a big H-E-L-L-O to all my frens reading tis
im sorry i havent been updating LOL
now i share update about my very exciting-fun-great-knock-you-over 3 days orientation camp!
(which was 11th - 13th July 2008)

~first day~
i had my stupid checkup done at NHWUC before going to the camp
met zarifah at 8am to take 197 cux i THOUGHT THE CHECKUP'S AT NUH
so in the end we reached NUH at 9.30am to find out WRONG!
it's at yusoff ishak house=.=
so took a taxi cux we duno the way in NUS to yusoff ishak (dots)
and had my checkup until 12.30pm!
ARGH I WAITED AN HOUR AND HALF TO SEE THE DOC
and i CAME OUT IN less than 5minutes!
(-_____-)||
thanks anyway to fahfah & jiajia for waiting so long for me =x

so we went to the central forum
and our OGL kaimin kindly came over to fetch us cux we duno the way to the fass cafetaria
so we proceed to the cafetaria n guess who i saw.
SUSANNA!
ward a surprise we r in the same OG
hahaha!

and then we went for station games and stuff
and had steamboat for dinner!
sadly, our group was one of the last and we only had $50 for steamboat ingredients
(which we have to go clementi NTUC to buy ourselves)
the winning OG had $100.
after the dinner we had heart-to-heart-talk (HTHT according to shiduan) till 2am
then the girls came to my room and we chat slack played some pictionary n slept at 3am.
we slept in temasek hall,
having one room & one bed for each of us woots!
but me n fahfah scared so she came over to sleep in my room.
s n e a k.p e e k s !
our flag~~ :


our og~~ :


station games~~ :


steamboat dinner~ :


~second day~
i thought the first day was tiring enough until we had the photo hunt on the second day.
we literally went from:
NUS - harbourfront - outram - chinatown - clarke - dobhy ghaut - SMU - bugis
almost walking all the time from 12pm till 10pm.
(u can hear our legs cracking)
and we combed the whole of each area.
it was torturous (-_____-)
and we went back to the hall again and showered and stuff,
and assembled again at 11.30pm for some games until 2am.
the best game was "werewolves"
and i swear everyone is going to explode from fatigue already
and yet still have to listen to "analysis-es"
(fah n jiajia shld know ward i mean)
ok tis is bad i shall stop it.

s n e a k.p e e k s !

on our way to vivo~~ :

acting retarded at vivo=.= :


acting retarded at outram=.=:


acting retarded at chinatown=.= (look at zarifah LOL) :


@clarke~ (LOOK AT ZARIFAH'S SLEEPY EYES HAHA) :

acting retarded at dobhy ghaut=.= :

acting retarded near SMU=.= :


~last day~
so we went sentosa tanjong beach
with our legs already breaking from ytd today isnt any better.
the orientation pple went for BBQ @west coast but me, fahfah, jiajia n susanna were reali too tired
furthermore it's easier to go home from harbourfront
so we skipped the BBQ and had dinner at vivo ourselves.
can u believe it we walked DAMN far just for some shower room.
i shouldnt go into details about how we found the showers and how we showered.
ZARIFAH IT'S OUR LITTLE SECRET WHY U POST ON UR BLOG
ROAR!!!!!!!!

s n e a k.p e e k s !

our last breakfast :


cute bearbears @vivo :


waiting for luge ride :


STUPID SKYRIDE (i'll nvr ride it again><) :


the pretty view from skyride (i didnt dare to open my eyes) :


volleyball :


tanjong beach! :


explaining to us how hamburger is played=.= :


are we done yet?? :


run!!!! :


tis is how hamburger is played!=.= :


evil OGLs :


in conclusion
we did have a great time except tat we were reali shagged at the end of it!
pple there were fun too
and the ogls had been very caring n nice.
anyway school's starting soon..
zzz...

okie like alort of things to do sia
slacking for so long now it's finally july alort things to busy
heng tis month no work at all.
very confusing n blur cux alort of dates to rmbr ><

looking forward to orientation. =)

qinqin came to my house today!
ahahaha
it was a quite sudden decision burt still quite nice
we watched bruce almighty and she played with my tarots and oracle book
(seemed to be very engrossed in the oracle too)
and she helped to buy me lunch n bubble tea!
thhanks qinqin! =D
haha it was a cosy time tgr
and i reali like it when i can sit down cosily with my close ones and have a time tgr
ahaha cant wait to see my frens again!
XD

watched kongfu panda today!
it's reali funny
althou i dun reali like watching cartoons burt reali couldnt resist it when i saw the trailer
so today me and baby went to watch it @plaza sing
i have to say, master shifu is reali cute!
just like the mousie in narnia!
XD

and then we went to arcade and spent quite a sum there again
(T~T)
was reali gek cux i STILL cant get the bunny i've been trying to get everytime i go there
GRRR!
burt baby was nice n sweet to give it many tries
to no avail, we still didnt get it.
burt i reali appreciated his efforts =)
and then we played house of dead 4! woohoo my fav!
we managed to get to stage 3 without spending alort leh!
nice nice i wanna play again!

and then we went to minds cafe
and it was my first time there.
very excited about it actuali,
and im reali glad baby suggested bringing me there.
the food was great! especially the brownie!
yumyums!
i will upload our photos when my comp is okie again.
althou it was onli the 2 of us,
it was still fun and i reali liked the ugly doll game haha!
and it's been years since i played board games sia!
and baby taught me how to play game of life again
(wa so long nvr play ler)

haha then we went shopping at plaza sing
and had a great time looking at the stuff with baby
i dun normali shop with guys burt today was nice
we looked at CDs, books, comics and games
haha nort clothes thou.
it's reali a pity i couldnt find the book "A Child Called It"
burt nvm surely will find it one day de.
>=(

and we went cine to take neoprints!
i have to say it was reali funny cux it's been years AGAIN since we took neos
hahaha!
and then everyting was in jap and we cant understand
then the stupid machine was so FAST and somemore it cost us 11bucks on the shots
(-____-)||
we didnt know it had alrdy started taking so the first photo was funny
burt i tried to make the pic nicer by putting funny n (-____-)|| faces on tat photo
in the end tat photo was quite comical n funny haha!
the rest of the pics were reali funny n cute too cux the both of us still blur about ward pose to pose
hahahahahhas!
reali wan to post them here sia
burt.
i will scan it and upload it when -- my stupid n dumb comp is okie again
(-____-)||

and then we took bus 16 home
i realise everytime we take 16 lols..
and baby was reali sweet to accompany me till the bus stop at my house
and take 17 from there home..
the day was full of fun and laughter
and it's always the little things baby do tat warms my heart.
hughugs..


