it's been a loooong time since i blogged!

this period of time, alot of things happened.
so many things my mind had been in a flux.
i had to put my life back in order so it took my time off my blog.

well i duno if anyone still reads my blog now,
since it's been so long since i updated,
n i doubt anyone cares anymore.

basically,
althou it's only going-August now,
this year had been an eventful year and it had taught me an awful alot about life.
many pretty moments, much more ugly moments.
true enough, eunice had changed.
for the better or for the worse,
i would leave it up to u pple to decide.
im still keeping my faith in how i regard to everyone, i will still practice the principle that i wld respect and help others as much as i can.

but one thing i've changed to believe is that, one thing that people and incidents have taught me is that:
if im not appreciated, then forget it.

the feeling of not being appreciated totally sucks.
i dun ask for anything in return, im not saying im noble
ward i ask for is a tweeny weeny bit of faith and effort in believing n trusting.
of cux im not perfect, i make mistakes too.
im not asking for forgiveness, im only hoping for tolerance.
bcux nobody is perfect.
if u're turning away from me just becux of my flaws in me
i wld like to ask u:
ward do i exactly mean to u?
afterall tat we went thru and all tat effort i had put in,
and u can just scrape me off ur life just so easily,
where do i exactly stand?
sorry. i just feel tat u are not appreciating my efforts and i feel like im just doin things for someone who thinks of my efforts as useless.
im very sorry for saying this but tis is exactly ward i've been feeling.

everyone has got their flaws, and if i can tolerate urs, why cant u accept me for who i am too?

u duno how i feel.
it's undescribeable.
encountering the same thing a second time again after i did in secondary school.
and this time round i put in so much effort into maintaining everything if u realised.
or maybe nobody realised nor cared?
ha-ha. i find this pathetic n hilarious.
u always know what is the most important thing to eunice.
i may have a messy life,
but i always put this in an important place in my heart.
i may be indecisive, emotional, stupid and unrealistic
but i clearly, clearly draw the lines between every aspects in my life i nvr mess them up.
my personal life is my life, my relationships are messy, my family relations are my family relations, my friends will always be my friends.
i dun mix them up.

but seems like people dun view u tat way.
we are judged generally.
so if u screw up in one,
it just means u are all screwed up.

ward a great life man=)

i didnt wanna post this initially,
but these thoughts had been suffocating me for a long time,
i've decided not to bottle it up.
if u read this and u wanna do smth about it,
which u know i wld happily and gladly spend the effort to salvage the relationship together with everyone,
i will appreciate it very much.
but if u read this and u still think that this is not going to be important to u anymore,
then since that u dun care,
i shall respect ur decision and tat's it.

if this post is making u think
"eunice is such a bitch"
then i can only say im sorry.