Adapted from Zarifah's blog..

I played summer for other sections other than section 4 alone at home using Guitar Pro.......and suddenly, I'm overwhelmed by this feelings of sadness that took over me all of a sudden.....I felt like crying cuz it reminds me of all those happy faces that played guitar with me and all those jokes that we crack to make ourselves less tired to repeat the songs that we played over and over again......to know that it all will end soon...less than a month, we wont be gathered that much anymore to play and disturb and mingle with one another. We would be focusing on other important stuff like A-levels....it's like I go guitar everyday with Eunice cuz we cherish the times spent with everyone there......it's like we're united....and both of us already did miss guitar now......though it's too soon...i wonder how the rest feels.....cuz I know I feel sad to wait for the day that we step down from Guitar Ensemble. THough we're admittedly not good, but we work hard and most importantly, we enjoyed the times we spent for our beloved CCA..................I'm anxiously waiting for that day cuz I know I'll be crying like mad.

As for the rest of my classmates.....I'll miss everyone especially my close frens like Huda, Anna, Janet, Eunice.....2A08....

P.S. DAmn!!!! Does it sound like as if I'm going to die tomorrow or migrate to another country forever...hahaz. Just too tired and stressed up I guess.

aw..
im so touched by ward Zarifah said lars..
yupps i will miss u too=))
and yeah..
time reali flies and we're goin to step down soon
i think i will hug my beloved monkey(my guitar) and cry like crazy
Guitar 29..
i will always love u k?
(T~T)
althou im nort ur only owner
burt i reali have to tell u i love u alort.
*muacks*
sorry for nort able to let u produce beautiful music
cux my guitar skills reali sucks
burt i reali treasure u.

ok i noe i sound stupid
toking to a non-living thing lidat.
burt hey
i reali love my guitar.
and after reading zarifah's blog.
im so touched n all emo now k
sigh..
the days im having now are reali the best times of my life so far
althou the stress from studies n stuff
i reali hope time can slow down
and continue feeling so blissful wid my frens arnd..

hist quiz tmr..chinese test on wed
the stress reali sucks.
thank god i have u=))
thanks for always showing support for me
u reali rock!
and ya..
i mean ward i say=))
they come from the bottom of my heart
can u hear it?

guitar was great!
i was practicing wid zarifah
and was so addicted to my guitar
i wasnt willing to go home.
lols..
*siao*

after school went eat wid my sisters
it was raining so heavily
and noble de shushu ferried us wid her umbre
and gort herself abit drenched.
thanks shushu=))
so sweet of her.

and you.
you idiot.
you bendan!!!!!
dun treat me so good ler can?
it's turning my world upside down.
it's shaking my heart
making me lose my mind.
i jux wan to be carefree
cux im afraid of being hurt again.
so..
if u noe u cant give me eternity
leave me alone..can?

had a great date wid my frens=)

after sch i went taka wid huiting n jiajia
den we went to eat pepper lunch
after tat
we went cine to meet timmy
lols
idiot timmy late for like 45min!!!
*bish*
den he rushed like hell i think
and he was perspiring hahas.
den we went to buy tickets for "the haunted school"

and it's starts at 4pm
so we went heeren walk walk first
den we walked into tis shop
and jiajia was looking at the children's tee
and den the shop attendent was like telling us
"tat's for kids"
(-_____-)||
so paiseh k
erms.
as if we r reali interested lols
jaija's jux taking a look
burt damn paiseh k.
so super paiseh.
(o.O)

after tat timmy went to get a hotdog
(cux he haven ate lunch)
den we went cine lers.
wanted to take neos wid my sisters
burt timmy was there
so well..next time lo

den we sat in tis sequence:
aisle.timmy,me,huiting,jiamin.
den beside jiajia no one lers
den me n ting damn scared
and we stick to each other like glue
burt i realise jiajia very ke lian
cux she's all alone
and she's scared too
so i asked ting to go pei her
i alone nvm^^
see i so noble.
LOLS.

burt i reali damn scared k.
den tell u one secret:
timmy was scared too!
lols..
shhh..
den scary part he oso hidehide la
LOLS
den the both of us hide together
hahas..
den he kept trying to scare me
by tapping me out of a sudden
or grabbing my arm suddnly.
(-____-)||
lame pok.
he himself scared he keep scaring me
burt i wasnt scared by him.
wahahas..
laopok.
burt gort one part the ghost come out
den i was damn engrossed
he sdnly grabbed my hand
and i jumped.
(-______-)||
wth.
grrr..
den after the show
timmy pei me to bedok mrt
after he see me to bedok
he go back orchard.
(-____-)|||||
super eng la lame guy
cux poly holidays now.
den we keep suaning each other throughout again
(o.O)
watever!
lols.
idiot gor.

happy day today=))
wish to go out again
hais.
burt i think it's impossible wid tat amount of schoolwork.
waaa
(T~T)
nvm.
i will tell u when im free la.
hahas.

went for the hist today at cjc
damn
saturday oso canort rest
grrr..

after tat hist thing
me n my girls were walking to the bus stop
then jiajia
attracted tis humming bird to her
and den she like swept it off screaming la
lols
den i first time see humming bird in real marhs
so i was saying
"wa!humming bird leh!so cute!"
the moment i say finish
the humming bird came attacking back for us
den i super scared la
the group of us faster run
and i was screaming "NOT CUTE LIAO NOT CUTE LIAO!!"
(-_____-)||

den jiajia and zaizai went home first
cux they going out wid their frens after tat
so me ting n shushu went eat lo
we went mos at toapayoh
den walked arnd
and me n ting bought earrings=)
star star de so pretty de
^^
den i pei tingting wait for bus
and we tok so much la
shushu was saying
"u all nort come shopping de
is come tok de.u all jux walk in rounds n tok."
LOLS..
paiseh.
neglect u lers..=x

waa~~
so happy ne=)
today spend a whole hour singing
wid my darling sisters
shushu brought her lyrics book
den the five of us were singing
(jiamin refused to sing = =)
den so fun ne
zaizai so funny XD
kept singing comically
and tingting kept singing off key
and den kena cold stare by the 4 of us
lols!
i reali loved tat moment.
i wished it will be forever so sweet.
i feel so blessed wid such great frens.

gosh.
i cant imagine the day when we graduate
and get seperated.
i dun wan.
(T~T)
i feel like crying at the thought of it.
i will miss the days so much lars.
*hugs all my dearest frens*
im gonna miss u all so much..

today went LJS wid my sisters during lunch
nice and fun
laughing until i get cramps lols

den last night n today
i gort to noe some reali gross news
tat made me so disgusted.
i wun say ward it was
burt my sisters will noe =)
burt hey
i was so glad im nort so stupid anymore
*phew*
and forrest said i shld be glad
and proud of myself
sure.
im sooooo glad.
and hell yeah im so proud of myself
(^.<)
and yes i believe in retribution=)
(i sound abit scary lols..like ghostly)
burt retribution do exist.
jux like i gort my retribution for hurting someone
i gort my retribution..i gort hurt myself
soon it will be ur turn=)
who cares if u r reading tis.

ok.
back to being myself and stop cursing pple=)
ytd's guitar was a disastor.
burt gort 97 pple signed up!
=D
so happy la.

i reali canort describe how much i love my frens^^
duno why
today was reali happy wid them arnd
ting..zaizai..jiajia..wenwen..anna..zarifah..
=)
muacks!

-x`` i love the freedom..it gives me choices.gives me space.i no longer feel suffocated. ``x-

life's so unfair
i felt so unjustified
burt
thanks to ed for listening
thanks for being there duh.
suddenly im back to the "heck care" mode again
ya tat's good.
=)
and feeling all happy and smiles now^^

and god
finalli i get a break from schoolwork
been slogging like crazy for the past few days
today finally can rest abit
burt think tmr will be crushed again by schwrk
idiot hist made me chiong like siao ytd
and nvr even go thru today.
sucker..
sucker faggot"nat"(invented by anna haha)

k la
wan go snore snore liaos
woke up at 4am tis morning to chiong hist
and in the end nvr go thru
*pissed*

-x`` life's so beautiful.things always come least expected.esp good things.``x-
---and to hell with the unexpected sucky stuff.hahas=)

toking crap today sorry(^^)

enjoying my ONE & ONLY ONE-DAY break today
5day holiday become one day..
wth..
still gort tons & tons of homework somemore..
damn no life..
i jux woke up at like 9am to msg him
den went back to sleep n jux woke up
it rox sia..
so long since i can sleep like a pig..
hais..
our saturday plan is off..
quite disappointed..
in fact very disappointed.
i was so looking forward to it u noe..
burt no choice la..
when he's free im busy
when i'm free he's busy
den he actuali suggested to meet on saturday nite
burt..
how to la??!!
i wish i could oso
sigh.
in the end have to tell him i at night canort
so the plans are off.
(T~T)
reali wish to see him de..
hais..

so now is ward la??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh man i hate to guess lidat

today's CEC!
woke up early at 5am to rush to sch
den waited damn long for the things to start
sian 1/2
burt have to say it was quite fun
the JC1s quite nice pple..
quite co-operative
den gort a few quite enthu de helped out alort.
thank god there's them
if nort i think i will be super paiseh.
hahas..
abit nervous at first
burt gort used to it after tat
burt the sun super hot!
den gort one class super late
jiamin say i abit face black black
=x
oops.
sorry..
burt after tat i try to be enthu again
hahas..
nice experience!
and after tat on my way home on the bus
i heard tis JC1 girl n boy said tat the CEC was great
and tat SR's quite fun
im quite happy actuali
at least we made them feel welcomed =)
burt gort abit tanned under the hot sun
and my neck is very red and is hurting now
damn..
everytime tan abit i will get burnt.
(-____-)||
hope i dun turn black
(T~T)

tis sat going out marhs?
tell me quick~~~!!!
im so kan cheong about it k
(>.<)

holiday classes finali over!
sian.
no more guitar =(
i like guitar la.
i love my guitar.
muacks.
so fun hahas..
burt nort fun being teased by ms zarifah and mr fonz!
*glares*
shuddup hors u two.