~u're always on my mind..~

-``eunice

--post taken from me n his blog--

just felt better. slightly better.
gave up on tat stupid dumb maple and listening to songs now.

listening to qing tian.
it's been a long, long, long time since i listened to this song.
i just gort reminded of it when i came across my frenster profile.
(which i had nort been visiting for months)
so i clicked on the video clip
and replayed it over and over again.

ward is this weird thing stirring in my heart?

im ANGRY bcux stupid maple is giving me problems AGAIN.
i've been working on it for HOURS since 6.30pm till now it's GOING TO BE 11pm
and STILL it's NORT WORKING.
other maplers and the website n server seems PERFECTLY FINE
so it means it's MY STUPID DUMB COMPUTER'S PROB AGAIN.

someone give me a hammer to hack this dumb comp pls.

ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

been going out for movies ytd and today,
at the same place - marina.

ytd was wid baby and we watched chronicles of narnia: prince caspian
and today watched sex and the city with shushu.
both movies i wasnt reali interested at first,
movies i wldnt think bout watching.
burt they suggested and i agreed,
and hey,
these two movies are reali worth it!
strongly recommend both.

went eating with baby at vivo ytd,
and then realised there isnt anymore seats for narnia n all the movies
cux it's sunday.
so we book the tickets on AXS and went to marina
and were lucky to get two seats at the last row.
it was fully seated at the theatres.
then we went arcade,
as usual LOL
had dinner
and went home.
it was reali sweet seeing him becux i've been missing him so much.
and we had a reali nice time tgr.
well,
it's always happy as long as im with him.
for as long as we've been tgr,
two months plus n still counting,
i can happily tell everyone i know:
i feel happy, elated, delighted, sweet, full of smiles
each and every single day.
i've never been so happy n blissful before.
*hugs*
okie if u wanna know where we went n stuff tgr ytd u can visit our blog.
lols!
(asked him to blog im lazy =p)

okie then today!
met shu n ate at yukiyaki!!!
YUMS.
i've been craving for it SHOOOOO long can!
and we watched sex and the city and shushu is so funny.
LOLS i shall not blog about it lest she'll kill me.
ask me directly ok i will tell u.
LOLS!!!!!!!!!!!!
then we played house of dead 4 (MY FAV!!!!) and pool.
it was anth nice and fun day i had.

here's a peek at our meet up:

FOOD!!!!!!!!!!!:


shu eating:


me eating ( i think i look like jia in this =.= her pose i mean LOL):


US EATING LOL:


shu playing pool:


me playing pool:


alright tat's all folks!
going mapling now tatas!
hahahahahas!

ever thine. ever mine. ever ours.

woots! gort the pics from tingting ler
so everyone! here's a peek at our meet up @amk hub tat day!
=D

tingting's BLACK PEPPER BEEF HOTPLATE drool!:



my PAPER STEAMBOAT drool!:



tingting's greentea (dun ask me i duno y she took tis=.="):



the cute fire is made by some jelly substance leh!:



ikidaimasu!:



our MANGO SORBET! YUMS! i reali recommend tis:



tingting's BIG MOUTH:



and my BIG MOUTH lols:



haha hungry?nehnehneh ni poopoo we get to eat burt u dun!
BLEAHS!
ahahahahahahhaha
DROOL~~~~~~~~~

i duno why.

have been dreaming bout the past lately.
seemed so real.
memories flowed back, feelings so familiar.

i woke up in a daze. confused.
was tat reality?
and then i realised, it was jux a dream.
everything's over.
those are just history.

and sometimes,
the dreams mixed up the past n the present.
confusing me.
tat night.
i woke up confused.
burt i was glad tat even in my dreams,
i made the same decision i would make in reality.
i rmbred crying in my dreams
bcux in exchange for the past,
i was forced to abandon something i treasure so much.

burt well,
past is past.
i will nort turn back anymore
bcux i have a stronger reason now.
a reason i will hold on to.

ahahaha went out with huiting today

met her at amk hub for lunch at ichiban sushi
very nice we eat alort alort ahahahaha fatfat
ahahaha took some photos i upload it after she send me ok
then we went shopping
ahahaha bought maple cash, nail polish and same dress as ting
ahahahaa then i forget my atm pin
(-__________-)
i was still laughing at ting earlier cux she say tat time she forget
then i myself forget soon after when paying for the dress
(-__________-)|||
ahahaha then went arcade play
me n ting played shooting game play until hands ache sia
now arms aching ahahaha
then huiting play until her fingers swollen ahahahahahahahahahaha!
then pass by srjc went i took bus 25 to amk
saw alort srjcian sia.
all studying notes on bus n doin hmwork
reminds me of the times.
=(
then emo ahahaha
burt happy again after playing with tingting ahahaha

contract's finally ending on this fri!

burt fri i'll be taking half day cux it's nana's birthday!
siqi n me are going to surprise her at her workplace =D
miss them lots sia, so long nvr see these nice ex-co ler

and contract's finally ending to allow me to rest.
was toking to zarifah ytd and we were toking bout the changes to sr
so sad.
she said they changed the sch uni, COLLAR PIN and pe tees.
I LOVED THE COLLAR PIN.
it's like , the collar pin's smth so pretty even other schools students like lor.
and we were saying...all these are our memories of the school.
i will never forget how i was wow-ed by the school badge when i first saw it.
it's reali pretty.
like.. we've onli graduated for nort even more than half a year,
SRJC had changed so much
it's like, no longer the SRJC we know,
and definately nort the SRJC in our memories.
where all the sweet n happy memories came from.
reali miss school.

going to moe headquarter later.
argh.
sian.

recently had been visiting the arcade at my workplace with zarifah n dulcia
during lunch and sometimes for a while after work.
hahas!
then ytd
i felt reali bored
then we realise the arcade gort new DOLL MACHINES!
WOOTS!!
so yes of cux, i HAVE TO give it a try =)
so i searched my wallet for $1 ($1 per game)
and i put the FIRST dollar in
RANDOM catch
and i caught THREE dolls at ONCE.
AHAHAHHAHAHAAHA!!!
i kept one for myself, and the other two i gave to zarifah&dulcia

here's the random catch hahas:

(from left, to dulcia, to zarifah, and last doll i kept)

it's the "ugly guinea pig" qinling said.
LOLS!
still it's something -I- caught. HAHAS!
BLEAHS (to qinqin)

and then i kept getting all excited bout it
so after work i went again.
planning to catch the bigger plushie this time.
and then i put ANOTHER dollar into anth machine
and RANDOM catch

and here's ward i've gort:



LOLS.
maybe it's bcux ytd was our one month anni so i was so lucky
hahaha ! =p

and i reali have to INTRODUCE TO EVERYONE
this REALI CUTE CAT AT MY WORKPLACE
TAT I WILL MELT AT EVERYDAY.

my darling maomao's sleeping! SHHHH!


close up shot..aw so cute la!!:


sleep enough ler then eat fullfull =D:



cute lor! haha
see the fur so clean.
CATS ARE -CLEAN- ANIMALS OKIE.
NG QINQIN THEY ARE CLEAN NORT FULL OF SALIVA
HMPH (to qinqin)
BLEAHS! LALALAALLALALLA~

duno why haven reali gort the mood to blog recently.
i guess i keep feeling tat life's monotonous and boring.

