went for camp on fri, 8th june
it was nort bad la
althou nort extremely exciting like the vball girls de
hahas..

bombed fonsus
and he n mingxiang sneaked attack on me
and i was drenched.
(-____-)||
idiot.
me n zarifah bought quite alot of food
and gobbled them up
hahas..

and we went star gazing at the soccer field
then timothy was playing the guitar
with illis and seewan singing..
mingxiang and his darling + xiangqi were sitting on the floor chatting
then me zarifah fonsus n ondreas were lying on the bench
half dozing lols
(we carried the bench there)
and it was damn nice..
=))
after tat tim n seewan went back guitar room slack
den fonsus started playing the guitar
"far away"!!!
and i started singing hahas
(stupid zarifah on the phone wid huda)
den me n david chat for a long...long...time
using canto lols
den fonsus keep disturbing us wid his guitar cux he dun understan a word
(-______-)
den me n david were singing
and heard somebody shouted
"falling star!!!"
(T~T)
me n dave was too busy singing so didnt see
sobsobs..
illis was dozing off, zarifah on the phone
so they didnt see oso
burt it was so sweet la^^
den fonsus n dave carried the bench back
and i rode on it
ahhahahas!
so nice
rocky rocky~~
burt when junsheng came over and wanted to sit on it
i jumped off immediately
fonsus n dave let go immediately oso
heng if nort everyone wld collapse.
LOLS!

den we went to IT room
and they watched "pirates of the carribean"
i watch before so i went out wid illis zarifah n dave to play poker
damn sian
didnt stay up cux dave didnt wake me n illis up
in the end we slept thru while they hang arnd
the classroom tables were damn uncomfortable
den zarifah (who slept beside me)
came nearer n nearer to me while she slept
cux it was cold
(-______-)
i was so scared i'd hit her when i turned la!
damn uncomfortable!
=(

oh ya..
sorry to my sisters..
i was abit in the depression state earlier on.
(>.<)
burt dun worry im ok
im jux emo-ing again hahas.

comp spoil cant update=(
finally get a chance to update now..
so well..
it's the start of holidays!=))

first day of holidays..
-monday 28th May 2007-
went out wid my sisters..
went vivo
ms tan hui ting
heard me wrongly
and made everyone meet at 10.30am instead of 11.30am
(-____-)||
so we all woke up damn early
and ms tan n ms yeo were LATE
in the end me n zaizai went walking arnd first.
...*bish!*
den shushu saw edwin tan
(-____-)||

after huiting n jiajia reached
we all went to buy tickets for pirates of the carribean
den after we makan
we went walking arnd the mall
we went giant and bought food hahas
den went to sit at the merry-go-round outside
hahas!
huiting zaizai n me were on it
den pple were looking
burt it was damn funny lols..
who cares bout other pple looking as long as we enjoyed ourselves?
(^.<) after tat we went daiso and arcade and we played for some time den it was time for the movie it was great! johnny depp's sexy! hahas..bleahs~~ orlando's nort bad too when he "died" me n jiajia was damn sad la luckily he was revived=) burt i think jiajia was more sad when CHOW YUN FAT died. LOLS!!! seriously i think she did. cux when i said to zaizai n shushu "when he(orlando) died i was so shocked n sad la!" jiajia: "ya lo ya lo!" me: "cux he's shuai rite..lols" jiajia: "ok la chow yun fat nort bad." me: "!!!wth i toking bout orlando bloom lars!!" HAHAHAS!!!! it's okie. cux we ALWAYS knew jiajia liked old men plus she's a stalker. ahahahahahas.. den after the movie we went arcade again lols..wasted alort of money burt it was fun la hahas. we had a great time playing the "counter" game ok watever cux i duno ward's the name of tat game hahas. burt i kena hit duno how many times by miss tan. (-_____-) ah dui. den their "controller"(or watever tat's called) can fly out somemore (-_____-)|| damn funny laugh until i get cramps it was nice lols..let's go play again someday=) second day of holidays
-tuesday 29th May 2007-
went bugis today
and bought a pair of Kappa shoes!
it's black!
hahas and i loved it.
den today supposed to have lessons in the morning
idiot teacher made us wake up early
(i woke up at 5.30am)
and then she pangseh us!
wth..
burt nah
so there's no lesson and we went mac
and i spilled my cappuccino.
it was all over the place.
(T~T)
sadded!!!