i love my nick: zuan yi.
nick given by mr hua xin.
hahas..
(^.<)

oh ya and i saw nat at heartland mall today
when i was eating at yoshi
wid my group of girlfrens
he's nort very good looking in real person
in fact i think he looks abit gay.
lols..
sorry if i offended anyone.
i used to think he's good looking when i see him on tv
burt seems like me n huiting were deceived!
hahas!
and i heard tat he's from st gabs.
yuck.
dun have good impression of tat sch.
=x

FINALLY i get some time to blog.
it's like war everyday sia.
i reach home at 8pm on mon wed n fris
and 6+ on tues
den need to chiong hmwrk until like siao.
J2 life's reali hectic and making me crazy
and me n my frens all gort the
"sleepy syndrome"
except for miss jiajia who can sleep at 8.30pm
and still say she's tired n sleepy!!!
dorts.
(-____-)||

it's been a better week,
nort as busy as last week
burt it's been a quiet week too.
haven heard much from him
since he went to work.
he told me work's crazy too
been busy like siao.
well..?
i duno lars.
*shrugs*
watever.

it's term break next week
burt reali,
it's worse den normal school day.
wth lors!
mon tues wed i have to stay in sch
from morning till 6pm
jux one or two half an hour break in btwn.
i think im reali going crazy.
den thurs gort CEC
duh!
wanted to go out wid my frens oso no time
burt we planning smth for saturday
hope it's smth good n fun.
i need a break!

qinqin's going malacca today
have a good trip zaizai!
gonna miss ya^^

sigh.
ward's wrong wid u?
ward's wrong wid me?
ward's wrong wid us?
tell me u idiot.

im missing u
have i fallen for u again?
i duno.
burt i have a very uneasy feeling
is it a phobia from the past relationships?

althou u ask me to guess how u feel
burt i reali duno leh.
so when u ask me to guess
i can onli act blur.
sigh.
jux tell me if u wan to..
dun leave me guessing..

wasnt feeling very well today
n i have tat sucky econs retest after sch
i ended at 12.30 n have to wait till 4.30 for it
grrr..

i finished at 5.30
den after tat retest
i bth and threw up
sian 1/2
somemore i din sleep well last night
i was quarrelling wid my dad
so i had panda eyes n eyebags
the bad thing is
im meeting tat pig sia.
in the end have to let him see me in such a bad condition!
he waited for me outside the sch gate
den siokwen was like telling him
"she's nort feeling well take care of her k?"
den he nodnod lors.
and throughout the journey
he kept asking me
"r u going to vomit" and stuff lidat
(-____-)||

den we went to take bus
quite alot of pple
burt we managed to grab 2 empty seats
den he sat inside
i can see he sit until very cramp la
cux he's legs too long
lols..
so after a while i said
"can i sit inside?"
cux i dun like sitting outside oso
so he said
"ok..burt u might nort wan to"
i gave him the (o.O) look
den he say
"i stand up den u noe lers"
burt when he stood up i sat in
i din see anything
(-____-)||
den he told me
"jux now when we board the bus the inner seat was wet
so i let u sit outside"
"burt now nort wet ler,cux i sat on it"
lols.
den i say
"huh..den y u nvr say earlier.."
den he said
"cux im noble."
*pengs*
(-_____-)||

den we talked bout our lifes for the past yr,
cux very long nvr see each other ler marhs.
den sit too close i dun dare look at him..
burt throughout the whole journey he kept staring at me
even when im nort toking.
so i try to tok as much as possible
if nort very paiseh
burt there was once i was silent for a while
cux i very tired n sleepy
he was like looking at me for a long long time
den i "chua tio" la
abit panicky and duno ward to do
so i turned arnd n say
"y u looking at me lidat??!"
den he say
"why cannort?"
(x.X)
den i say
"dun look ler la!very paiseh leh!"
den i turn away
burt he was still looking lars!
den he "am chio" somemore.
wth..
den i change topic and tok bout my frens
den nort so awkward.
den after tat gort anth time silent n he look at me again
burt i pretend nvr notice den look out of the window.
lols..

den at the interchange
we were waiting for the bus
den he suddenly look at me again and said
"ur eyes very big leh"
out of nowhere.
(-_______-)!!
den i say
"huh!"
den i faster use my hands to cover my face
i duno y i did tat burt i was super paiseh so i wanted to hide
den he laughed
and said
"it's a good thing ward y hide ur face"
den i say "huh.." as i slowly take down my hands
den he said
"u r blushing.."
(o.O)!!!!
den i faster cover my face again
den he laughed
zZz..(-_____-)||
idiot k him.

den i reached home lers
so we sms lors.
den he still dare to tell me
"i realise i keep looking at u today"
dorts.
so i told him it was very paiseh
den he say
"maybe too long nvr see u lers now mux see "ge gou"(see until enough)"
*pengs*

it was a great time =)

i guess things had changed.
no longer like last time when we first knew each other.
abit disappointing.
and so sian.
i hate it when pple change
like..
they have changed from my fren
to a stranger.
sigh
or maybe in the first place
i didnt noe u well enough?

poor tingting fell sick today
and went home early
*sayang*
hope u r ok.
get well soon k?

had a great time at guitar today
=)

ytd chiong hmwrk until now super tired
burt wan spend sometime blogging bout ward happened ytd
it's anth day wid the sunshine today!
althou there's lots of work to be done.
today feeling very very happy
(althou im tired)
very high esp when there's guitar!
hahas i think im abit crazy over guitar now.
^^

feeling abit confused now.
maybe cux im abit mixed up.
btwn the reality n the past.

gosh.
i went to cut my hair short today
and guess who i saw?
winston!
it's been so long duh.
and he reali changed quite abit.
i was at marina square de chapter 2
den he was cutting his hair too
i jux sat down
and he walked past my seat
den we looked at each other
and hey!he(she) look familiar.
hahas.
burt i din call him
cux i cutting hair wards.
(-____-)||
how i noe he cut fin hair
didnt leave
and sat there for a super long time
den kept looking over
so paiseh k.
cux i cutting hair lars!!
den i was super uncomfortable.
after a super LONG time
he finally left.
den i heaved a sigh of relief.
burt after tat i turn n look out of the shop
he was there wid his frens.
and i was like
DUH!!!HE HAVEN LEAVE AFTER LIKE SO LONG??!!
after i fin cutting
i urgently needed the toilet.
lols.
den i grab wenwen(who pei me)
walked left
den i realised toilet's on the right
n i saw him at a shop
den i was thinking
"faster leave"
cux i paiseh marhs.
jux when i turned arnd
he shouted
"eunice!"
n rushed out of the shop to catch up wid me
den i was like (-___-)
so i chat wid him a while
and told him my new number
cux he said he called me
burt nort available.
hahas.
den at night
he sms-ed me
den we chat lors.
and he told me some things
tat was very unexpected.
abit pity.
maybe things would have been different
if it was told earlier.
burt hey
im still glad to see him
after so long lars.
and still glad he still rmbrs.

he's still so like fan.
the way they tok.
i always get them two mixed up.
hahas.

my hair so short.
(T~T)

my hair condition quite bad leh..
i think im cutting it short.
althou i reali dun bear to!!!!
(T~T)
burt i think
if i dun cut short
sooner or later my hair will be completely jialat
den it will be worse.
sigh
i reali love my long hair
took me so long to grow it until tis length!!!!
think i cutting it until like zarifah barhs
in order to save it.
den when it's in btr condition
den grow long again lors.
argh..
have to grow it for anth two years la
to make it long long.
sian~~~
i thinking of going haru leh
nvr go before wan to try
burt very ma fan
cux always have to make appointment
or maybe i go back monsoon or hair mechanics
hms..
or try chapter 2?
sobs.
love my long hair~
muacks.
think keep it for a few more days barhs
thursday fin sch early
den see tat day go cut lo.
hais..

today sch had chinese new year celebrations!
it wasnt very exciting la
burt the kids were cute!
our sch had the lion dance from NTU too
nort bad.

after tat me anna n zarifahfah went parkway
den i saw lixian n lina on there
we went to the pet shop
the dogs n rabbits so cute la!!
gort a golden retriever very poor thing
kept crying n refusing to eat
cux it was seperated from its frens
=(

after tat we went mac to meet illi
den we ate at mac n went to classic pool
zarifah playing for the first time sia
den i super lousy
nvr win at all (>.<)
zarifah first time play burt super tyco la!
say "anyhow ar" evrytime before she poke the ball
(-___-)||
den when we laugh she will say "shuddup la!"
so she set the trend
evrytime before we poke the ball mux say
"anyhow ar..shuddup la!"
lols..
den she "anyhow anyhow" still can get in
(-____-)||
i at first very tyco..
den a while later kept missing
grrr...
den at the last game
me n anna team
zarifah n illi team
den fahfah n illi won.
sorry anna =(
i super lousy sia..
gort once i lost to zarifah
cux i hit the black ball in
(T~T)
sobs~~

anth great day!
today we celebrated shushu's bday in advance
she was very shocked we can see.
lols..
hope u like it darling girl!
happy birthday =)

today confirm from vin tat he's reali nort attached.
poor guy
jux shi lian recently i heard
(T~T)

after sch i pei shushu go econs
then after tat go bugis meet jiajia n tingz
jiajia n tingz cut hair..
quite nice de
den they ate ajisen
so good la!
me n shushu pok no money
so went to eat toriQ bento
nort bad too =)
den we went bugis street n bought earrings
fun day wid them!
muacks my darlings~
love ya all for always giving me fun.
^^

today stayed back in sch
to make little presents for the class
(^.<) thanks shushu anna n fahfah for helping
esp shushu she reali helped the most
i think she did more than me sia.
lols..