went kbox with the girls n dave ytd.
it was nice, i wish everyday could be like tat.
i met the girls at orchard at 11am
(im sorry i was late for half an hour xp)
then we went carls jr @fareast
and went fareast shopshop awhile searching for the shop tat can test vic's secret
burt cldnt find it in the end lols.
and went to meet dave at cine
and went kbox.
the part i reali liked was when everyone gort reali high
it started with qinqin singing jay's qi li xiang
and then gort so high and sang mayday's lian ai-ing & di yi ci
so high la especially the L-O-V-E part.
i swear pple would think we're crazy if they walked past our room.
lols.
then after the singing me n dave had dinner alone,
while the girls went walking
then qin came back to see me home thanks qinqin darling~
and then when it was reaching my stop i was real upset cux i didnt wan to leave the two closest to me.
=(

i reali hate goodbyes.

life's sickening.
or rather, do i even have a life?

im so sick of being controlled.
someday,
i will find a getaway.

after talking to shushu..
i know she's rite...
burt easier said than done ar.
im trying very hard alrdy.
to find happiness in sorrow..
how many pple can actuali achieve tat..?

very tired.
i wish i can have some time for myself.
things had been reali hectic lately.
i duno why im grounded burt still can be so occupied.
this n tat, this n tat.
i have to work,
then like i reach home i have to cook,
then cook ler + shower + eat by the time alrdy 8.30pm.
then i wanna read my deathnote, wan play my ds, wan chat online, wan study my jap, wan sms him.
burt i have to go to bed at 11pm if nort the nxt day i will become the walking dead.
so tat means i onli gort from 8.30pm - 11pm ,
tat is 2.5 hours for my deathnote, ds, msn, jap n sms.
wth.
like ward? spend half an hr on each?? *rolls eyes*
so everyday i end up using tat pathetic 2.5hrs tat reali belong to me msning n smsing him onli.
n then i wan so much to read my deathnote play my ds study my jap burt i couldnt.
ARGH!!!
i wan some time alone ok.
i wan some time away from evrybody so tat i can read n play in peace.
nort tat i dun like pple arnd me
burt i need some quiet time too.
one needs some silence once in a while too.
and then it's like, weekends i dun get any time for myself too la.
last sat early in the morning i go do volunteer work,
then after tat go home bathe n go my gran's house,
then stay until evening,
then go eat dinner at a jap restuarant with my mama
then reach home 9pm liao.
then cux i reali too tired,
i went to bed at 11pm again which means i onli had a pathetic 2hrs for msning onli.
and then sunday i woke up afternoon
had "breakfast"
cooked lunch
then eat finish alrdy 4pm.
then FINALLY have time to go online n tok to him
and then tok until he went off to at 6pm to book in again
then went offline shower eat dinner
already 8pm.
then play my ds until 9.30pm
then online until 10.30pm
then i reali tired again n went to bed.
so in conclusion.
weekdays i onli have 2.5hrs of personal time everyday
sats onli 2hrs.
and sundays onli slightly btr, 4.5hrs.
WTH IS THIS?!
excuse me tis is HOLIDAY.
oh man !!!!!
i just wan ONE day to rot.
where i could sleep eat play whole day like i used to in sec sch.
ARGHHHHH
ARGH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
damn life.

sorry ar just here to complain.
i guess the lack of sleep n play is getting me grumpy again.
so sickening.
life's damn freaking boring.
i dun wanna work anymore la!!!!!!!
kns.
burt dun work no money to play n i dun wan use parents money
(-______-)
knsknsknsknsknsknsknsknsknsknsknsknskns

ti amo~te queiro~~~~~!

im a happy yew today!=D

goodness.

can he get scarier.
im totally freaked out already.
pls leave me alone!

tat guy.
smsed me again today to ask me go dinner with him.
hello? IM GROUNDED.
do you have dementia or ward?
and even if im nort grounded.
hell nort will i go out with u okie.
cant he get the point yet???
go away !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
argh.
im getting more and more freaked out already okie.
i dun even dare to go home just now.
wth.


(T~T)

liiiiiiffffffffeeeeeeeeeee suuuuuuuuuccccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGH!
>=(
go and die.
>=(
LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
>=(

=(

ytd went marina for haircut,
and i bumped into fan again.
okie singapore's just so big huh.
burt well..
this time when i saw him
i was a little panicky burt not very.
i was more of like eh?o.O?
he went ns,
his hair is gone,
so he looked kind of different.
naiyu was with him, and a few other frens.
he didnt see me, and i think naiyu saw me burt nvr reali noticed im me
(-________-)||
burt well.
wanted to say hi,
burt decided nort to.
ward for?
shld just leave him alone barhs.
afterall,
we're both in two different worlds ler.
he has his own world,
and im in my own world now.
i guess,
just let it be barhs.

im SHO sick of life.

so sian can.
duno why feeling very restless.
realised i've been blogging more on our blog than my own blog.
LOL.
paiseh frens=p

trust!!!!!!!!!!
have faith!!!!
hang on hang on!

i think my head is going to explode any minute.
my head is throbbing with pain now.
this is really getting too much for me.
burt i have to hang on.

thanks qinqin, thanks shushu.
im reali glad i have such great frens.
without u guys,
i'll be in such a loss...
shushu, u're right.
i think i understand more ler.
now i just have to make sure tat my decision n thoughts will not be shakened by others' words again..

today and ytd was damn slack.
i guess tmr is slack too.
sleep in office..listen to songs..chat on phone with qin.
the new medicine is making me super drowsy
burt it's working n my cough isnt so bad ler.

tis friday i took half day off.
going to my hair stylist n fetching dave home from his bookout.
reali cant wait to see him again.
getting paranoid over certain stuff..
burt after some talk with my fren i feel much btr.
i guess it's just always my stupid-think-too-much character.
my fren's right,
dun think so much ler.

ok something cropped up.
i think im in deep trouble this time.
OH NO WARD SHLD I DO????!!!!
i btr go offline n ask someone to help!

