飞轮海 = flying gear sea???
(it's fahrenheit my dear fren.)

LOLS!

silly you really had me laughing hahaha

start of school again today
and i feel damn crushed.

nvm.

eunice is going to be positive positive POSITIVE about school.
im not going to let all these pressure pull me down like it did last semester.

this post is specially for my very nice hongkong fren that had been with me all this time.

yesterday i was spending my time online with all my frens
and then chatting chatting
ahshe suddenly say
"doing something very important wait a min"
i said
"okie."
and i thought he was busy so i never said anything n waited
then i saw my emails and facebook notices keep popping.




LOLS!!

and i was feeling damn weird ward he's doing.
it turned out that he was trying to leave me a special CNY greeting on facebook.
HAHAHAS!
i really laughed until i fell onto the floor when i keep seeing the number of notices on facebook increased, and all is him leaving a comment on my wall.
thanks alot boy, u sure cheered me up these days when im feeling down.

╭┘└┘└╮∴°☆°
└┐．．┌┘───╮∴°
╭┴──┤Happy ├╮
│ｏ　ｏ│牛YEAR │●°
╰┬──╯　 　 │ ∴°﹒
☆ ˍ|ˍ/ˍˍˍˍˍ/∴☆

yay!
hope the new lunar year can be happy happy no worries no sadness!
(haha copied this from my fren n flooding everyone everywhere with it LOL=p)

i saw this on minmin's blog

"Close friends are truly life's treasures. Sometimes they know us better than we know ourselves. With gentle honesty, they are there to guide and support us, to share our laughter and our tears. Their presence reminds us that we are never really alone."
- Vincent van Gogh -

so true right.
i tell u lor oh my freaking goodness u cant imagine how much my frens care for me.

shushu read my blog and asked me ward happened
i didnt wanna tok bout it so i just said "dun wanna tok bout it.just anth jerk again."
then shushu totally guessed
"he must have asked u out..or sms to chat..or on msn .. or helped u do something..so u think he's nice..plus his looks not bad"

shushu u can be fortune teller. TOTAL SPOT ON.

and then ytd qinqin and simon were scolding this jerk all along (while toking to me la not scold him directly)
and qinqin laughed like mad at this loser.
and simon keep giving me drawings to make me happy.
jiajia tis morning i talked to her n im really glad cux i felt tat jiajia loves me so much too.
xavier oso he's been there throughout.
yichen oso very concerned about my sorethroat and my mood.

then yichen teach me some skill to judge pple.
much thanks tis is a very vital lesson to me.
and shushu say
"these very typical ones.. everytime the same trick.. they not sian i oso sian liao"
lol now i know ward typical tricks.
ahaha next time see i know the tricks will caution liao.

people. now u see how much my frens care for me.
everytime i do stupid things but they never gave up on me.
im so touched.
i love you all too!

comecome all my good frens im giving each and everyone of u a big kiss.
XD

and i just read minmin's blog.
and i just chatted with xavier.

it always makes me happy to see my name on min's blog
and xavier's words are so mature as always.
they made me feel lighter, not so upset anymore.

xavier made me looked clearer. at least, a little more clearer.
he told me i should be more street smart, and protect myself
its okay to be sad over the loss of a fren
but shld recognise that long-term frens are those who are most concerned bout me
and most precious.
i should start learning not to think about how others feel but more of how i feel.
bcux we cant predict how others feel but we can control how we feel to make ourselves happier.
i'll try, okie.
bcux im too used to putting other's mood before my own.

and then minmin..
i duno if our decision was right
but in anyway.
we r definitely here for each other.

all my frens..

no words could spell my gratitude to the kind of care concern and love of friendship u all give me.
and how much i treasure you all.
thank you.

eunice will learn to grow up. she will struggle and feel lost but pls pardon her.
eunice, grow up.

some things happened ytd and i duno how jiajia n yichen will look at me but

this incident certainly made me doubt myself for ward kind of person i really am.
jiajia was right,
why i knew from the start that there is danger/will be hurt but still insist on going forward to make myself hurt
go search for trouble and danger.

it is true and i know very well of that.
yet im still like that and i hate myself for doing these.
jiajia's words were a direct smack on my face.
yet i still felt very very sad that i made someone angry.
and i still keep thinking that he's a nice person.
ward the hell am i thinking?
ward the hell am i doing?
i've so many frens who love me ward ! the ! hell ! am ! i ! thinking !

but one thing for sure.
i see truely that jiajia and yichen are good friends that will protect me as long as they can.
im really happy to have such frens.

jia n yichen alrdy told me its dangerous.
and yet up to this point i still think he's a good person.
and im very sad that i lost a fren.
im freaking stupid gullible and naive.

i really wished that i was as tough as jiajia shushu tingting and not give in to my emotions so easily.
i wished i had a heart made of stone so at least i wldnt get hurt anymore.

dear friends,
thanks for always being there.
im sorry for always doing stupid things and making you guys worry for me.

i duno if you were referring to me but..
if you were here's my reply:



it's not really clear so click on it to read okie.