happy valentine's to all~! (^^)
to those who r single dun be upset cux valentine's a day for frens too!! =)
to those who r attached may u have the happiness n last forever^^
me? yup i do have a date tmr.
i have a date wid my guitar.
guitar prac tmr
(-___-)||
burt hey!
fahfah's guitar name is susan
mine's ______
hahas!
*winks*

cant wait to go to sch
x)
im bored at home duh.
wanted to go play pool ytd wid anna they all
burt the plan was off
cux everyone seemed tired frm the week
ya..
it was a tiring week from sch
and i guess we need to rest more den play barhs.
althou i reali longed to play pool wid them.
anth day i guess.
i cant wait for the TEC too.
hope all of us get in =))
den can play together lers!
^^
monday faster come..
faster go to sch..
dun wan holidays!
lols..
i sound pervertic wanting to go to sch so much
nort tat i like to study
burt i jux want to hang out
instead of coping at home
burt later i going out larrs.
hahas
=x

WAHAHAS!!!!!!
i today very happy!
i now super super super happy!!!
super super super high!!!!
huh?
why?
cux i finally noe monkey's name lers!
burt i still have to call him monkey here to keep it confidential
=x
yay!!
thanks wenwen!!for helping me find out!!
u're the best!!!
MUACKS!!!
MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS!!!!!!!!
and heard from wenwen he's nort attached.
burt today i saw him wearing a ring lehs.
normally guys seldom wear ring de leh
unless is couple ring.
(T~T)
hope he's reali nort attached barhs..
=)

burt today two tragic things happened.

first tragedy:
early in the morning i go sch
to the canteen (cux he's there)
den when he saw me he was looking at me lars.
den i was feeling weird y he look at me lidat.
burt i tort nth much of it lors.
den after sitting down for a while,
alvin suddenly ask me in chinese
"why u ask ta (her) about ta (him) ars?"
den i din catch it at first.
was super gong bout ward he saying
so i said
"huh?"
and gave him the confused look.
den he (even louder tis time)
said
"why u ask ta (her) about ta (him) ars?"
den monkey was sitting at the table beside us onli lars!
i noe ward alvin mean la.
he meant why i ask jacq bout monkey
den i was damn paiseh k.
so i act blur said
"where gort?i duno even noe him"
den gave him the gong look.
den alvin say
"gort ward.catholic high rite?"
WA!
he jux sitting beside can!
ward oso heard liao lars!
so i faster act blur again said
"huh?ward catholic?orhs!aiya.nort him lars.i toking bout anth guy nort him."
den i faster lie down on the table n turn away lars!
so super paiseh k.
(-___-)||
stupid alvin.

second tragedy:
i was going home from guitar today
wid zarifahfah.
den i was very happy lars
cux today saw monkey alort of times.
den i was telling fahfah
"i wonder he go home liao norts leh.."
den i look into the hall,
burt his cca dismissed ler.
so i jux walked along the shelter area lors.
den sudnly i saw a familiar back in front
monkey!!
hahas..
so i very high de told fahfah
"monkey monkey monkey!!"
den i said
"eh..later he tort i stalking him lehs"
(-____-)||
so i suggested we walk fast fast n over take him
den walk past him i saw alvin
so i cheeky cheeky go tease alvin
(i wished i didnt)
i tapped him and said
"jacq jacq!going home ars?hahas.."
den he say
"ya lo.."
den i wanted to walk away.
burt i heard alvin say behind me
"eh..! cat high!cat high!"
...
....
......
........!!!
my first reaction was:
walk away fast fast!!!!
burt as i was walking away so fast fahfah had to run after me,
i still can hear alvin saying
"cat high cat high!"
DIAOS!!!
i wished i cld bury my head into the ground k!!
idiot alvin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(T~T)

today went orchard wid my darlings!
we ended sch at 12.30,
so me ahzai tingting n jiajia went gaigai
we went to cineleisure first
den me n ahzai went to eat yoshi
n jiajia n ting went to eat BK
cux tingting la
so troublesome
diedie oso wan to eat BK
(-___-)||
den heard from jiajia ting say cheesesticks is hashbrowns
diaos!
den after tat we walked arnd cine
went to heeren
and walked to far east
very far wors.
burt quite a fun day.
after tat ahzai go meet her baby
and me jiajia n ting went to see bra.
lols!
after tat we went home lor.
quite tired actuali
cux go home still mux do tat stupid chinese essay.
damn!

heyo!!
im here to blog again!
abit addicted to blogging lately.
gosh so tired la.
today had a great guitar prac^^
im a slow learner duh
burt i think i made improvements today
burt i very scared of summer sia.
historia still ok.
sigh.
the sound test is onli 13days away.
HOW??!!!
i very scared i cant learn it in time.
(T~T)

today so paiseh.
kena "listed" in the class diary by anna
cux i pronounced a word wrongly.
so stupid!!
the class diary used to be "zarifah's joke book"
now gort my name liao.
SOBS!!!
i became one of the jokes of the day.
oh man~
signed up for TEC wid my sisters today
hope we get in!
it wld be fun duh
and we'll get to write smth in our SGC
if nort think it will be empty.
lols!

very sian today in sch
cux ah zai never come to sch today.
miss her.
=(
nobody let me hug
den i hug tingting burt she very tiny sia
so i hugged zarifah.
hahas!
hope zaizai comes tmr.
looking forward to see tis happy-go-lucky girl.
and oh ya!
i saw tat catholic high guy today again.
hahas..
he's nort good looking lars.
jux tort he's very the-boy-next-door
so he's quite cute.
guai guai type.
i wan faster go to sch again!
den can see my frens n him!
hahas=)
eye-candy~~~
x)

damn.
im feeling so super happy today.
duno y so high oso.
jux keep on feel like singing
"IT'S ALWAYS SUNSHINE AFTER THE RAIN!!"
hahas..
i noe i sound idiotic.
burt hey the world rocks today!
=)
life's beautiful duh.
im changing my blogskin soon,
when i have the time,
to smth more sunshine ^^

ytd timmy msged me.
dorts.
like~
ward the hell???!
duno ward he thinking.
dun wish to waste time guessing too.
hahas.
wan go out!!
u urself say de har.
better rmbr.
*bish*

alrights my mood was abit affected.
burt ok la i wasnt sad
jux pissed.
cux my fren's gf
tort my fren likes me
n quarrelled wid him.
wth.
den like it sucks dude.
never in my lifetime i wld ever like him.
diaos.
n like wtf
jux a sms onli.
my fren onli ask me ward he shld buy for his gf for vday
den she angry liaos.
WTF
some childish immature girl.
drag me into her excuse.
f***
come on la im jux an outsider
ur relationship gort flaws ur prob
dun drag me in.
childish.
if u reali wan clarify come tok to me la.
dun come n say me lidat k.
u urself cold still blame others?
idiot.

oh man..
im so temperamental tat i cant even take it myself.
i reali cannort tahan myself.
maybe cux i still cant get used to the life without him barhs.
used to feel very cosy n warm
cux i noe there's a him
burt now
im like a kite
with the strings brokened.
i have my freedom
which is great
burt i feel lost
now tat im freed.
so ironic.

burt reali
i have to say im happier than before
onli..
nort used to it.
burt i will.
it's jux a matter of time =)

today i went shopping
bought tons of things duh.
bought 2 sets of clothes
and a new maybeline XXL mascara
to replace my Loreal.
yay!
always wanted to try maybeline XXL
cux i heard tat it's amazingly good.
saw alvin's classmate at today
tat catholic high guy.
he din see me i guess.
wonder ward's his name?
(o.O)
k la
gtg practice my guitar now!
=)

getting emo again.
(-____-)||
i feel like some idiot sia
jux now so super high n happy
now so low n sian.
i wan go out gai gai walkwalk!!!
suck coping up at home.
and
i hope he replies me!!
is he upset at me or ward?
wei!!!
ward's wrong wid u sia!!!
u promised to go out wid me after my common test de!!
going back on ur words!!!!
huai ren huai ren huai ren.
pian ren pian ren pian ren!!!
sobs!

wahahas!!!!
so happy today!!
common test's over finally ^^

i've been dreaming of him for the past three nights.
one of them was us at vivo
and it was smth tat reali happened before
the second i cant reali rmbr
jux rmbr he was hugging me
and the one last night
we were jux sitting there,
and both of us were very quiet
in the end
i saw my fren
and walked away
and he walked away too.
maybe the dreams are telling me our ending.
burt when i woke up
i didnt felt anything
maybe i reali let go lers.
and im happy actuali
to have such happy n sweet memories wid me
these memories i will always rmbr
and keep it close to my heart.