~yesterday was a day filled with sweetness n happiness.~

my smu interview was ytd morning at 9am
i keep thinking tat my answers were bad as compared to the brilliant answers the others gave.
hais.
(-_______-)
gladly i had the same interview session as janet.
if nort i think i'll scare to death alone sia.
met shushu at cityhall after the interview,
shushu janet n me went to the starbucks @raffles city n sat down n chat.
janet went to work after tat.
so nice.
longlong time since we had a chat ler.
me n shushu just talked alort crap
recent stuff n more.
it was nice pity i had things on after tat.
burt nvm shushu we'll have alort of chances de k?=)

then shushu pleasantly accompany me wait for dave
burt she had to leave before dave come cux huiting's waiting for her at bugis ler.
so dave came n we went to eat lunch.
burt poor me (sobsobs) onli can eat porridge after being STILL sick for a week.
(T~T)
then da ben zhu oso sick still eat chilli, in the end ben ben again lor.
hahas!
we went to get the tickets for shutter
and then went arcade again while waiting for the show to start.
the movie was okie la,
actuali nort very scary, cux the ghost face nort very scary hahas.
burt in the cinema gort a group of those irritating pple keep screaming
(-_____-)
in the end nort scary i oso kena scared by their "blood-curdling" screams.
(-_____-)
burt the body decompose tat part reali gross la
jen went over then megumi's decomposed head just fell off lidat.
YUCK!
saw it n faster cover my eyes liao.
hahas.
burt i still saw the decomposed face.
(T~T)
the funny part was the starting.
where me n dave keep switching seats lol.
cux starting i tort the whole row no pple, so i wanna sit nearer to the aisle rather inside where the whole row empty.
so we switched seats.
then gort pple come a couple sat beside him, then i realised shld be no pple sitting beside me.
so we switched again lol.
and then the both of us wanna go toilet.
then we went of the theatre n go toilet n came back all paiseh.
hahahas! the pple behind must be thinking wth the both of us r doin haha.
the bad part was halfway thru the movie my coughing was so bad i ran out of the theatre,
feeling embarrassed tat im disturbing other pple.
and threw up in the toilet.
(-_____-)

after the movie still had some time before the flyer,
so we went to play pool!
the first time so stupid as usual dumb me accidently hit the black ball in.
i was near to winning leh!
(T~T)
then second time dave won n he taught me how to play 9ball.
and then before we left i won yay!
=D=D=D

then the dumbdumb 2 of us keep getting the directions wrong again hahas.
n he said we missed the shuttle bus to the flyer,
so was thinking of walking there.
then i was like "huh?sure anort?dun later lead wrong leh!" LOL
so we wanted to take taxi burt the taxi queue @suntec was super long.
afraid tat we'll miss the timing, i suggested going to marina's taxi stand.
then we had to cross the road n the traffic was heavy n we waited soooo long.
i very scared cross road with other pple de u know
i scared later one person cross the other never cross,
then the other try to catch up with the first person then kena hit.
lol i think too much burt reali scared la! so always cross road will hold my frens' hand.
in the end reali scary sia we just ran across.
then we caught a taxi, and hopped on.
after listening to where we wanna go the uncle was like (-____-)
the flyer's just in front.
(-_________-)
so we gort off n walked there LOL.

the flyer's SO SO SO pretty okie!
im so happy n excited about riding on it.
we took photos here n there
n my heart was jumping so fast knowing that im going to realise the dream of riding the highest ferris wheel!!!
the view up there is so so so so pretttyyy!
we kept asking pple to help us take photos lol.
from there can see the sea, and fullerton's so nice from there, althou tiny burt still could make up the beautiful building structure.
as the night begin to fall the lights lighted up
and the sea was pretty with all the ships lighting.
reali like stars.
then when the our capsule was at the highest point,
i gave him the present i made for him.
was reali glad he liked it.
=D
everything was so beautiful n sweet.
it was a pity there were others on the capsule
burt it's such a beautiful moment tat,very soon, we're both in a world of our own ler.
the whole ride lasted for half an hour,
and when it was ending i was kind of bu she de actuali.
burt nvm still gort next time de!
=D

and then we walked back to suntec to take the bus home.
on the way back smth reali surprising burt pleasant happened.
totally stunned me LOL!
burt =)
so he saw me back to bedok,
ending the day.


have you ever heard of the legend of the ferris wheel?
it was said tat if a couple ride on the ferris wheel
and if at the highest point, they kiss,
bcux they are so near to the sky,
the couple will be blessed by the angels.
and if a boy/girl confessed to the person they like at the highest point,
the angels will hear their true hearts,
and wish the best for the both of them.
even if the confession is unsuccessful,
if their hearts are true enough,
the angels will be touched,
n miracles will happen.

so sweet right?
=)

some sneaks of the singapore flyer:


the flyer!:



me n dave waiting to board onto the flyer:



just gort onto the flyer~:



the beautiful horizon:



looking down!:



looking @other capsules from our capsule:



dave taking photo of me:



the pretty nightview:



the ships reali look like "stars" on the sea!so pretty la:



thanks to photographer david cham tung ming!
=D
had a wonderful time with you...

=)

i duno why i keep feeling so lousy.

i suck.

always crying to my frens complain tis complain tat.
drown them with my loong n naggy stories.
all those nort impt stuff.
im such a lousy fren.

it's been like so long since i saw my clique ok.
since getting back results.
SO FREAKING LONG OKIE.
and then i had not been talking to them much oso.
they are my closest frens okie.
how can i nort ask them out?
how can i nort sit down n talk to them for a few good hours?
why do i have this stupid curfew n fking strict rules tat i cannort ALWAYS go out?
DAMN IT OKIE.
i wish i can as and when go out n look for them.
i miss my mates i seriously do.

sorry im in this damn stupid sucky mood im talking rubbish again.

i duno why lidat ok.
here i am having ups n downs now bcux one side i wanna be selfish burt the other side i know i wanna be there.
only 2 choices?
why isnt there a THIRD option.
i duno la.
im lousy.

i need you.

~~ 能 不 能 给 我 机 会 好 好 的 爱 你？
我 会 仔 细 的 聆 听 ，你 对 我 说 的 一 言 一 语
我 会 学 会 去 控 制 脾 气 不 让 你 伤 心 ~~

bit dave for the first time today.
LOL.
should have seen how shocked he was n how loud he was yelling.
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAS!
went back sr to get our sgc
then pass it to anand ask his gf help us send to nus.
then i blur again forget envelope forget admission pin forget uni address.
thank god there's dave who know i blur queen prepared everything for me.
hahahas..

then me dave n timothy went to xingwang hongkong cafe eat eat,
then i went my gran's house ler.
thank you dave for waiting for the bus with me =)
then cough until lungs going to cough out ler (description by huimin LOL)
=(
went to see doc finally after coughing until wanna die.
(-_________-)
*a series of coughs AGAIN*
it seems to get worse at night.
better go oioi and rest ler.
byebye =(

the singapore flyer!
the big ferris wheel that i LOVED since young.
dave actuali asked me if i wanna go with him.
we're going on next sat and i reali cant wait.=D

some photos of the flyer i grabbed from the web:


at night:


isnt it soo pretty?
it's a dream come true tat i can now finally take a ride on the tallest ferris wheel of the world.
so happy and so in anticipation~~
im really surprised he asked.
last sunday when we went out
we were on the bus going home and i saw the singapore flyer
i only told him tat since young i loved the ferris wheel
and tat very night he asked.
=D

i fell sick neh.
burt even thou i dun feel well im very very happy.
just now on the way home i passed by the singapore flyer again~
couldnt resist the temptation to come online and check out the singapore flyer website.
burt oh man, the rides are expensive.
$29 per adult leh.
(-_______-)
burt i dun care cux it's been my childhood dream till now to sit on tat.
it's finally coming true!
lalalalala~~

today called qinqin at work
she told me she's resigning.
good choice qinqin.
dun let pple step on u anymore ler ok
dun feel guilty cux u're right and they are wrong.
dun feel bad ok? we love yoU!
=D

today the maomao walked past me into the bushes.
i call out for it and said "meowmeow!"
it turned and meowed back at me.
so sweet!!!
aw =)

half an hour of happiness n laughs!