third day of holidays
-30th May 2007-
SIGH!
gotta go back to school today for econs n history
damn sian.
as usual woke up at 5.30am
and now im dozing off in front of the comp.
well i jux did doze off.
sian!
burt after the lessons went compass point makan wid my sisters
we couldnt make up our mind on ward to eat
so retarded lor.
so we ended up drawing lots.
and so we ended up in BK.
(-____-)||
and huiting reali noe how to choose seat.
she actuali chose the EXACT seat we used to sat.
lols?
(-____-)||
burt we changed seat after tat la
and after eating the herseys choco sundae pie
i felt happy hahas.
den we talked for a long time
about almost everything we could think of.
it was nice talking to my sisters like tat.
and it was great to laugh our heads off together like tat.
it was the best of times.=)

=))
today went kovan pizza hut wid my sisters
the chinese girls anna janet n zarifah
den ate gelato!
felt so happy hahahas..
den we went to play pool
and gort tis two SUPER CUTE didi
omg so cute lor they
one 11yrs old one 9yrs old
and they looked like twins!
hahas..
they dark dark de abit like malay
burt they are chinese la
and so young already ah beng ah beng lidat.
lols!

so cute k
den dun see they two so young k
they quite pro in pool la!
den me anna n qinling played
den super paiseh k
cux we very lousy
esp me lols..
the two didi are brothers
den the older one coached me
and the younger one helped anna
(the elder brother decide one. hahas)
den very funny
i said
"u two keep staring at me play i will stressed leh"
den the both of them hide under the table!
LOLS!!
so super cute!!!
den the older brother was telling me where to hit
the younger one like gave abit comments
den the older brother like very irritated lidat ask him quiet.
hahas!
still very confident say
"i NEVER fail before."
lols..
pro sia..
den make us these "da jie jie" so paiseh
cux we very lao pok.
hahas..

den go back sch tat time
rain super heavily
we all 8 pple share 2 umbrellas.
(-______-)||
needless to say we were drenched
esp me n jiajia
cux we sheltered the rest
den anna still so evil go flick water on jiajia.
hahas..
bleahs~~

zarifah zarifah!!!!!
can you feel the heat?
you know ward i mean!
HAHAHAHAHAS!!!!

"When You're Gone" -Avril Lavigne

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

[Chorus]

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-*`` stolen from siokwen's blog ( again. hahas.) ``x-

I know it will never be.

by Elena

I spill my heart out to u,
More and more each day,
But still I know the truth,
I will never have my way.

I care about u more,
And I want it to be less,
The only thing I can do,
Is hope for the best.

I know that its never going to happen,
I know well never be,
But I can hope cant I?
And I cant help but dream.

Its just that these things,
They hurt so much,
But yet I cant cry for u,
Out of everything I do.

Don't u understand,
Yea I know u do,
Cause u feel the same way for her,
As I do for you.

I scream and yell,
But that wont help,
Trust me I tried before,
And I just ended up torn.

But yet I only wish,
That you would hold me in your arm,
Make me feel safe,
Let me think that I would never be harmed.

But I know this will never be,
It would never work,
Since you don't feel the same way for me,
Oh yea and in the past u were a jerk.

Why do I still like you?
I asked my self a million times,
But all I ever came up with,
Was all these stupid rhymes.

I'm trying so hard to let you go,
And let the friendship remain,
But still the truth is yelling out,
I can never just feel one way.