today after our last paper
me wenwen tingz jiajia zarifah n anna went ps walk walk
while waiting for pasta to open
we went carrefour and watched the vcds n dvds
den we four chinese girls was stucked to the show hua yang shao nian shao nu
tat wu zun n ella show
hahas..
den we went to eat at pasta mania
so long never eat lers!
den it was very fun
cux zarifah was keeping us entertained wid her comedy show
i practically laughed until i have stomach cramps.
thanks zarifah for keeping us entertained.
lols!
after tat we walked arnd
went yamaha
den wenwen practically stuck to the keyboard
lols..
burt she played reali nice lars
can see tat she reali liked music alort.
after tat went spotlight and a jap shop(forget name liaos = =)
i love tat jap shop!
alort of stuff i like de
esp the junk food and alort of cute stuff
it was a great day duh.
been laughing since i gort to school
(except for the test and hist lecture of cux)

``there's always sunshine after the rain!!!``
(^o^)/~~

my life is so colourful
im so glad i have great frens
=)
well
i guess i still have to say sorry to u
(if u still bother to come n read)
sincerely
from the bottom of my heart
sorry.
i knew ur character
yet i still did the wrong things
and again n again
betrayed ur trust.
i knew ur character
i know u dislike me being lidat
yet i still chose to be unreasonable towards u.
i noe u wun forgive me for ward i've done
i noe u wun
based on ur character.
maybe u wun even see tis,
becux u wun bother reading my blog
ever again.
still..
im sorry.
u tried to give in to me
burt i never realised
i was too selfish.
im at fault.
sorry.
i caused our relationship to fail.
sigh.
sorry.
althou i noe
no matter how many times i say sorry
u wun bother anymore.
burt..
pls forget me ok?
i rather u forget me.
i dun wan u to think of me
and den realise
"hey,i placed my love on her wrongly"
and be upset bout ward i done to u.
jux
forget me.
and pls stay happy
and xinfu.
i'll leave u alone
and wun bother u anymore.
once again.
sorry.

i feel so horrible.
i keep telling myself to smile
and tat im reali happier leaving him.
burt i cant help being painful.
especially after recieving tat sms from him tis morning.
i wasnt so painful before i saw tat sms.
burt now,
my heart is like bleeding profusely.
why?
i've left you so jux leave me alone.
why still come and step on my heart?

tis was how our conversation goes:

him:im so sorry for partially causing tis relationship to fail..to tell u the truth..before u left for HK i was already trying to woo back my ex..

me:we've already broken up.ward's the point of telling me tis nw?trying to hurt me further?if tat's the case,im sorry to tell u u've failed.ever since i decided to break i haven dropped a single tear since den.i've wasted too much tears on u,im nort so silly anymore.if u're trying to prove tat it was u who actuali dumped me,n nort me who wanted the breakup,i can only say u're very petty and childish.anyway i still have to thank u.aftrall we were once happy together.

him:no..i am really apologetic for not giving my 100% to u n it's my fault or else the relationship wld have stayed..and can u nort be so petty to think tat way?lol..u wid me so long ler u think i care who dump who?

me:it's useless to say sorry huh?if break ler den noe how to say sorry,in e first place u shldnt have done tat.well take it as im petty barhs.since u dun love me anymore y shld u still bother to come and apologise?u're free to do anything u wan..jio any girls u like..without me hindering now..and i have to tell u.althou we were together for almost 10mnths,i still cant figure ur thoughts,to me u're still like a stranger who nvr opened ur heart to me..

him:wa..u reali very wad leh..please please dun reply anymore cux i dun wan to hear anymore shit..

me:alright..i admit i was too harsh..sorry.put urself in my shoes u'll understan how i feel.burt my point is,it's reali useless to say all these things isnt it?

him:if i was in ur shoes i wld have been there when i was in need. Where were you?

me:i've to say im at fault too,for nort noticing it when u needed me.burt wld u say u were always there for me too?

him:i tried all the time,didnt i?

me:i tried too.k..relax..u think carefully,have u told me before ur xin shi?or when u were unhappy have u told me before?

him:if i told u i needed help and u werent there..are u even worth me telling u my feelings?i played so many matches too..when were u ever there?or maybe once tat if zarifah stay then i stay shit..or was it siokwen?

me:k.tell me.ward's ur intention of smsing me?if u reali wan to tok things over,i suggest we do it face to face.if nort,we broke up ler,den let bygones be bygones.

him:what's my intention?wah still gort motive one ah?cause u said on friday tat u still like me and i felt bad tat i didnt return the love you deserved..ok?tat was my evil plot..

me:my meaning of intention is whether u wan tok things out or jux here to say sorry.pls dun misunderstand.

him:ok sorry..to say sorry..

ok.it was smth lidat.
wld someone pls pls pls pls understan how i felt?
it was like stabbing my heart
den pouring salt
and pepper
and acid
over it again and again.
and then stepping on it cruelly.
i was alright originally.
reali.
althou ytd i was quite painful
burt timmy was on the phone wid me the whole day
so i felt better.
burt tis morning
the moment i opened my eyes
i saw his first sms.
why r u doing tis to me?
ever since the sms-es
my mood had been changing like the weather.
when i tok to my mum
i was smiling
when im nort
i feel like crying.
a moment im happy
a moment im sad
im going crazy soon.
when forrest called me,
i was quite glad to find tat someone still bothers.
when timmy msged me,
to say tat he has a surprise for me
i was touched.
at least they made me feel tat im nort all alone.
thanks zarifah..
for tat sms too..
i even kept having tis stupid idea to cut myself
jux like ward i did in the past when i broke up wid feng.
becux
when u are reali pain to the extreme
u wun feel pain anymore.
burt i kept telling myself NO.
so dun worry
i didnt hurt myself in anyway.
burt im reali sad.
so sad i couldnt do anything.
and i couldnt call timmy now..
sorry timmy
for using u as my float.
burt if without u i think i wld reali drown.
am i reali very silly?
i noe tat he's a bad guy,
yet i still cant help loving him.
i still love him,yes i do.
i will nvr forget him singing to me guang liang's "di yi ci (first time)"
i will nvr forget him telling me "baby i love u so much..i wan to be wid u forever."
i will nvr forget when i ask him "baby do u love me?"
he sang "love u love u yes i love u,ni ting jian ler marh(can u hear it)?"
i will nvr forget
when i sang rainie yang's "li xiang qing ren(dream lover)" to him
how tightly he hugged me and how long we kissed.
my god.
ward am i doin again
thinking bout the past again.
stop.
stop thinking!!!
i promised myself nort to think already
burt why?
why r those memories still flashing in front of me?
ok.
i lost.
im crying again.
since the breakup i havent dropped a single tear.
burt im now crying.
it sucks.
timmy where r u now..
i reali need someone..

i broke up wid him..
sigh..
it's this the right choice?
i duno..
maybe i'll be happier.
so many things to say
such a complex feeling
it hurts.

i miss you..

im back guys!
touched down in singapore at arnd 12.46am last night
reached home at arnd 1.30am
and slept at 3am!!!
gosh.
tis whole month i've been having fun
and sleeping nort earlier den 12am every day.
i love hong kong!!!!!!!!
*muacks muacks muacks muacks*
it's nort very cold there actuali.
temperature ranging arnd 14-20degrees.
burt the few days when it's raining
it's 8degrees.
the air there is super dry
plus sleeping late,
my face condition is nort very good
the skin was super dry
almost peeling
burt
thanks to the big load of cosmetics i brought along
(especially a big thanks to my toner and moisterizer)
my face is alright =)
except for panda eyes.
(-_______-)||
alright now tat im back
it's time for war.
(T~T)
going to chiong finish all the homewrk
by tis week.
sigh.
fun's over!
zzz...

i love hong kong!!!!!!!!!!!
dun wan study
(><)
haven do finish hmwrk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DIE LER
(x.X)

do u miss me
or nort?

hihi!!!
im blogging again after slacking for so long.
yeaps im now in HK!
it's nort very cold here eh.
23degrees.
(-_______-)||
dec liao still so warm wors.
anyway
the air here is very dry.
my eyes hurt
(esp cux im oso wearing contacts)'
and my lips are cracking.
zzz
at night sleep
the throat like going to tear
cux beri beri beri dry.
the food rocks!!
going for steamboat tonight.
*drools*
yup quite fun
burt this morning was reading hist lect book
*pukess*
read liao a few pages bei ta han liao
den go watch teevee
lols
die ler lars.
haven do hist hmwrk
maths oso halfway done.
think can prepare to chiong until die when i get back lers.
(T~T)

can i say break up?
im feeling terrible
yet i dun have the courage
and i dun bear to break up wid u
cux i love u
can someone tell me ward to do?
why is this happening?
why have we came to this?
someone pls save me
my heart is broken
my heart is almost dying.

today chat wid forest ne
thou he never say much
burt it was truly enlightning
lols.
forest read tis dun float into sky.
burt reali..
after hearing ward forest said
i never realised tat dar was lidat lo..
hms..
maybe i do noe in my heart,
burt everytime gort probs i will think of the worst.
actuali dar's jux like the crowned prince..
nort good at expressing his feelings
and it's jux his character. jux him.
so..
i have to accept it since i love him barhs.
i will try..
i noe it's hard burt i will..

tmr is his birthday
i will always rmbr bcux it's only a day before mine
so very difficult to forget la
it's always him tat can make me laugh
and cheer me up.
i will never feel sad when im wid him.
burt he's jux history,
i noe,
and i have no feelings for him anymore.
still,
im glad to have met him-
somemore who can always cheer me up when im sad
share my happiness
and never make me cry.
such a perfect guy in my heart.