today has been a very very tiring day for me.
i went to work and reached my workplace at 7am
and then still the invigilator ask me to be earlier tmr
so tmr i have to be in by 6.45am
(T~T)

and then i spent the day packing test papers test papers n MORE test papers
checking the number of scripts sent back
i didnt even have a good lunch cux my phone's RINGING non-stop from work n personal calls,
it rang like 5 or 6 times when i was eating.
i almost choked.
and the chief invigilator came back so early
i had to shove down all my beloved ajisen ramen
and rush back with the fastest record time.
DAMN.

worked hard the whole day
=(
very tiring..then dun even have energy to talk much
burt i see everyone working so boring so i tried to joke arnd
it did lightened the atmosphere
burt after laughing pple start chatting and i just stay quiet n listen.
too tired liao LOL.
then monotonous work work work..
and anticipating the end of work.
then finally it's 6pm and dave told me he end work ler
and finally met him at the mrt station at 6.30pm
=D
he kindly printed a copy of the japanese book for me.
=D
thanks.
=D
and then we talk talk laugh laugh on the train and without realising the time,
i reach bedok ler.
=(
then we were like saying "aye, like very fast hor
burt actuali half an hour of journey just flew past.
althou it seemed like a few minutes only."
so i alighted and said thanks n bye.
and now it's anticipating tmr's end of work.
=)

oh ya!
today my workplace de maomao is lazing on the wall.
so cute.
ytd it was under the tree sleeping.
meow~~~
=D

gtg lo. sleeping lo.
nightnights all my beloved beloved frens!
=D

WEEEE~~~~~~~~~

today...
my colleague took the train with me again..saying "it's on the way"
(-______-)
HELP ME SIA.
(T~T)
then was abit "xia dao" cux ytd alrdy lidat
then i was like like "huh...again ar...*tong ku*"
i told dave and then we met at paya lebar for 3 stops again
=D
=D
=D
lucky to escape for 3 stops LOL.
burt it will be lidat until the end of this week i think
cux he's having chalet at coasta sands..pasir ris
which means same line as me
(T~T)

burt dave offered to see me home from work.
=D

lalalala~~~~
happy happy me~~~~
in a happy happy mood nowadays =)
tomorrow have to reach office at 7am ar.
very very tired sobsobs.
burt still anticipating tmr, thurs and fri.
and the singapore flyer!!!
i SO cant wait for it.

k lo i have to sleep.
need to wake up at 5am tmr (T~T)
burt i'll be looking forward to end of work!
=D

went to watch Rule #1 with dave today.
we met at bedok mrt arnd 11pm burt i was late for half an hr
><
sorry lols.
we happily took the mrt to cityhall and went marina
ate at the jap restaurant tat i had always always wanted to go!!
YAY!
he ate curry katsu don and i ate matcha zen!! YUMS
think next time must bring qinqin go eat cux qinqin like matcha!
=)

and then we went to get the tickets
and then walked around abit to wait for the movie time.
we went aracade and played lots of games there.
and wasted alort of money lol ><
we played the one tat gort red blue green buttons de,time crisis,and the jungle de
then the jungle one very nice cant rmbr name lol
and then i wasted some of his money on the doll machine ><

then we went for the movie!
it was nort too bad, good storyline.
nort very scary burt i dun dare to look at the ghost face as usual LOL.
then as usual use popcorn box to cover face LOL.
and then after the movie we went to gelare to have a drink n sit down n chat.
and then he saw me to bedok interchange.

in the meantime something very embarrassing happened i shldnt say ward it is.
he'll know STOP LAUGHING AT ME!
he duno laugh how long super paiseh la !
burt ok la i think it was funny oso lol.
just tat it's nort-so-funny since im the one being laughed at.
(-_____-)
it's all my stupid heels' fault.
(-_____-)

i wan go kbox i wan go kbox!!!
i wan play with maomao!!!!!!!!
i wan sit ferris wheel oso!!!
lols.
so many things i still wanna do.
burt only left 2weeks 2days.

hi guys im finally here to blog.
sorry for not blogging for sooo long.
part of the reason's cux my comp's down since saturday,
most of the reason's cux im just plain lazy.

alright alort of things happened.
we gort our results back,
i changed my job and is currently working at seab.

today my colleague bought me half a dozen of donuts from donut factory
and puffs from beard papas
=)
burt the bad thing is the whole office is saying there's smth going on between us
(-______-)
i didnt ask him to buy ok.
he just bought for me i already say i dun wan ler.
(-______-)

been feeling happy/bored/emo for this period of time.

happy~
gort to know a "new" fren lately and had been hanging arnd quite often.
actually not considered "new" cux i know him from guitar burt jux that we only started talking alort lately.
bored~
just plain bored.
emo~
nort emo-ing much burt sometimes still will think of stupid things.

okie tis is considered my summary of ward happened lately barhs.
really too much details to go into one-by-one la.
duno where to start and ward to talk about actually.
ward is life and why are we living?
i haven't found my answer.
everything's the same
the same old work, the same old phonecalls n sms,
the same old place, the same old emo-ness.

see that's me getting sick of life again.

when would i ever find my reason to living in this world???
after so much..
finally might be able to get into uni
burt very afraid of what lies ahead.
will i make true frens?
will i cope with the work?
time flies im nort prepared to go into the society yet.
this will be the last phase of my student life.
... ...
in a blink of eye everyone's grown up.
student life's going to be over soon.
I DON'T WANT LA.