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i came across tis song..
quite nice..
and the lyrics are sweet..
here's part of the lyrics tat i like..

though these words i say are true
they still fail to capture you
as mere words can only do
how do i explain that smile
and how it turns my world around
keeping my feet on the ground
my baby
you are the reason i could fly

-*`` stolen from wenwen's blog.. ``*-

I came across many different quotes when I was surfing a net and I took awhile to read all of them...

These are some which I think are quite true and really meaningful...


-it's easy to fall completely for someone.. it's easy to believe all those lies.. it's easy to lose urself to someone u hardly know.. but why isnt it easy to forget someone u love, who found it easy to let u go...

-true love never dies for it is lust that fades away.. love binds for a lifetime but lust just pushes away..

-The magic in love, we follow the rule.."love one another" & if it doesnt workout.. just swap the last 2 words.."love another one"

-think & take time to listen to ur heart, sometimes u need nort ask urself who u love more but ask who really makes u happy & who makes u feel loved

-wake me up when ur heart needs company, take my heart when u feel alone.. turn to me when u need someone to lean on, cux 'til time runs out, i will always stay around..

-i may run out of message to text u, i may run out of good jokes to say, i may run out of battery or even a peso but my heart wont run out of space for someone like u..

-the only way to know tat someone truly loves u is when u turned him down u see him rise from the fall, walk up to u & say " i love u more now than i ever did before"

-It's hard to live alone, its hard to choose someone to love, but the hardest part of falling is to admit that you have fallen in love with someone you didn't mean to love from the start...

-Do you know that the worst day that I miss you is not when you were far away.. it's when you're just right beside me yet I know I can never have you cux i'm simply watching you fall for someone else..

-Sometimes you think you'e gotten over a person but when you see him smile, you suddenly realized you're just pretending you got over him to ease the pain of knowing he'll never be yours.

-You know you love someone when you can only have 1 wish, and that wish wouldn't be for that person to love you..because you wouldn't want that person's love came from a wish but from his heart


Quite true arh ? Haha.
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did some amendments to the typos and the short forms
sorry wenwen for stealing.
hahas..
burt it's reali true and sweet.
^^

it's finally raining today!!
after like so many days of hot sun
do you know something?
i love the rain.
=))

okie actuali i duno ward to blog
jux came here cux im FINALLY abit more free today.
cux i finished ALL my hmwrk (for the time-being)
*grins*
tmr wun be so free ler
cux fri gort lit test.
sigh..

-*`` feeling very complicated n complex today.. ``*-

i actuali felt happy.
plus abit of sadness.
why ar?
(o.O)||

tat mr eurasian i ignore him totally already
he knows my name school n number.
errr!!!
so freaky k.
(-_____-)

today helped gorgor with his maths
wa i noe how to do!!
i can take engineering with him ler lols.
=x
joke la.
my maths n science sucks like hell.

ward's the color of my sky today?
......it's grey.

went school today
short day burt draggy from all the sucky subjects..
gotten back my common test papers..
and i didnt do well..
i mean..as compared to CT1..
got to buck up already..

after school i went town wid wenwen n janet..
cux they wanted to buy wallet
we went to paragon cux janet said there gort roxy
in the end dun have.
(-_____-)||
so we went heeren
and they both bought the same wallet
janet's pink..wenwen's silver..
very nice sia
very tempted to buy burt bo lui(no money)
lols..

after tat janet go meet her bf
and me n wenwen went cine LJS
and eat and chat chat chat
hahas.
so nice=))
den we walked arnd cine
and i bought tis very cute mickey mouse thingy for si hui.
saw it and thought of her immediately.
hope she'll like it.^^

den me n wenwen went home lors.
jiajia n ting ting went cut hair today
in anticipation to see their new hairstyle.
hahahahas..