why is this happening again?
am i reali so stupid,
always making u unhappy?
tell me ward to do to be ur ideal girl.
am i jux ur teddy bear?
when u happy hug me
when u r nort kick me away
do u noe treating me lidat makes me very sad?
am i ur gf or nort?
can u stop breaking my heart?
can u stop making me sad?
can you stop making me cry?
can you???
i dun hate u,u noe de
i always think too much?
i think is u too insensitive barhs.
y r u always giving me attitude?
im nort jux ur any fren.
if u cant treat me well,
at least stop breaking my heart!
im sorry if u r reading tis
im nort scolding u
burt im reali very upset.
how can u treat someone who loves u,
and someone whom u love tis way??!
u make me question myself
"am i reali a good gf or nort?"
"am i reali tat bad?"
pls
im begging u
dun push me away anymore can?
everytime when i feel tat we getting nearer
everytime when i feel very blissful
den quarrel
over STUPID SMALL things!
i hate it.
i hate it when u treat me lidat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

5 MORE DAYS AND SUCKY PW IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

counting down..
wahahas..



and ya
i love my hubby.
muacks. ^^

in the beginning
everything is like a fairytale.
perfect
and almost even the smallest things make u happy.
of cux
small things still make me happy
a little smile
even if jux a sec of eye contact
can make my day.
burt..
as we move on..
things will get to settle down..
things will get simple
and nort as exciting anymore
burt tat's ward love is like.
yups..
i still love u more den anything
u r still my everything.
burt little conflicts occur
every now n then.
making me n u upset
unhappy
sometimes breaking my heart.
burt still.
i will nort leave u.
bcux i love you alort alort alort.
always.

long time never blog
i come here onli to say one thing.
project work sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Damn
Idiot
Nabe
Er xin
Shit
Hum
Stupid
U...cant think of any vulgarities lols
Cheebye
Kanasai
Sucks to the core!!!!!!!

~select all n read the first word of every line~

-stolen from Si Hui's blog-

Message: 10th Grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me.
She was my so-called "best friend".
I stared at her long, silky hair.
I wished she were mine,
but she didn't notice me like that.
And I knew it.
After class she walked up to me
and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before,
and I handed them to her.
She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I wanted to tell her.
I wanted her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her,
but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why.


11th Grade
The phone rang.
It was her on the other end.
She was in tears,
mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart.
She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone,
so I did.
As I sat next to her on the sofa,
I stared at her soft eyes,
wishing she was mine.
After 2 hours,
a Drew Barrymore movie,
and three bags of chips,
she decided to go to sleep.
She looked at me,
said "thanks,"
and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her.
I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her,
but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why.


12th Grade
The day before prom she walked to my locker.
"My date is sick," she said. He's not going to go.
Well, I didn't have a date
and in 7th grade we made a promise
that if neither of us had dates
we would go together just as "best friends,"
so we did.


Prom night
after everything was over I was standing at her front door step.
I stared at her.
She smiled at me
and stared at me with her crystal eyes.
I want her to be mine,
but she doesn't think of me like that,
and I know it.
Then she said, "I had the best time,thanks!"
and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her.
I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her,
but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why...


Graduation Day
A day passed.
A week passed.
A month passed.
Before I could blink,
it was graduation day.
I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma.
I wanted her to be mine,
but she didn't notice me like that,
and I knew it.
Before everyone went home,
she came to me in her smock and hat,
and she cried as I hugged her.
Then,
she lifted her head from my shoulder and said,
"You're my best friend, thanks!"
and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her.
I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her,
but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why…


A Few Years Later
Now, I sit in the pews of the church.
She is gettin married, now.
I watched her say, "I do"
and drive off to her new life,
married to another man.
I wanted her to be mine but she didn't see me like that,
and I knew it.
But before she drove away,
she came to me and said,
"You came!"
She said, "thanks!"
and kissed me on the cheek.
I want to tell her.
I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her,
but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why...


Funeral
Yrs passed,
and I looked down at the coffin of the girl
who used to be my "best friend."
At the service
they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years.
This is what it read:
I stare at him wishing he were mine.
But he doesn't notice me like that,
and I know it.
I want to tell him.
I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love him,
but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
I wish he would tell me he loved me…
i wish I did too…
i thought to myself,
and I cried.

long time since i blogged..
dun blame me cux school's busy.
hahas..
i noe tat's an excuse thou.
jux come here to pour out my torts.
i hope life can be a little more colorful.
i may be too greedy
to be asking for more
when i already have a great life.
great frens..
great jc life (althou it's stressful)
great hubby
burt..
i feel tat somehow somethings r wrong.
i duno ward's wrong thou.
it's contradicting.
im thinking too much.
maybe it's jux me getting emo again.
it's always the emo period
tat makes me think a lot.
stupid me?
thinking of reali leaving singapore immediately.
leaving my frens n evrything
and leaving hubby.
burt i noe i wun bear to.
cux i'll cry like crazy if i do tat.
i'll imagine
ward if hubby left me?
my world will collapse barhs.
burt life have to go on.
ward if my frens left me?
ward if my parents left me?
ward if evryone left me?
i duno.
i think i'll jux curl up n die.
last night at my gran's house
i suddenly felt very scared
and very sad.
im so scared one saturday i wun have to go her house anymore.
cux she's no longer there.
when i think bout tis
i feel like crying.
life's short.
and being human sucks.
next life i wan to be a cat.
den i can laze arnd all day
and all i have to worry bout is food n shelter.
hubby ?
can i jux tell u i love u ?
i dun wan to let go of evrything
burt im tired
do u noe tat ?

make up post for friday, 28th July 2006

i quarelled wid baobao..
actuali is over some stupid thing lor..
i jux said smth bout him..
den he angry ler..
burt i was onli joking marhs..
i din noe he'll take it so seriously
den it's like
the bus came
he jux said bye.
den i tort he din mean it
so board the bus lor..
in the end he reali never follow..
and i was so shocked la..
den i call him
he picked up
burt sound like it was none of his business
den i never tok
so he jux keep asking me "zuo shen me"
and i jux kept quiet.
den he was like
"hello?"
den i jux say "ward"
burt never tok after tat..
den guess he sensed tat i was reali upset
so he said "sorry"
den i jux said
"how can u lidat lor.."
i reali din noe ward to say..
den he said sorry again..
den i jux cried..
burt he duno..
den he asked me
"so ward now?where r u now i go look for u"
burt he din sound sincere ok.
he reali din.
so i gort pissed and just said
"suan ler u go home barhs"
and guess ward?
he say "ok byebye" and hung up.
i was so sad la!
den jux cried n cried.
den he sms me
"baby..sorry k?"
den i tort..i dun wan to quarrel
i dun wan to lose him..
so i replied
"can we meet?i still wan to see u.."
den he said ok
den we met at zarifah's house tat bus stop..
it took him arnd 15min to reach
n when he came
my tears dried ler..
den he sat down
n hugged me..
i din noe ward to say..
so the both of us jux sat there quietly..
den he softly said
"sorry.."
den duno y..
my tears jux rolled down..
at first he din noe..
burt i was very quiet so he lowered his head to look at me..
den guess he was shocked..
den he kan cheong liao
jiu ask me
"baby ward happened?why u cry?"
still gort why u tell me la
still gort why i will cry
idiot.
den he wiped my tears..
n hugged me..
burt he was at a loss n din noe ward to do..
den he took my hand
n put it against his lips..
for tat moment
my heart was aching
i reali love him alort..
den the bus came
n we board
after we sat down
it was all quiet again.
den he hug me n said
"sorry baby..dun angry ler k?我答应你我以后再也不会对下你一个人了(i promise u i wun leave u alone lidat again)"
den he hugged me reali tightly n said
"i reali love u alort.."
sigh..
i love u too..
burt dun u understan?
it was very heartbreaking when u jux walked away like tat.
promise me u wun dun do it again k?
i still love u de..
jux dun abandon me like tat..
*muacks*
yong yuan ai ni..

tis reali sucks.
alright i have to say
im living a happie life
having a great hubby
having great fun
with my great frens.
burt i reali cant stand it.
when i saw meow's tagger
i was so damn upset n pissed.
it reminded me
tat in tis world
suckers do exist.
come on suckers
leave my fren alone can?
she's feeling horrible enough.
i can understan how she feel
cux i went thru tis once.
meow's my best sister
she's very vulnerable too.
it reali hurts me to see her so upset.
afterall
she was once my classmate
my good sister
n she'll always be.
so suckers.
mind ur own business n leave her alone.

heya~!
today after school stayed back to support my baby's match
he lost 1-0..
sigh..
can see tat he's very upset n disappointed..
wanted to muack muack him to make him happier
burt..
he was totally perspiring like crazy after the match
(-_____-)||
onli can muack him in my heart lo
hahas..
baby dun upset kkies?
最爱你了。
u're the most shuai when u play soccer.
好帅啊~!!!
=)
it doesnt matter whether u win or lose.
cux to me,
cux in my heart,
u're forever the best.
对我来说，你永远是最好的。
知道吗？
宝宝！
我爱你！！ (^ ^)

hehes..
ytd early in the morning go RJC..
for some lecture on xue shan fei hu..
after tat went J8 wid ting they all and ate at mos..
den he came to fetch me..
and we went ps to watch pirates of the carribean..
he wanted to go ps de..
evrytime watch movie he want to go ps
cux he say the seats de arm rest can lift up.
lols..
ah pek..
den we went to ps..
to see tat all the tickets for tat show was sold out.
(-________-)||
gek ar~!!
den dun have good timing for the other shows tat i wan watch
so i suggested going cine and see gort tickets nort.
so we walked all... the way to cine
and bought tickets for "Just My Luck"
den i chose the seats J3 n J4
thinking tat it was the last row..
den he ask me
"Row J not the last row mehs?"
den i replied
"PS the last row is J so should be la.."
reali ward
where gort pple put Row A as last row de?
in the end..
Row A was reali the last row.
and we ended up sitting at the first row.
(-_________-)||
darn it..
so paiseh la..
den stupid ah pek keep laughing at me..
grr..
he kept teasing me until we part.
*ar bish*
burt..
i did had a happy date
=)
*muacks*
missing u baby..