... ....
sorry ar thinking rubbish again.
~~~~~welcome to my life~~~~~
if u wanna read my blog u should jolly well know and be prepared to read such emo stuff.
=D (sorry getting kind of attitude)


byebye.

oh man oh man oh man!!
i heard from minmin tat her school principal is opening 2 retainees classes for tis batch.
cux it was rumoured tat our batch is super lousy and even moderation didnt help.
tat's why so late release results cux needed time to moderate.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:O
*faints*
HELLLLLLLLPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

today's my last day of work!

well i still handled it quite well,
i thought i was going to get emotional.
burt well..
nice nana left early cux she didnt want the both of us to reali start emoing.
burt before she left i bit and hugged for so hard.
LOLS.

joyce gave me a cute pillow and nana gave me a SUPER cute doggie plushie tat im hugging it everywhere i go.
reali looooved the doggie.
i bought a cig box for nana, a bracelet for siqi, and a box of roche for joyce.
i will miss you guys =)

went shopping for their prezzies ytd
so dragged dave to come along
met after our work ended
and ate at fish n co,
it was my first time eating there.
we had the seafood platter for 2 and the both of us couldnt finish half of it
cux we were too busy talking and laughing and in the end we felt full alrdy.
hahas..
and then he was funny cux he didnt know how to take bus.
he's normally drove by his parents u see.
otherwise he'll take taxi.
in the end the both of us shared taxi home.
(-______-)||
i cant reali rmbr ward was said burt i just rmbred laughing all the way.
when i gort home my cheeks were so tired from the smiling n laughing.
and then still laughed somemore when he sms-ed me.
then the both of us just fell asleep beside our phones.
and then this morning he was shocked awake by my call.
LOLS!!!!!!
he said im his human alarm clock -.-
burt thanks to me otherwise he'll be late for work.
HAHAHAs...

tomorrow results are going to be out leh.
(>.<)
kancheong.
(T~T)

made a new background myself
(with credits to photobucket)
had a real hard time struggling n trying to understand javascript.
(-_______-)
the background makes my blog kinda messy burt i will try to do better tomorrow.
maybe i will try changing fonts and colors after i found the perfect font n color.
and after i figure out this damn javascript thing.
i know how to change fonts/colors/backgrounds/pics now
burt the alignment for the snowflakes seemed to have some problems after i tried changing the background.
will look for a better background again.
this is just temporary.

YAY~~~~~~~~~~!!!
today went to watch L-change the world with my beloveds.
it was great cux we all loved L.
=D
and then i caught a bambi (ok qin i know it's nort BUM bi.) on the doll machine!!!!!!!
=D=D=D
it's the biggest plushie i've ever caught.
and it's the cutest.
i've gort 3 before,
my first was a 15cm (approx) doremon.
the second was anth 15cm panda.
both aint too cute.
this bambi is cute and it's almost 30cm!!!
YAY!
i tried to get the pinnochio for qinqin after tat burt no luck =(
i thought i could catch it and wanted to try until i did burt felt embarrassed cux later my frens say i waste money again >.<

so in the end we went to get our ticks n watch the movie.
thank god qinqin's sis helped us to get the ticks online.
the cinema was flooded by pple and the line was loooooong.
and then me n qinqin happy-happy deexiao-deexiao smile-smile walked to the online/phone/visacard ticks line ---- which was totally empty.
and gort our tickets within seconds.
HAHAHAHA!
i swear i saw some pple snarling at us.
LOLS!
the movie was nice and sweet,
i loved it especially tat L is so nice n caring towards the 2 kids.
bcux he seems cold normally,
so it was extremely sweet.
felt the warmth and was touched.
at the last part when L sent Near to the orphanage and left,
i was so sad.
the screen showed L leaving..
and then as he walked away he tried to stand up straight.
it was so funny yet so sad.
the tears circled in my eyes.
burt i did laughed it off cux he looked funny with the standing straight position.

after the movie,
my cousin came to meet me.
he helped us take photos and then we went off for dinner.
sorry girls, tat i had to leave lidat.
burt i pang-sey my cousin for alort of times ler =(
so we went citylink's newyork newyork
and i had a yummy brats with bacon cheese and the FROSTED BAILEY'S CHOCO VELVET tat i had always wanted to try!!!
=D
sadly, my darn phone is crazy and i couldnt take photos =(

and their service attitude was great.
my food came first and i was waiting for my cousin's to come before i start.
so one of the waiter noticed tat and came over and tell us tat he would hurry the kitchen so i didnt have to wait till the food gets cold.
and my cousin's food came shortly after tat.
=D

and there's anth waiter tat was so funny.
he came to me and then asked "is tat a bambi?"
i nodded.
he asked again "he (referring to my cousin) gave it to you?"
i shooked my head n told him i catch it on the doll machine.
he smiled and said "wow tat's so pro of u! could u get one for me the next time?"
i said "i was just lucky. maybe u can get one for me instead haha."
he replied "ah, sure. ward's ur name?"
i told him my name and said "well maybe i could give u my number too n u could call me once u get the plushie."
(burt i was joking too la, i didnt give -.-)
and then we both laughed as he walked away to serve anth customer.
and then when he was getting us the bill..
he said "my dear u're leaving? would u give ur bambi to me? it's so cute i love it."
he was joking burt i was like (-_______-) hahas.
then i said "no?of cux nort! YOU are going to give me anth plushie instead. and u better get me a big one."
and then he said "how big a plushie u want?"
and i said "one taller than u."
and then he laughed n said "ok sure. when i get it i will put it at the entrance here n u make sure u come n get it."
hahas.

im a happy yew today! =D
qinqin's leaving for malaysia tmr, hope u have a good trip darling!
=D

lalalala~~
im in a neutral mood today.
to me, neutral mood is good mood.
good mood is extremely great day.
cux my frens out there, u all know ward kind of person i am.
=)

boss took me n siqi out to main office today.
wanted us to do designs for postcards and advertisments.
i thought our ideas was okie burt he said he dun wan smth too soft?
o.O
like those too cute stuff he dun wan (which was our deisgn)
he wanted like professional n mature stuff n showed us many examples.
burt hello?
we are SEVENTEEN AND EIGHTEEN WITH NORT MUCH EXPERIENCE?!
(-_____-)||
he seems to think tat jc kids are smart.
sorry ar, im from SRJC, LAOPOK jc.
and siqi told me tat joyce seems to be despising her cux she's an N'lvl kid.
talk to her like ordering n giving attitude.
she doesnt does tat to me.
o.O
anyway.
i just told siqi,
WTF. as if joyce herself is any better ok. i doubt she even has a dip.
*rolls eyes*
why are adults so arrogant?!

and funny nana smsed me she misses us since we left the branch n went to main office.
LOLS.
so cute la she.
=)


2 hours later... ...


im going to SLEEP.
so bored~~~~~~~
=(

i had my company lunch today.

we ended our work early at 12pm and all went to park royal hotel and had a feast!
there isnt much to talk about thou,
we just ate n then went for kboxing @suntec after tat.
still, it was fun. hahas.
here are the photos taken:

haoxiang, siqi and me:


siqi, me, nana's right ear, nana, nana's left ear, haoxiang:


nana n siqi trying to murder each other:


us 3 little "kids" with nana n the two bosses:


and then after the kboxing i met up with my mum for dinner at cityhall.
we went to lerkthai.
yums yums! =)
the green curry was great.
and i LOVEEED the grilled cuttlefish
( qinqin are u drooling u xiao pang zi? LOL )

actually kind of sad today.
cux it's haoxiang's last day.
actually it's like...ok la we only know each other for 2 months.
burt we're humans with feelings ok.