it's hard to wait around for something that you know might never happen. but it's even harder to give up especially when it's everything you ever wanted.

yay i finally changed my blog template.
how is it how is it?
give me ur comments pls!

i downloaded the layout from blogskin.com
but the rest all i do de ok!
i changed the background
changed the boxes color
and most importantly i did the picture myself using paint!
sadly my adobe couldnt work so this was the best i could do with paint(>.<)

i think after my frens see this u guys are going to say "E-M-O" again.
but i tried my best not to make it too emotic.
i changed the original super emo picture and the emo black background to this colorful and nice one.
of cux the picture is still emo but... better la haha.

im trying to do something very stupid.
im trying to search for some lost item.
i must be crazy to have wanted to find it back bcux it's like searching for a needle in the sea.
it may be the dumbest thing on earth to do so but im not giving up until i find it
so pls help me pray tat im able to find that missing thing back.

i had the most interesting day today.
i duno why but i think im starting to get used to uni life alrdy.
let's hope it will last especially when tutorials start.

school had definitely been interesting today.
i had morning lesson at 10am, chinese phonetics.
with jiajia and me thinking that we had to speak like ahtiongs
we were actuali feeling quite denene!
thank god when we went to class the lecturer said that we do not have to.
we were to learn how words are pronounced. biological and those frequency etc.
phew.
but the most peculiar thing is that we have to learn biology in CHINESE.
freak and faint~
maybe one thing that im thanking god is that i think we do not have to be very critical in thinking for this mod.
we only have to study to pass i guess.

and then i had lunch with jiajia at engineering canteen.
we were saying that we always drink the same thing
so we wanted to explore other fruit juice.
and so i had the "most wonderful drink in the world" - avocado milkshake -
and almost had me throwing up all the food i ate earlier.
warning.
pls dun risk ur life. DO NOT try to try avocado milkshake.

did i mention that i had 3 lecturers for history last sem?
one was Irish
the other a mixed American-Burmese-English-Philippines
and the last was a korean. which was also my tutor.
and then i had an Indo-Chinese tutor for film art and she was reaaallly pretty
and a Chinese tutor for econs
and a Taiwanese lecturer/tutor for IT.
jiajia and zarifah, btw, had an African tutor for their philosophy.

that was last semester.

this semester is even more exciting.

after lunch i went for my lesson SEA: A changing region
and goodness. pls prepare urself.

firstly, the lecturer introduced himself as Dr Bautista, Julius.
well he certainly did not mentioned where he came from (or maybe i didnt pay enuff attention=x)
and then he introduced the 2nd lecturer, Dr Chie Ikeya
Dr Ikeya is a Japanese-mixed-Burmese.
how cool is that.
ok and then they introduced the tutors one by one.

the first was an Australian, Ms Annie Watson Karmel.

then the second was a Japanese, Mr Takamichi Serizawa.

then there was a Thai
Philipino
Italian
American
Indonesian
Chinese

ALL IN ONE MODULE TAT IM TAKING.
suddenly i feel like "am i still in Singapore??!!"
LOLS!

then when the lecture ended i told jiajia
"PICK A COUNTRY!"
jiajia understood straightaway and said
"NIPPON~~"
then i said "eeyer reminds me of Mr. W"
then she said "but the australian looks fierce.."
then she laughed and we said tgr
"THEN WE WANT THE ITALIAN!!!"
LOLS!!
not bcux we could understand his accent but its bcux he looks fun haha
yichen wanted the italian too LOLS!
but then we said
"the american's accent is fine too."
and then went for socialwork lecture with yichen n it was freaking boring
so yichen n me crept out and went off during the break LOL
and then on our way to the bus stop yichen met 2 of his hallmates.
i didnt know the name but they were really nice and friendly.
oh nationality?
FRENCH.

HAHAHAS my school is like a small earth with pple of all nationalities.

i've been searching for a new skin for my blog
i typed "wait for you" in the search box
and surprise surprise~
there was ALOT of blogskins regarding to it.
lols lots of emo pple out there like me naaaaa~~

and i came across a blogskin that had really meaningful words.
i shall share it here:

i've waited all my life
to cross this line
to the only thing that's true
so i wont hide
its time to try
anything to be with you
all my life i've waited
this is true

you dont know what you do
everytime you walk into the room
im afraid to move
im weak, its true
im just scared to know the ending
do you see me too?
do you even know u met me?

ive waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing that's true
so i will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life i've waited

how did ya all liked it?
haha i guess ya all will say "super emo again"

wait for my new EMO blogskin!
hahahahaha

today's my first day of school for the 2nd sem~~
had sociology lecture and it was fine but jiajia they all said B-O-R-I-N-G~~
they said maybe cux they had a very exciting psych lecture ytd.
=(
i wanted to take psych too but tis sem my mods very heavy le dun dare take.
nvm i can still take next sem or smth
still have 2 years in this sch lol.

tmr is translation~~
hopefully its good and yay can meet my new fren fangli~~
haha duno why quite excited bout seeing her for the first time.
lols sounds like dots.