today
a very sucky thing happened.
a very very very sucky teacher
scolded ting for some sucky reason.
@#!!*&$%`$#%@$!!!!!!!!!
i reali hate tat teacher
ward a hypocrite.
used all the vulgarities i could use on him.
sigh~
it made me rmbr the good teachers in my life.
ms khai..
mr kwek..
ah kay..
miss them lorts.
today i finali learnt how to play qing tian using my beloved guitar ler!!
=)
k la actuali nth much to post
feeling abit pissed off now..
by a good guy fren
burt i wun wan to say name
n ward happened.
now i just wan to think bout tmr
n look forward to seeing my xiang gong
kekex..

alrights..
just now eddy told me wei's phone gort stolen..
den he fell sick so din go school today..
*prays*
i hope he's okie..
burt at least now i noe he's fine..
and at least i noe ward happened..
hais..
ed gave me his hse no..
burt..
let him rest barhs..
i dun wan chao ta xiu xi..
*baby i reali love u*
*muacks*
*prays tat he gets well soon..*

today he din come to school..
actuali..
im more worried bout him den sad..
and more sad den angry..
it's okie
no matter ward i wun be angry at u..
can u pls let me noe ur whereabouts?
im reali very worried.
qin ling called ur hp..
and it was off..
did u lost ur phone?
ward on earth happened?
pls..
someone tell me ward happened hao marhs?
im very very very very very worried..
im very very very very very scared smth happened to him..
im scared he fell sick or smth..
i just wan to noe how r u..
it's a horrible feeling to wait for u to contact me
like im checking my phone every now n then
afraid tat i'll miss ur call or sms..
im wishing reali reali hard tat u'll be in sch tmr
so at least i noe u're okie
im reali scared..
i duno who to go to..

i feel very depressed.
ya it's him.
burt i dun noe the exact reason.
im very confused now
and i dun even noe ward im toking about.
i jux noe i keep wanting to cry
and i cant control it.
hao fan.
tis is reali bad.
i want to noe ward's wrong.
4 days ler.
do u noe tat 4days had passed?
and tis 4days are like hell to me?
time is passing real slow..
torturing me evry min n evry sec..
i hope it's just me
burt is it?
maybe tis my retribution.
maybe tis my retribution for ward i did in the past.
n i deserved it.
for hurting him so much
now it's my turn to get hurt
and experience the pain he experienced.
now i understand..
it is reali very painful.
hao tong hao tong
tong dao hao xiang yao si diao ler.
i cant keep myself concentrated on anything
i cant sleep
and i have no appetite.
i dun wan to tok to anyone..
like..
just let me be alone k?
let my thoughts run wild for all it want
let me cope up and be ignored
let the tears flow till it dries up
althou it wun.
meowmeow..
is as depressed..
n she dun wan to tok about it..
how i wished she's here
n we can hug each other n cry like we used to
i reali missed the days i had wid her
i reali missed the days i had wid et
life is so colorful wid them arnd
who cares bout anything?
i had them and tat alone is enough.
burt
now i feel as if im falling
without them to grab me
i reali need u guys..
burt meow is unable to listen to me now
just like im unable to listen to her.
we're both feeling miserable
n i understan.
so i leave her alone
n leave myself alone barhs.
the wound will heal by itself
right?

last night..
i came to know tat a girl n a boy had broken up..
they had been together for almost 5yrs..
yet..
sigh..
it made me feel tat love is so vulnerable
5years..
shuo fang jiu fang..
and just ended like tat
what's more when me n him 5months oso dun have.
why cant love last forever?
why do i always feel so insecure wid him?
nort tat i dun trust him..
burt his sudden cold sudden hot attitude
sometimes makes me feel afraid.
im scared one day
when i tort it's just him being cold again
den waiting for him to rmbr me
burt he'll just never come back.
no matter how long i wait.
yupps..
i noe im a paranoid.
burt i just cant help it.
and i cant tell him
cux i dun wan him to think tat im just being ridiculous
and getting worried over some stupid things.
im very happy wid him
reali.
when he's nice
he's REEALI~ nice.
and i love to lie in his arms
and put my head on his chest
he's xiang xiang de
maybe it's the soap he uses.
and it makes me feel so at ease.
when im tired
im so glad to have him to hug me tightly.
burt how long can this last?
how much i want to be wid him forever
i noe we'll end one day.
after the a'levels
i will have to make a choice.
stay?or leave?
my future?or him?
can tat day never come?
*i cant bear to let go*

[-x-] to the girl im toking about..
sorry to put your story in here..
burt i reali feel very upset after knowing it..
for u..
for ur him..
n for myself..
however..
dun worry too much
n dun get too sad..
cux i'll always be ur good sister
and support u no matter ward ur decision is.
rmbr..
im always here for u.

-zhu ni xing fu-

*hugs`*

doin EOM halfway come blog..
no..
should say haven even started.
SIAN~~
i reali hate PW duh..
(>.<)o
sigh..
i dun wan u after promos go poly leh.
den canort see u ler.
why u canort understand leh?
burt i dun wan force u study..
burt..
i reali scared u canort make it.
hais..

(x.X)
die ler lar..
i just finished the maths quiz..
n gort 5/10..
den wei tell me gort count marks..
zen me ban???!!
i still anyhow anyhow do..
tort MCQ so just close eyes tikam..
sobs sobs..

today early early go school
for the hist mock test..
zZz..
very early wake up..
den after tat go heartland have lunch
wid jiamin..
we go thai express..
first time go try it..
eh..
nort bad lars..
after tat wei came to look for me..
and euguene acc him..
after tat me n wei go watch silent hill..
gross lar..
burt nort very scarey actuali..
onli very er xin..
den funny lor..
he saw his fren (girl)
den the girl was wid her bf..
so tis kpo kia say
"go see go see"
den drag me stalk them..
lols..
burt a while onli lar..
den he caught flu..
keep sneezing n sniffing away..
i see him so xin ku so ask him
"u wan go home rest norts?dun need send me home.."
burt he insist..
so..
i asked him
"last night never cover blanket is it?"
he think for very very very long.
den reply
"hehe..last night sleep never wear shirt."
(-______-)||
last night so cold lar~!!
i was shivering in my blanket
den he never wear shirt~!
wun fall sick den weird ~!
den u noe his reason for nort wearing shirt?
very simple.
one word only.
the reason is..
L-A-Z-Y.
(-_______-)|||||
still dare laugh~!
take care of urself ars~!!!
(>.<)

ytd hao sian ar..
8am - 10am history,
10.30am - 12.30pm econs,
den 2pm - 5pm GP~!!
ward la..
holidays even worse den school days.
(>.<)
burt happie happie
cux he suggested seeing me home.
kekex..
(^-^)
he promised me twins' latest album..
burt monday go buy den no stock..
sobs..
den ytd while waiting for my lesson to end,
he went far east wid his frens..
den i was thinking horhs..
to go n meet him den buy the album..
cux heeren HMV confirm gort de..
burt was thinking..
HMV more expensive de neh..
so never ask to go wid him lo..
den..
after lesson i waited for him at kovan
was thinking bout stuff marhs..
so he was behind me i oso duno..
he sneaked up behind me n gave me a scare lo.
(-______-)||
xia si la.
den he saw me home..
den he told me..

"today i go heeren HMV leh..
den i saw twins de lastest album.."

den i din think of anything much lo..
so i said

"huh?oh..k lo..HMV normally new stock come faster de marhs.."

den he said

"ya lo..burt i never buy neh.."

when he say lidat of cux i noe he gort buy la
(-_____-)||
ben dan..
want give surprise oso so obvious.
burt i act stupid la,
so i say..

"orhs..nvm lor..free den buy.."

den he laughed..

"gort la..gort buy la..hahas.."

den he took out the album..
lols..
thou he's acting sucks..
burt im still very happy la..
hahas..

- make up post for June 8 2006, Thursday -

Today met up wid fangyu n meowmeow
to celebrate fangyu's belated birthday..
after my lesson i met them at ps,
den we watched the omen..
after tat we went cine
meow wanted to punch earhole,
n i pei her lo..
punched my 2nd 3rd on the left..
den he was angry wors..
tat i punched ler den tell him..
den we sort of quarrelled..
in the end din meet him..
quarrel quite long..
sian lor..
burt in the end okay liao,
den he asked me tmr de lecture sit wid him.
den i say okie lor..

- make up post for May 26 2006,Friday -

today performance neh!