this 2 months he took care of me alort.
most of the stuff he carry n will let me bully lols.
so still will bu she de.
i just feel tat..
like... pple arnd me are leaving one by one...
( okie i know im THINKING TOO MUCH AGAIN )
burt i mean..
like you see...
althou i still meet up with my girls nowadays
burt it's like...
graduation took them out of my everyday life..
and then i came to work..met new frens like nana sq n hx.
then now haoxiang left..
soon i'll be leaving too..which means nana n sq will be out of my everyday life too..
and then i will be getting back my results soon...
if it isnt good...future looks bleak.
if it's good..meaning i can go uni...im unsure of the future too.
i mean now im unsure la.
maybe i could cope when i reali face uni life.
burt..duno.
maybe it bcux im just unsure of life.
i havent really found the meaning of life,
and the reason for living.
i guess i just have to search harder...
sigh.
there wouldnt be anymore haoxiangs when i go to work next monday onwards.

i wanna forget
i wanna be happy
burt when i see u online again
the pain is there again.
now i know...
i have been feeling happy for the past week cux i didnt see you..
i thought i've forgotten...
burt i realised....
it's becux i didnt feel ur existence (since u r in outfield) tat i didnt feel so bad..
cux i will treat u as a dream...far away from reality.
and since it's a dream...it didnt hurt so much.
burt now tat u're back again..
the pain is back cux i know u're real.
it's nort just a dream.

another day of work.
working back at Cotten Care was so far so good.
cux new year's just over and there isnt much to do yet.

im in a good mood now actually.
just getting kind of bored.
this saturday is our company lunch @royal hotel!
yippeee!
hope it's good. =)

hm...
recently im feeling rather okie.
the emoing n missing had nort been so strong.
it's like im very temperamental i know,
one moment this, one moment tat.
hope this good mood could be here to stay.

it is kboxing day!!

we were also celebrating shushu's birthday in advance
cux i tort we're all working and it would be better if we celebrate it on a weekend where everyone's relaxed and energetic
anyway
i met qinqin up for lunch at 12.30pm
and we ended up walking from orchard mrt to far east
cux she said she wanted to go there.
i tort she said she wanted to go there n EAT so i jux said ok.
in the end we go there we DUNO WARD TO EAT
then i asked her "u say wan come here de so ward u wan eat?"
and she replied "i only wanted to come here to walkwalk cux vry long nvr come ler."
(-________-)
and i was like thinking "tian ar im starving"
so we ended up buying Shi Lin chicken chop and fruits
thinking we jux eat some finger food n later go wisma for lunch.
then we gort SO full by the "finger food" and the chicken chop made the both of us breathe out fire.
we even shared one chicken chop burt couldnt finish it bcux i think the person was trying to murder us by adding so much chilli powder.
he gave us an extra big serving thou. ( maybe he's oso trying to stuff us )
so we took a walk arnd, and ended up to mogu mogu's to try out the cute bento.

here're the photos we took:

chicky chick bento!!!! how cute!:



a close up of the chick:



we gave it a "hat":



qin trying to "sexual harass" the chick LOLS:



and me trying to eat it up haha:


oh ya!
we also saw this weird guy tat keeps drinking water.
it's like he drank TWO LARGE drink from KFC
and ONE CAN of soya milk.
(-_______-)
me n qin were thinking there's a high possibility he'll have his fourth drink too.
well so after that we went to meet shushu,
and went to kbox @cineleisure.
then at arnd 5pm tingting n jiajia popped out with the cake
they bought oreo cheesecake n it was excellent!
*drools*
shushu was surprised!
and we're so glad to see her happy =)
happy birthday again shushu! hope you liked the day! =))

here are the photos @kbox:


shushu and qinqin AND our messy table:


shushu n qinqin with mic:



unglam me n qin take 1:



unglam me n qin take 2:



unglam me n qin were singing "ai cuo" by leehom:



and then after the session ting n jia left while we continued singing for an hour
then meeting up again after tat for dinner @takashimaya
and here are some zilian-ing photos of us in taka's toilet:



(i will add more photos in after receiving them from jiajia n shushu's camera)

that's all for now!=))

happy valentine's everyone!

as usual.
this year's valentine's im single.
and this year,
there's NO SCHOOL
NO FRENS to hang arnd with.

burt hey,
im taking it well.

eddie's right.
valentine's day is overrated.
one can be happily single on valentine's too.
at least im happily chatting on msn now. haha.
to 8 singles???
im definately breaking my msn chatting record.

saw the reply. the doll IS a volks williams.
the point is,
the collectors like to change their eyes and face paint,
so this volks williams looks different from the original one on the volks web.
it's a main structure of the doll, then pple customize it.
ah.. now we know.
learnt so much from this.
and im starting to be interested i think.
burt one thing for sure,
i wanna find that doll and buy it.

if anyone sees it plsplsplspls tell me plssssssssss?
here's the pic of the volks williams im searching desperately for:



it's the doll in white suit, in the individual photo on the left,
and wearing specs in the groupie.

i've found the owner.
he created this doll.
the problem is, i dun think he wanna sell it?
burt i've just ask him if he would sell, or know anyone else who has the exact same doll.
keep ur fingers crossed and pray hard for me pls.
i really really wan tat doll so much.

i guess i should not watch "e zuo ju zhi wen" ( a taiwanese idol serial ).

bcux everytime after i watch it,
i get too into it and feel sad.
bcux i know i'll never be as lucky as the girl in the show,
to be able to spend so much time with the guy i like.
this is getting bad cux it makes me emo.

eventually the girl will get married to that guy she liked for 5years.
all along,
it was an one-sided love for the girl,
burt after knowing each other for so long,
the guy felt touched by her actions bit by bit,
and fell for her too.

althou i know it's a happy ending already,
i wanna watch on.
bcux it's nort the ending that makes me feel touched,
it's the process of how the girl strived on and was heart broken again n again.
burt still, she clinged onto that faith,
the faith that she loved the guy,
and the hope that he will be touched one day.

i know it's stupid.
taiwanese idol serials are nothing burt fairytales of the modern world.
and that a girl should never get so crazy for a guy,
to put down her pride and soul,
for a guy who most probably will never love her back.
burt.. who says this is impossible in the real world?
it can be that a girl is waiting stupidly for this guy she like for a long time too.
the only part that will never come true is only the ending.
which good-looking, IQ200 genius guy will be so honest n true?
and choose a blur and dumb girl over the other smart beauties?
the ending was bullshit.
burt it still made my tears flow.
bcux..
isnt that ward i'll never be able to achieve?

i duno ward i wanna achieve too.
why am i waiting?
ward am i hoping for?
i dun have any answer.

a simple "hi" could make my day.
a simple call could make my week.

the guy felt touched eventually because he could SEE and KNOW all the things the girl did for him.
burt he couldnt see ward i've done and went thru,
so he'll never know.
how can he be touched this way?!

so it's hopeless for me.
i wished i could be like the girl.
i wanna be there,
burt he's drifting further n further instead.
im willing to do anything,
give up everything,
wait forever,
to exchange that one day of him turning arnd and notice me.
i could trade a lifetime for a day.
no?
how about a lifetime for an hour then?
god can u hear me???!

no. no replies from god, no chance no hope.
no im nort a christian,
burt i've been praying to him since i was 12 to grant this little wish of mine.