den reached home
feeling all emo again,
(tat's me.always emoing for no reason)
and depressed,
and there came tis weird guy who msg and called me
AND I DUNO HOW THE HELL HE KNOWS MY NUMBER AND NAME.
pissed off.
im already feeling depressed (again & as usual)
and i hate pple ka-chiaoing (disturbing) me when im emo-ing.
when im emo-ing plsplspls dun come disturb me
especially pple i dun like.
when i emo i onli want MY DARLINGS.
the rest pls stay away cux i'll nort entertain you.
who r my darlings?
zaizai wenwen huiting jiamin anna and zarifah?
onli they tok to me i'll smile.
the rest..sorry cux im reali nort in the mood
as for those i dislike (esp tat mr-weird-eurasian who duno get my no from which bastard who gave my number away)
BEFORE I GET IRRITATED N PISSED OFF
PLS STAY OFF AND LEAVE ME ALONE.

i dun wan anything
i onli want to be alone.

what's meant to be, will eventually become reality.
if both are meant to be, you both will eventually be together someday..
if nort. it's better to let go earlier.
let time be the witness, to see if both are true, if both are meant to be ..
if feelings are true, time can never erase it ..
=)

thanks wenwen..

yippee!
i went for a hair treatment to cure the dry ends
and now it's all nice and smooth again=))
althou it did burnt a hole in my pocket.
(T~T)

anyway
my hair stylist rocks!
strongly recommand Fyn Tang of Chapter 2 @ Marina Square to you all
she's nice and her hair styling skills are great duh.
next time anyone wants a haircut..find her^^
the treatment's reali effective
she helped to straighten my hair back wid a straightener and some hair mask or smth,
meant for rebonded hair.
my hair looks like it's rebonded and healthy now
it saves me from having to rebond again and damaging the hair
yay im so happy!
finally dun have to worry n be upset about my tresses.
=))

Penny Kwan (anth hairstylist) is nort bad too
last time i went to cut my hair short
and he did a great job.
burt i prefer Fyn
cux she's more friendly^^

anyway
my throats hurt man
from the coughing n the sore throat
the coughing's better now
burt the sore throat jux wun go away.
argh.
i hate being sick.

went yuki yaki wid my darlings ytd!
it was college day ytd
and all of us had to go back to sch
zZz..

burt after tat me wenwen ting n jiajia went gaigai
we took MRT to marina square's
den couldnt set our mind on going seoul garden or yuki yaki
in the end we walked to yuki yaki
den to seoul garden
den realise mux wait very long to be seated
den went back yuki yaki again.
(-________-)||
so retarded.
lols!

we had a great time at yuki yaki!
and we took lots of photos n videos!!
here are some peeks of ward we did..



-*`` jiajia n ting munching on sushi~~ ``*-



-*`` FOOD!!!!*yums* ``*-



-*`` tat's huiting..struggling wid the ice-cream. lols.. ``*-



-*`` huiting's coffee ice-cream..wenwen's choco smiley face=) ``*-



-*`` jiajia's grand achievement of vanilla icecream + oreos. huiting says: like mcflurry!! ``*-






-*`` hard work of me wenwen n jiajia. pretty huh? ``*-

of all i loved the frens 4eva "artwork" done by wenwen me n jiajia
miss FP (huiting) never help!!
*bish*
xiao jie. lols.
and why's huiting called miss FP?
onli we know.
MUAHAHAS!
canort say out cux it's too obscene.
kekekex..
had a great time wid my darlings today!!
love ya all=))
*muackiess``*

OH MAN!!
ARGH!!
i actuali said it!!
gosh
man
god
damn
shit
grrrrr
argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(T~T)
i feel like crying liao

argh..
im beginning to regret putting tat post on 22 April.

went ps wid siokwen after sch today
den we ate at long john
and chat for like a super long time
den we went to buy some stuff
and had a great time choosing the papers and ribbons
thanks wenwen for going to buy the stuff wid me^^

adapted from siokwen's blog..