today after lect went to PGP eat lunch
with jiajia rifah n yichen
yichen treated us thank you yichen~~~
jiajia staying in hall now!!
abit envious lols.
wonder how it feels like to be independent.

hello 2009!

alright i know this is a very late hello but i wasnt in singapore rmbr?
and as soon as im back in singapore im bidding bidding bidding for the mods next sem.

school is starting next week, which is tomorrow!!
but im only going to school on tuesday cux i havent got any lessons tmr.
i certainly hope this sem would be a brand new start to my academic life.
last sem had been really dreamy and waste of time and im pushing myself to put in more effort from now on.

i reckoned year 2006 and 2007 were the best years i had.
althou 2007 had alot of unhappy events
but i was really happy bcux i had many people arnd me who loved me.
spending time around these people really made my 2007 a colourful and joyous year.
and then came 2008,
i greedily hoped for better events and did came several.

firstly i had the first job of my life which was at the laundry shop cotton care.
and which i met many friendly and good colleagues like nana siqi and haoxiang.
whom will still contact me every now and then till now.
grateful for having a pleasant experience for my very first job.

secondly i got a 2nd job at SEAB which gave me very good colleagues and boss once again
namely Mdm Kow, Mr Lim and Huda, althou all older than me but really took care of me as if im their own child HAHA!
especially Mdm Kow and Huda, who stayed there for me when i fell sick for over a month (!!!) and when i had problems with my family.
and Mr Lim who kindly introduced this job to me and helped me alot along the way.
and then I had the chance to work with Zarifah, Maryam, Shahirah, Ivan, Gui Shi and Jon.

thirdly it was the release of results, applying for schools, waiting for replies and etc.
which really fussed me alot during the whole period.
really thankful to be able to pass through everything smoothfully.

and then soon it was august and the start of uni life.
was carrying a hopeful but also uneasy heart
everything was new and im really glad that i have jiajia zarifah and yichen with me.
of cux not to forget the new frens i've made!
daryl and xavier especially. who helped me alot along the way when im super sotong about uni life.
well im still very blur about school but much better thanks to guidance from the both of u=D
really grateful that i've nice people arnd me in uni.

days just passed by like bullet train.
and then came november and december, 2 months that are reali eventful.
school exams.. many birthdays.. holidays..
the very happy day when we celebrated jiajia's bday
the very happy day when my frens celebrated me n ting's bday
the very happy day when i get to meet up with minmin
the very happy day when i get to meet up with ahfan shushu and dixon
veryvery eventful and happy.

then i had the chance to go to hongkong once again for holidays and whoosh!
time just flew and 2009 came.

haha how fast.
actually i had been thinking 2008 was a bad year.
mainly bcux i had been struggling with school
and bcux i miss my jc frens and jc life which i love sososo much.
but now, looking back,
it had been fine afterall.
i should really count my blessings and be contented.

im really praying hard that 2009 will be a good year.
this year.
i duno ward i will be facing
ward new things new events new people i will meet
oh i met a new fren fangli!
haha.
well further down the year many things yet to come
i certainly hope things will be fine.
and at the end of 2009.
i duno ward i will be facing
and i duno how i will take it
and it will be the time to fulfil the decision i made.

thank you 2008. for giving me so many happy things.
hello 2009. i really hope 2009 will be a good year.

im back to singapore!!
touched down in changi airport at 8pm on monday.
i shall now upload my photos here and let the photos do the toking!
enjoy!=))

@changi airport departure hall. xmas mood everywhere~~:



on the plane haha:


it was still raining when the plane took off:



and then about 3.5 hours i reached hk! this was taken on the bus on my way home:


we didnt stay in hk for too long before going guangzhou on the 17th. my nephew (23yrs old=.=):


and then on the 19th dec 2008 we went back to hongkong again:


and not long after we left for macau on the 21st dec 2008:


on the ship to macau:



and then we checked into a hotel when we reached macau:



the hotel room had many mirrors and i cant resist zilianing hahaha:



then after resting awhile we went to the famous Sands Casino in macau which i find boring cux i didnt know how to gamble=.= and dun like to gamble too. :



and we went to the famous macau Ma Kok Temple:


there were firecrackers! pity i couldnt take the photos in time:



the wishing tablets in Ma Kok Temple:



and i saw a very cute dog! haha:


and very nice graffitis:



then i saw qinqin's fav suzuki bear! haha!:


macau is a mixture of west and east. u see portugese everywhere:


we went to the ruins of saint paul's. a place that i always wanted to visit:


and along the way i saw portugese egg tarts!!:



so mini so cute!:


it's mine! bleah:


then we finally reached the ruins of saint paul's! so beautiful!:








its history:


hais how small are us compared to the world?:


the great fortress:






this used to be a helicopter parking place:


can u spot the ruins of saint paul's?:


look like painting?can see me and my mama? haha:



the parade square:




and i had this for lunch!haha:


then we went back to the hotel to pack. and on my way back i saw black beetle!!! woots!:


we took this back to hk:


the hk seaview:


and then it's shopping and eating in hongkong again till i come back to singapore! haha!:



took tis in my house toilet LOL!:




hope you guys enjoyed my photos!=D