christians, no offence pls.

someone laughed and jokingly told me that im under a spell.
i wished, at least there'll be an antidote.
where's MY antidote??!

he was packing earlier,
now, he just left home, back to camp.
i rushed thru my stuff to come back online before he leaves,
so that i could pathetically hold onto the last minute to see the green little figure beside his name STILL green.
now it's back to red again.
and then i'll have to wait another five days before it turns green again.
and then the same routine again.
i pathetically typed a msg to him
gort his pathetic answer telling me he's "packing n have to go already"
and then pathetically told him to take care cux i didnt know ward else to say.
and pathetically came here to emo again.
and then now pathetically staring at the window he replied me,
and that pathetic sentence:
"[ahfan]™ HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!! WISHING ALL ANG POW MANY MANY!!!! appears to be offline. Messages you send will be delivered when they sign in. E-mail this contact instead"
now how PATHETIC can i get???!!!

why make myself so miserable when i can be happier,
why choose misery over happiness?
burt that's my choice.
and i will never regret it.
( this is to the other him is reading this. in case u're wondering. )

well. enough of emo-ing.
time to get back to my senses.
work tomorrow,
and cant wait for sunday to come.
cant wait to meet my mates,
cant wait for kboxing.

pray for me that tmr's work isnt too stressful pls.

still feeling abit grey today
burt the work and hanging arnd with my colleagues made me forget about emo for awhile.
smart nana...
saw thru me and sms-ed me if im ok.
she was the only one who felt the emo in me..
she's really nice,
wanted to take me for a starbucks treat today.
unfortunately..thanks to MR ANTHONY (lao pa) who gort his accounts wrong.
we couldnt go for lunch with the boss and she couldnt treat me.
we waited for the lunch till 3.30pm
cux the boss-es wanted to treat us a meal at tampines.
in the end cux the accounts wrong we couldnt leave
and the treat had to be postponed to after newyr.
in the end we ate our lunch at 3.30pm (x.X)
(-_____-)

sadded`
nana's going back malacca tonight..
wouldnt be seeing her tmr
and wouldnt be seeing her arnd for 2weeks cux im taking leave from 11-15th feb.

something funny happened today.
a customer sent her curtains over for washing
and they're white curtains with star-prints on it.
burt it's so old it's turning greyish-and the prints are fading.
i think the prints were those kind of iron-on rubber prints.
so it's quite fragile especially since they were so old.
and then after wash and drying
the auntie came upstairs to our office and said
"nana, i show u something very BEAUTIFUL."
and then she was like "TADA!" and flashed the washed-curtains.
everyone stoned for a minute and then fell laughing to the floor.
cux after washing, the old curtains were torn with many many holes.
burt the funny thing is.
the holes are all STAR-SHAPED.
it looks like someone use the star-shaped cutter for baking cookies to cut it thru.
and then i said
"now we can call the customer and tell her we've gort her new-styled curtains."
it's hilarious tat all the holes all STAR-SHAPED okie?
LOL.

it's half day work tomorrow
let's hope the kbox outing with qin n shu arrives fast.
i always love it when im with them.

~still waiting stupidly.~

work was crazy ytd..
with the rushing of stuff before new year holidays start.
nana give me a breakfast treat in the morning before work
and told me stuff bout her life.
it was nice of her.
=)
things were fine except i gort pissed off with haoxiang cux he didnt help me out at first.
burt he coaxed me and things gort better in the end.

and then i went to buy my clothes today!
kind of happy cux i gort the dress i saw with qinqin at mango tat day.
it's a sweet dress.
finally i found my new year clothes after shopping for 3weeks.
LOL?

it's sunday and u're gone again.
as usual,
i havent been talking to you.
it's like.. one week and 2 days since i talked to you.
and.. 3 weeks and 2 days since you talked to me.
it's shane ward's breathless on 98.7 fm now.
the artist n song u introduced me.
im thinking of you.
i feel so... helpless when it comes to you.

who could tell me ward to do?
who could tell me how to forget you?

today's work suck to a certain extent.

i shouldnt talk about ward sucked burt yes it's bcux of stupid AUNTIE-joyce and some stupid uncles again.
now i know nort only aunties are bad, uncles are as well.
( i dun mean all thou. jux tat alort of them do. )
basically, i hate the adult world.
i hate this society thing.
i dun wanna grow up,
can i remain a young 18 yr old pls?
burt it's impossible.
maybe when i turn 30 i will get so pissed off with the world the society the HUMAN creature and the turning old and wrinkles and stuff
then i will go kill myself and get reborn as a cat.

yes this sounds crazy burt who knows?
i might get so tired and sick of life i will do exactly tat.

or maybe on HIS wedding day i will do tat.
ah yes eunice goh dun be THAT crazy and stupid and dumb and retarded to kill urself when HE gets married to ANTH girl ok!

look im really crazy to think about these.
im just in one-of-those-kind-of-mood again.

i dun wanna tok bout such pissing-me-off stuff.
burt im seriously, very, super, tired.
my arms are aching like shit,
and tmr's saturday and yes there's work AGAIN.
i cant wait for the kbox meetup with shushu n qinqin.
i hope we'll organise it like SOON burt i know it will be at least after CNY hols.

it's like damn.
lately im starting to feel abit sad again.
im refraining myself ok? i really am trying very hard.
burt i guess im starting to have the "im-alone" mood AGAIN.
bcux nowadays, my beloved frens cant be there everyday to pull me out of the "alone-ness" thing.

nope im nort lonely, cux i know i have my sweetest and closest mates like qinqin n shushu.
burt i reali yearn for someone to be there for me.
i just need someone to be there for me whenever im tired..
to give me a chest to lie on and let me rest from the busy day.
i just need someone to be there for me whenever im sad..
to wipe my tears for me and give me a good ol' hug and tell me he's there and everything's gonna be alright.
i just need someone to be there for me whenever im angry n provoked
to give me a listening ear and pat my head and tell me tat i dun have to bother about such pple.

where is HE?
is it really THAT difficult to find someone who can do all these?
i know of someone who can definitely achieve these,
without me even saying anything he can guess my thoughts.
burt too bad,
he's nort mine.
and i dun think i'll ever have that one-tiny-weeny-chance.

all i ever need is that ONE chance.
you know?
it's been sooo long?
i know if i ever have that ONE chance,
i'll definitely hold onto it forever.
cux after going thru so much and so long,
i know more than anyone how impt you are.
the memories are still so vivid,
it was like yesterday.
burt we're all grown up now,
i cant believe how time flies.
cliche, burt i cant believe why fate abandoned us like that.
no.. fate abandoned me.
why must it be "fated burt nort meant to be"?
i would rather it be nort fated at all.
at least it would not make me hang onto it so much.
why let us be fated burt nort give us a chance?
why so cruel?

i was thinking the other day
if god ask me one day,
to give me a chance to go back to the past,
and skip the day knowing you,
will i want that?
im very determined and my answer will be,
even if i have to start all over,
go back to that day when i met u
and then go through all these all over again,
my answer is still NO.
i would go through these a million times if i could,
cux that would mean i could go through the days i spent with you for another million times.

it was only for a mere 5months or so,
burt do you know, those days with you were the happiest days of my life?

i've never regretted knowing you.
you are the only person i'll never, ever regret knowing.