When you think you're in love with that someone,

-you will think of that person anywhere, anytime, at any moment
-you will laugh or smile to yourself when you think of things which are related to him (can be jokes you both talked about)
-you will message him any time when you feel like it.
-you will wait for his message anxiously if he never reply, you will start to wonder if you send it to the wrong person, or think he might be busy so he can't see (find thousands of excuses to make yourself feel better)
-when you see him, you are usually not really yourself. (if you get what I mean.)
-every word he said, anything he mentioned before, you happen to remember, and when you happen to come across things that he mentioned, you will think of them indefinitely.
-if you happen to be with him in the same school, whenever you see his class, you will notice if he's there, when you see him coming towards your direction, you will then talk to friends, look else where instead.
-when you're in the same lecture with him, you will listen to lecture while noticing his actions, his moves.
-you will notice the changes he made (new bag, new shoes)
-you will realise both of you share same similiarities (same taste in a particular thing, same interests, same likings)
-you will get easily hurt by his words (he feel might not be offensive) , but definitely offensive to you.
-any promise he made to you, you will always remember and when he break his promise, you'll feel damn sad about it, and keep asking yourself why must he do this to you.
-if he has friendster, you will go to his page whenever you're free to check his new updates
-you'll stare at his same photos in friendster, even though you just seen it last month.
-if you log in msn, you'll see if he's there.
-if he changes his nick, you wonder who is he refering to in his nick and why he put such a nick (thinking a thousand reasons)
-when you listen to any slow songs, you happen to think about incidents that related to him, be it happy or sad.
-you will feel like talking to him whenever you go msn, or sms him when you're bored outside.
-you will keep his messages (even though it doesn't mean anything in that msg) for years, even if you inbox is flooded, you'll just delete the rest and save his.
-you'll try to keep a photo of him (not in wallet I meant, maybe just wanna have a photo with him)

can't think of other for now..what do you guys have then ? if you know of any, just post it in my tagboard.

Had a talk with eunice. Realised something.
Sometimes, when you see two person who seldom talk to each other in school when they meet, they might be a couple that you least expect.
being a couple in school not doesn't mean to have to eat together, accompany each other everytime in school, it could be two person who seems distant between both of them, that you never think of.

距离并不表示爱情已不存在，
因为重要的不是彼此是否各自一方，而是是否彼此还存有对方。

爱情不一定需要轰轰烈烈才算浪漫，
单纯悬疑默默的爱着对方才算得上浪漫。

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okie..i have to say
ward siokwen said is VERY true.
i've been thinking.
of my own feelings.
out of the 20 things siokwen said
20 things were exactly the way i felt.
only tat i have some additions to them.

--you'll stare at his same photos in friendster, even though you just seen it last month.
(it shld be even though u jux seen it tis morning)
--you nort only wait anxiously for his reply, you wait anxiously for him to contact u. be it phone call or sms.
--the first thing u think of when u open ur eyes in the morning, is him
--the first thing u do when u wake up, is to check ur phone for his sms-es
--he's the last person u think of before u doze off to dreamland
--u jux put down the phone n u feel like hearing his voice. AGAIN.(-_____-)||

okie i think tat's the most i can think of at the moment
there could be more.

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oh ya!
special day today!
it's my gor's BIRTHDAY~!


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once again..
sorry i couldnt celebrate wid ya kkies?
im feeling damn guilty over tat..
hope u enjoyed urself wid ur frens!
20 yrs old ler mux grow up liaos.
muahahas~~
dun so childish always bully me!!!!
*bish*
anyway..
may all ur wishes come true n many returns of the day~~!!!
^^

went MOE today
and was damn sian
cux i saw other jc pple wearing sch-u
den i was wearing civilian
den i damn scared is i wear wrong
somemore i duno anyone there.
and my frens were nort arnd=(
den i called zarifah n huiting
and paniked like hell.
lols..
i was damn retarded k.

