounds n tok."
LOLS..
paiseh.
neglect u lers..=x

Friday, March 23, 2007

waa~~
so happy ne=)
today spend a whole hour singing
wid my darling sisters
shushu brought her lyrics book
den the five of us were singing
(jiamin refused to sing = =)
den so fun ne
zaizai so funny XD
kept singing comically
and tingting kept singing off key
and den kena cold stare by the 4 of us
lols!
i reali loved tat moment.
i wished it will be forever so sweet.
i feel so blessed wid such great frens.

gosh.
i cant imagine the day when we graduate
and get seperated.
i dun wan.
(T~T)
i feel like crying at the thought of it.
i will miss the days so much lars.
*hugs all my dearest frens*
im gonna miss u all so much..

Thursday, March 22, 2007

today went LJS wid my sisters during lunch
nice and fun
laughing until i get cramps lols

den last night n today
i gort to noe some reali gross news
tat made me so disgusted.
i wun say ward it was
burt my sisters will noe =)
burt hey
i was so glad im nort so stupid anymore
*phew*
and forrest said i shld be glad
and proud of myself
sure.
im sooooo glad.
and hell yeah im so proud of myself
(^.<)
and yes i believe in retribution=)
(i sound abit scary lols..like ghostly)
burt retribution do exist.
jux like i gort my retribution for hurting someone
i gort my retribution..i gort hurt myself
soon it will be ur turn=)
who cares if u r reading tis.

ok.
back to being myself and stop cursing pple=)
ytd's guitar was a disastor.
burt gort 97 pple signed up!
=D
so happy la.

i reali canort describe how much i love my frens^^
duno why
today was reali happy wid them arnd
ting..zaizai..jiajia..wenwen..anna..zarifah..
=)
muacks!

-x`` i love the freedom..it gives me choices.gives me space.i no longer feel suffocated. ``x-

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

life's so unfair
i felt so unjustified
burt
thanks to ed for listening
thanks for being there duh.
suddenly im back to the "heck care" mode again
ya tat's good.
=)
and feeling all happy and smiles now^^

and god
finalli i get a break from schoolwork
been slogging like crazy for the past few days
today finally can rest abit
burt think tmr will be crushed again by schwrk
idiot hist made me chiong like siao ytd
and nvr even go thru today.
sucker..
sucker faggot"nat"(invented by anna haha)

k la
wan go snore snore liaos
woke up at 4am tis morning to chiong hist
and in the end nvr go thru
*pissed*

-x`` life's so beautiful.things always come least expected.esp good things.``x-
---and to hell with the unexpected sucky stuff.hahas=)

toking crap today sorry(^^)

Friday, March 16, 2007

enjoying my ONE & ONLY ONE-DAY break today
5day holiday become one day..
wth..
still gort tons & tons of homework somemore..
damn no life..
i jux woke up at like 9am to msg him
den went back to sleep n jux woke up
it rox sia..
so long since i can sleep like a pig..
hais..
our saturday plan is off..
quite disappointed..
in fact very disappointed.
i was so looking forward to it u noe..
burt no choice la..
when he's free im busy
when i'm free he's busy
den he actuali suggested to meet on saturday nite
burt..
how to la??!!
i wish i could oso
sigh.
in the end have to tell him i at night canort
so the plans are off.
(T~T)
reali wish to see him de..
hais..

Thursday, March 15, 2007

so now is ward la??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh man i hate to guess lidat
today's CEC!
woke up early at 5am to rush to sch
den waited damn long for the things to start
sian 1/2
burt have to say it was quite fun
the JC1s quite nice pple..
quite co-operative
den gort a few quite enthu de helped out alort.
thank god there's them
if nort i think i will be super paiseh.
hahas..
abit nervous at first
burt gort used to it after tat
burt the sun super hot!
den gort one class super late
jiamin say i abit face black black
=x
oops.
sorry..
burt after tat i try to be enthu again
hahas..
nice experience!
and after tat on my way home on the bus
i heard tis JC1 girl n boy said tat the CEC was great
and tat SR's quite fun
im quite happy actuali
at least we made them feel welcomed =)
burt gort abit tanned under the hot sun
and my neck is very red and is hurting now
damn..
everytime tan abit i will get burnt.
(-____-)||
hope i dun turn black
(T~T)

tis sat going out marhs?
tell me quick~~~!!!
im so kan cheong about it k
(>.<)