*psst*
he came to see me orhs!
on wednesday,
after maths lecture,
he came to me suddenly
and waved the guitar tickets in front of me
omigosh..
u could imagine my reaction barhs?
of cux is surprised until like ward lo
den i kept laughing and smiling
like some idiot.
lols!
i noe im an idiot
burt pple in love r always blinded de marhs
hahas!
last night after guitar prac
i went home n pia history for the whole night
slept for 2hrs ++ onli
zZz..
burt no orhs,
i wasnt moody at all in the morning.
yupps i was tired
burt i was super high.
*smiles*
den
at 2pm lidat
i already very kancheong liao.
actuali nort kancheong bout the performance de
burt he's there ward.
so like super scared i play wrong.
the performance started late,
and the audience came in at around 6+7pm
i was waiting in anticipation
burt i didnt manage to see him.
ya i was abit disappointed,
burt i understand tat he has soccer training,
and it may end late.
so,
although i was disappointed,
i trusted him tat he would definately come.
until it was the JC1s' turn to perform,
i told myself
he's here supporting me
i must do my best.
so it went fine,
burt i din dare to look up
and search for him.
after my turn was over,
i went to the LT again from the back
and try to search for him.
yupps i saw him
=)
and he saw me too
and kept looking at my direction.
lols..
stupid forrester was teasing me bout him the whole day la
(*>.<*)
forrester was like saying
''where's dawei?he coming specially to see u ar..''
''dawei fetching u home ar?woot.....''
now my whole section knows bout him liao.
(-_________-)''
darn.
den fonz was teasing me when i went home too.
grrr..
after the performance..
i met him at heartland
and he pei me for dinner.
and so coincidently,
i went to Mac for dinner,
and chose the table beside forrester.
(-_________-)''''''
so qiao.
and beside forrester
was rueben a grp of soccer boys.
and before tat
we knocked into samuel n anth grp of soccer boys.
duh..
of cux gort teased again..
den after the dinner..
he saw me home..
he wanted spend more time together,
burt i was reali tired.
so he was caring and understanding enough
to ask me to go home n rest.
i noe he missed me alort..
so i was feeling bad
bout letting him wait n pei me so long
den nort being able to pei him.
burt he was so sweet la.
(^^)
darling xie xie ni..
i din expected u to come to the performance,
it was reali a pleasent surprise
and made me feel so loved.
u always do surprising things
and always makes my day.
*muackies*

fri is guitar performance ler..
hms..
so tmr gort practice ar..
den wed oso..
thurs..maybe?
hopefully thurs's free..
tat day's 2 months ler..
wan spend it wid him..
xiang gong wo hao xiang ni..
do u rmbr tat day is our 2mnths?
thou it's nort any impt day
burt i reali hope u can rmbr..
actuali..
being wid u changed my life alort..
it's jux tat i never show it..
deep down..
every thing u do..
every word u say..
makes an impact on me..
when u walk by..
a slightest smile u give to me
will make my day..
i miss you.
do u noe tat?

-x`` song of the day : bad day by Daniel Powter ``x-

hms..
long time never update ler..
so busy nowadays..
have to juggle alort of things..
i feel very tired..
burt i reali love the current life
it's fun..
fell sick ler..
din go school today..
ytd end school at 5.30pm la..
den after school,
xiang gong pei me go see doc..
den alort pple
in the end 9pm+ den reach home..
paiseh neh..
u so tired still ask u pei me go see doc..
and thanks for being so nice to me..
lols..

haix.. so suay kena choosen by pearl.. sobs..

Rules of the game : Post 5 weird and random facts about yourself, then at the end list the names of 5 people who are next in line to do this. Dont forget to leave a comment that says" You are tagged" on their blog and ask them to read yours.

1) i hate bananas. real or fake ones. n of cux, i hate banana in pajamas.

2) i have a room, burt i like to slp in the living room.

3) im afraid of the heat, i love the cold. i love cold so much i dun even want to wear more clothes althou i feel as if im frozen.

4) sometimes im very noisy, sometimes i soo quiet u'll think im upset. actuali, i jux dun feel like toking tat's all.

5) pearl, i lurve my darling too. hahax..

many thanks to pearl anyway,
for asking me to do tis stupid mission.
i haven been blogging for months.
hahax..
here's my excuse to blog tis.

next 5 pple choosen:
...
...
...
...
...
seriously no one.
im nort as que de as u.
lolx~!!

我不想再愛你了。

我真的好累。

-x`` song of da day : [[hei se xi ju]] by *twins* ``x-

...
im worried
im so scared u'll hate me..
or at least
im afraid u'll be angry at me
n ignore me again..
haix..
y am i always doin things tat make u angry?
ur msn nick is:
hate noobs who talk so much
是在講我嗎?
pls dun hate me.
cux..
u noe tis kind of things cant be controlled de.
jux like u like tat ger..
u should be able to understan how i feel.
hopefully..

[[最怕你生氣了]]

-x`` song of da day : [[qing tian]] by jay ``x-

alrights.
originally
i wasnt in a very happie mood.
n y is tat?
i dun wana tok bout it
cux it's nort impt at all.
n i dun wan 2 seem childish.
: )
now im feeling much much btr
after listening to my beloved kenny's songs
(^-^)
n..
tokin to fangyu on msn..
diedie..
nv study
hahax..
jux wana say im missing him.
lidat lo.
u noe rite
he so li hai
sc(chem) gort very good grades
n he was very neat
so the teachers showed all the sc(chem) students his paper leh
woahhhh..
so proud of him..
to think he still played initial-d so much
still study so well orhx???!!
omg..
u r my jiao1 ao4~!
let's study n work hard 2gether k?
den get a 10 n below L1R5
n go jc 2gether~!
(^.<)
n hor
when haf u become so neat huh???
pri6 tat time handwriting still like shit.
lolx..
good lar..
feel like seeing ur handwriting again..
long time liao leh.
mux be very nice ler..

-x`` song of da day : [[diu jia]] by *twins* ``x-

poof~!
im sho tired
went to ecp today
wid ting cat pearl n weeshuin
nort play okie
we went to study at the mac'
good news orhx~!
the school allow the 4md pple
to stay in school after school
to study
until..
9+10pm~!!
yups.
in the night.
and we will be provided wif free transport
to the bus stop outside school
cux our school very dark at night marhx
summore mux walk such a long distance..
and the teacher will cook desserts for us leh~!!
if they have the time lar..
hahax..
so good rite?
special treatment for 4md pple
-ONLY-
yeahx~!!
x)
sho happi bout it
all thanks to the vp n p
: x
hehehe..

-x`` song of da day : [[shou fang kai]] by li sheng jie ``x-

im.so.tired.of.my.life
y study so hard
y mux haf O's
y am i still a child?
i wan 2 grow up.
and get out of the current life im living in.

-x`` song of da day : [[yi ge ren de jing cai]] by elva hsiao ``x-

woot~~
after 1 month n two weeks
i finali saw jean again.
pronounced as "jon" okie.
nort "jin".
okie..
den after school i stayed in class n completed my amaths hw
and i did abit of my SS mind map
den i went to pizza hut wid jinyu n vanvan
they went home first after tat
cux jinyu gort tuition at 4pm
vanvan gort tuition at 8pm
den i waited faw minmin at the tkgs bus stop
she had her chinese oral 2dae.
we toked and took the bus 40 bus.
went to bedok library and slack lo.
hmx..
asked her some "info"
hahax..
u noe ward de lar..
and we went home lo..
okie yar nth much again.
burt missed minmin marhx..
lolx..
(-.-)||
she like to say
"jin ri yi bie,he ri zai jian?"
he ri?
i oso wish to meet up often lar.
i dun wan the frenship to turn sour
like it almost did.
: D
burt didnt lo.

-x`` song of da day : [[don't phunk with my heart.monkey business]] by black eye peas ``x-

after sch 2dae i went to pizza hut
wid olizhu n tingx
after tat
when it was around 3.30pm
olizhu gtg
den me n ting went to bedok library to study
i did my SS mind map
and ting did english TYS..
afta tat we went to NTUC to buy junk food
for us to eat when studying at home de.
den we went home lor.
lolx.
nth interesting happened.
burt i did enjoyed my day wid these 2
so i decided to write out lor.
: D
duno ward's wrong wid hinfan sia
goin offline n online......
(-.-)
think he's having probs wid his comp
hahahahax..
k lar..
im happy now cux im listening to kenny's new song
fen1 shou3 bu4 yao4 tai4 bei1 ai1
分手不要太悲哀
cool huh?
i lurve him mans.
he's soooo shuai~!
*faints*

-x`` song of da day : [[fen shou bu yao tai bei ai]] by kenny*lurve ``x-

i dreamt of u again.
in the dream
i was toking to u on msn too
we were happily chatting,
and u made alort of lame jokes out of our conversation
and i typed
"u very lame lehx..lolx"
and u replied
"hahax..i long time never say joke 2 make u laugh ler hor?"
[[ *sighs* ]]
[[ yar. ]]
[[ it's been a long time since u made me laugh ]]
[[ a long time since u tried to cheer me up. ]]
den in the dream again,
i was toking to u halfway
when my mum called me out.
so i left the comp n the conversation for a while.
when i came back
u were gone.
u left a msg on the msn conversation window.
it was like tat
"er.i gtg for now.."
"u there?"
"im leaving now,ok?but before i leave i wan 2 tell u something."
"i love u.i love everyone beside me.but it's not tat kind of love.
i thank you for loving me for so long, i really appreciate it,
but i hope u will stop waiting for me.im not worth ur time.
dun let me be ur obstacle to ur happiness."
"i can still be ur good fren. : x"
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
is tis ward u wanted to tell me all along?
izit?
in the dream
i cried upon seeing the msg.
in reality
i can cry no more.
it's useless ward.
so long ler
all the tears
im numb.towards u.
i hate to say tis burt
i wish very much to forget u too
however,
it's nort up to me..