den reluctantly
i went into the civil service college
thinking if even those SRJCian wore sch-u
den i'll skip it.
luckily i saw a few from the science n they were oso wearing civi
den i was sian again
cux i didnt noe anyone from tat grp of science pple.
so i was waiting arnd
seeing if there were any arts students.
sadly.
i dun see any.
(T~T)

on the verge of dying from the sian-ness
i saw my saviour.
DAVID from guitar!!
at last someone i noe!!
so we went in together(cux he didnt noe anyone too lols)
and saw TESSA from guitar too!
hahas!
i love my cca muacks muacks.
thank god.

so we sat together
and went arnd together lols.
the PSC scholarship is tempting.
burt..
it's difficult to get tat thing huh?
and i dun reali noe if i wan to work in the govt sector in the future.
it's gonna be boring working in the ministeries huh?
(o.O)

after tat thing
me dave n tessa went cityhall to makan
den we went New York New York
it was delicious duh!!!
except tat i couldnt finish my food
the serving was damn HUGE k!
you should have seen the coke float.
it's like 1-litre coke + choco icecream.
lols..ok tat was an exaggeration.
burt reali alort la.
in the end dave had to help me wid the float.
and the smoked-salmon velvet is YUMMY!
i wished i finished up my food.
it's a waste cux tat place's expensive.
and the food is DAMN NICE.
argh!
next time i go i wanna try the chocolate bailey's frost!
i saw tat on the menu and i was super tempted.
burt i din have the stomach n money anymore.
sobs.
they have fruit fondue too!
*drools*
strongly recommand to all of you!!
=D

COMMON TEST'S FINALLY OVER~~~~~~~~~~~!!!

it sucked like hell duh.
i finally gort thru tis hell period.
for the time-being.
sigh.
the next hell period's gotta be mid-yr.
(x.X)

SYF was ytd
and we gort silver
im nort sad..nor happy
lols.
dun reali care ward we get anyway
cux it was an expected silver
anyway ward do u expect
when more than half of the ensom started out as guitar-idiots?
(including me lols.and i still am.)
so..
ya i think we did great!=)
on the way back to sch
the whole ensom was damn high
and me n zarifah were waving to the pple outside
den tis bus came
and gort one uncle looked at our bus
n i waved frantically.
he gort the shock of his life i think
LOLS!!

den we were singing on the bus
singing idiotic n retarded songs
and mr fons..
your singing sucks okie?
(-_____-)||
sing so loud and non-stop somemore
i practically died.
(x.X)
wahahas~~
and stupid fonsus tied my dress to the chair
ah herms!
it's nort funny ok mr-idiot-fons.
dun think u section leader can anyhow.

den zarifah so chio la!
so elegant wid her hair and the gown
both me n zubaida tort she looked like those high class taitai
hahas!
ms SRJC indeed.
LOLS!
and eric looked like mafia
lols!
burt seriously
i think our gown S-U-C-K-S
other jcs ALL wore black
we were damn striking standing there
fons said he heard a hwachong guy said we looked like cooked prawns.
(-_____-)
wth..

den we gort a new couple in the ensom!
hahas..
right mr hua xin?
*winks*

love the ensom.
--``*muuaaacks*
ytd was the first time i was so high wid the ensom
beginning to blend in well
burt we're stepping down soon.
=(
hais.
burt tat's life isnt it?
i'll miss the days going for practice..
and im so looking forward to our "camp(?)"
or maybe chalet or watsoever.

yupps..
so last night reached home at arnd 9pm
and STILL HAD TO STUDY LIT
*pukes*
and dun forget tat there's H1 maths too.
so i think
i flunked both papers today.
esp my lit.
argh..
i was like a walking zombie
er..
a walking-and-studying zombie.
yupps.
until now=)
im alive again!
lols..
yay!!!common test's over!!!
yay yay YAY!!!

anyway
tmr i still have to go MOE for the stupid thing
tat means i have to wake up early.
damn.

gor dunch angry ler la!!
=((