-m a y b e.i.w i l l.f o r g e t.u.o n e.d a y.w h e n.w i l l.t a t.d a y.c o m e.?.-

-x`` song of da day : [[chi xin jue dui]] by li sheng jie ``x-

first.
i reali need to give sum1 a big hug.
*huggies minmin*
i know i ought to be pia-ing my hol assignments now
burt i reali need to say something.
like i said in ur bloggie
i did so much bcux i reali treasured u.
out of so many pple
u r still tat best fren.
it's always u tat will be there for me.
yes,
we've lost contact wid each oth
for bout 3yrs?
n u weren't there for me faw 3yrs
n me too lar.
hahax..
so
let's be the best frens again
okie?
throughout tis 3years
i've reali gone thru alort
and they were all bad times
reali bad times.
im so glad to see ya again
and haf u in my life.
u bring the sunshine.
(^-^)
however stormy it is out there.
i will nort be afraid
cux i noe
my sun will always be there waiting for me
n nort to forget
my star.
who huh?
my msn nick.
star = eternal lurve
ward does it mean?
star = hin fan
sun = huimin
the sun will bring me warmth in rainy days
and the star
will light up the darkness of the night.
i've saw both my light of hope.
i n.t h e.b o t h.o f.u.
: )

2dae after chem
i went to meet minmin
to give her her surprise
she said she was touched?
lolx..
okie larx..
i jux wanted to make her happy..
cux thou she never say
i noe she wasnt goin very well wid her frens?
or maybe i was too sensitive la
burt tat's ward i observed..
so~!
im goin to annouce
tat im goin to set up a link page
tat includes the childhood memories
of me
huimin
hinfan
sussana
liwen
wileen
wai kwong
n chin wee
*if i have the time i will blog frequently*
*burt u mux noe it's da O's soon*
i try to make kk?
hope u guys oso contribute
hehehe..
(^.<)

hmx..back from the gathering?
心裏亂亂的..
jux saw my pri sch frens..
they haven changed much??
hahax..
esp tat huimin..
still as siao char bo as eva
lolx..
i went to tkss to look for them marhx.
den the moment huimin saw me
she was like
"omg y u wear until lidat???"
ward did i wear
jeans onli ward
i've tried to be as simple as possible liao k
den after tat i sat down beside huimin
(wid her frens around too)
n huimin said
"hinfan's over there leh"
i turned around to see la
den i saw him
den i paiseh
den i faster look back n say
"okie i saw him.now ward?"
in the end she shouted LOUDLY
"HINFAN~!!EUNICE COME ALREADY LEH~!!FASTER COME OVER LEH~!!"
OH!MY!GOD!!!!
the whole canteen heard it
her frens AND hinfan's fren looked at me n hinny
tian ar.
paiseh paiseh paiseh........
(*>.<*)
obviously hinny ignored
den i was like
"SHUT UP~!!!!"
lolx..
den after tat
huimin's fren left
hinny's frens left too
so huimin called him over
"hey~!hinfan come over lar..4yrs never tok liao leh~!"
so he came over
n tok lor
so paiseh..
den we discuss abit bout where to meet chinwee
n i call liwen..
i din dare to look at him
he din dare to look at me too
burt i tried to act normal n tok 2 him
n looking at him when i tok
burt he din dare to look at me
n when he finally did looked at me
both of us shocked tio n faster look away
i noe i blushed..
den his fren came over
n he suddenly say
"actuali 2dae i gort lessons after sch"
my heart almost dropped out~!
so i turned 2 him n said
"den y u never say earlier??"
i was so afraid he'll pangseh us
den he say
"i jux noe ward..think i go a while la,den pon"
did i heaved a sigh of relief?
no.
cux his face black black de.
hahax..
so i told him
"nvm la,if u've gort things on den we go ourself lor"
burt he said nvm
so we waited for chinwee..
den chinwee onli arrived at 3pm+
sian..
wasted alort of time lor
den we went to call for hinfan
den minmin n fan went to change
den we headed off for ecp
where liwen was waiting
n minmin duno how to go ecp marhx,
so she asked the two boys to lead the way
den i said
"i noe the way.."
burt minmin nudged at me
*hinfan n chinwee were whispering to each oth*
den they say
"okok..walk here walk here"
i din noe the route around their school well marhx
n minmin nv say anything wor
so we jux follow lor
den walkwalkwalk
the boys suddenly made a turn
and made us walk those difficult routes~!!
sian 1/2
i was wearing flipflops leh
den minmin wearing shorts
den we have to cut across some tall growing grass????
(-.-)||
den min was like
"ahhhh~!!!gort red ants~!!very big de~!!"
and i was like
"stupid chinwee n hinfan~!!darn man.."
so
when we finally gort throu the grass to the bus stop
me n minmin were already panting n perspiring all over
n i was having abit of gastric pain
cux i haven eat anything since 9am-3pm+
burt i hanged on larx
den when we alighted from bus 31
minmin was asking
"walk from where huh?i reali duno leh"
den the guys pointed the oppsite direction
the long cut i guess.
so i was abit pissed
cux im already VERY tired
so i say
"i noe the way i'll lead"
burt minmin nudged at me again
she said
"nvm la,let's follow them n see ward they r up to"
burt i was reali tired
so i say
"dunwan"
n i jux pulled her n walked the oth way
the guys were abit shocked i guess
burt they jux followed
during the way
of cux
minmin were very noisy
burt the guys jux ignored
n we reached ecp
n bowl lor
liwen din bowl
burt her stead ray did
n he pro lor
wah lao
first game i lost to minmin
so dui lian
lolx..
den 2nd game i was even wid hinfan,chinwee was the first
me n fan second
minmin last
den evryone was saying
"who n who even huh....???"
(>.~)
den i suggested goin for a walk by the beach
evryone said okie
den i tried to tease liwen
"good arx..dun wori we will let u two be alone de.hahax~!"
in the end i was suaned by ray
"yar..we will let u n hinfan be alone too."
..........
!!!!!!!!!
arghh~!!
burt in the end we din go for a walk
chinwee n hinfan went home
i think is fan's mum dun let him stay out too late
cux he called his mum abit
den liwen n ray left too..
they going shopping i guess
so me n minmin went for a walk ourselves lo
den we tok alort
den went home..
so..
tat's it barhx.
nth special cux i din tok much there
hinfan oso.
hahax...
paiseh marhx..

hahax..
2dae in quite a good mood orhx..
bcux lata i'll be goin ecp..
wid minmin they all..
yeahx..
hmx..gort who go ar?
minmin
me
hinny boi..
liwen
chinwee
hopefully evryone turn up
n hopefully tat chinwee dun pangseh
hahax..
waikwong gort lesson till 5pm wor..
so cant go lorr`
wileen dun seem enthu bout it..
(>.~)
nvm..
den sussana say she nort free..
sho the 8 of us left onli 5 lorr`
burt 5 considered alort liao hor
tat yuen hin fan still say little pple
*he duno how difficult izit for me 2 onli gather FIVE pple*
n he say best is can haf a WHOLE class gathering
well..
yar the more the merrier i noe..
den let's wait for him 2 go n organise lorr`
hahax..
i bet he would..
(^-^)
lata after i come back den i blog barhx
hopefully it turns out well.
*prays hard hard*
(>.<)o

tHe nEw [[kEnNy]]..OMG..nort nice ler..sobs* 

tHe oLd [[kEnNy]].. 

tHe nEw [[bOy'Z]]..(T.T).. 

tHe oLd [[bOy'Z]] 

點解?
點解點解點解???
WHY???!
(T.T)
know ward?
Boy'Z解散了!!!
*sobs*
why must they disband?
okie okie..
there's still Boy'Z..
burt..burt..burt..
kenny's no longer a member of it~!
steven n anth guy call dennis mak
WAaa..
y lidat?
kenny's having a new album on his own
...
i go cry liao ar
...
...
...
...
...
...
n kenny cut his hair short
nort nice de~!!!
nort shuai ler...!
(x.x)
burt i will still support him alwaes de ~!!!
*lurve kenny faweva*

went 2 eat sakae sushi~!!
2dae no remedial aftar sch
sho waited faw fangyu n tingz to fin their geog test
den we went to parkway faw sakae sushi~!
hahax..
y the sudden urge 2 eat sushi?
i anyting de lar..
summore i like jap food marhx..
n i rmbred tat dae tingz said she long time never eat ler
n i jux gort some money faw posting my article on the newspaper
sho treat her lorr`
see i treat her sho well..
wahahax..
den fangyu dun like 2 eat jap food
burt we forced her 2 go~!
muahahahahax!~
paiseh lorr` fangyu..
i beri good fren ler lehx..
help u eat up all the seaweed..
tingz never help u lehx..
hahax..
joking joking..

2dae went marine parade library wid jinyu aftar school 2 sturdee..
hahax..n i finally found all the pieces faw tat dino game
wahahax
: x
abit childish la hahax..
burt sturdee till tired ler marhx..
jiu wan lor
the qns in my heart all along
i finali broughtt it up on mondae
n aftar sum toking
evrything's alright ler
(^.^)
im so glad.
phew..
hahax..
i believe in u,
cux u r a great fren
sho i will agree 2 anyting de.
(^-^)
jux wana tell u tat
hope u r nort troubled by it or anyting
n u dun haf 2 worry bout me de
dunch nid 2 purposely qian jiu wo
(^.^)
glad u dun mind me faw being paranoid or anyting
xie xie ni

aftar school 2dae jux went home lorr`
wid tingz n vanvan
nuffin special
mondaes r alwaes taking up all da time
in the end cant go ourt aftar school
lata going 2 do a.maths TYS sia
guai kia
*pushes specs*
lolx..
haiZz
stress stressed..
4 more weeks 2 mid-yr
waaaaaahhhh~!!!!!
(O.O)

(=.=)zz
shooooo tired..
faw da entire week i've been sleeping soo late sia
study lorr`
ward else.
finally it's saturdae tmr n i can sleep abit more
n finished quite abit of da studying faw da week
last nite was holliible
studying faw c.lit..
cux 2dae gort test aftar school
well..
faw the whole week
i've been sleeping at around 12+am
curses.
sec4 life sux
zZz..