im back to singapore!!
touched down in changi airport at 8pm on monday.
i shall now upload my photos here and let the photos do the toking!
enjoy!=))

@changi airport departure hall. xmas mood everywhere~~:



on the plane haha:


it was still raining when the plane took off:



and then about 3.5 hours i reached hk! this was taken on the bus on my way home:


we didnt stay in hk for too long before going guangzhou on the 17th. my nephew (23yrs old=.=):


and then on the 19th dec 2008 we went back to hongkong again:


and not long after we left for macau on the 21st dec 2008:


on the ship to macau:



and then we checked into a hotel when we reached macau:



the hotel room had many mirrors and i cant resist zilianing hahaha:



then after resting awhile we went to the famous Sands Casino in macau which i find boring cux i didnt know how to gamble=.= and dun like to gamble too. :



and we went to the famous macau Ma Kok Temple:


there were firecrackers! pity i couldnt take the photos in time:



the wishing tablets in Ma Kok Temple:



and i saw a very cute dog! haha:


and very nice graffitis:



then i saw qinqin's fav suzuki bear! haha!:


macau is a mixture of west and east. u see portugese everywhere:


we went to the ruins of saint paul's. a place that i always wanted to visit:


and along the way i saw portugese egg tarts!!:



so mini so cute!:


it's mine! bleah:


then we finally reached the ruins of saint paul's! so beautiful!:








its history:


hais how small are us compared to the world?:


the great fortress:






this used to be a helicopter parking place:


can u spot the ruins of saint paul's?:


look like painting?can see me and my mama? haha:



the parade square:




and i had this for lunch!haha:


then we went back to the hotel to pack. and on my way back i saw black beetle!!! woots!:


we took this back to hk:


the hk seaview:


and then it's shopping and eating in hongkong again till i come back to singapore! haha!:



took tis in my house toilet LOL!:




hope you guys enjoyed my photos!=D

i cancelled my plans to go ocean's park today bcux i thought there is bidding today
to come to realise there ISNT bidding today.

thanks alot ar!!

(T~T)

but nvm im facebooking now. better than nothing.

minmin.
who is the you-know-who mentioned on ur blog?
haha personal message me on facebook/email tell me leh.

merry christmas and happy boxing day to all!!

havent got the chance to really use the comp here in hongkong until today
so sorry i couldnt update!

I HAVE TO SAY I WENT MACAU FOR THE FIRST TIME
it's absolutely beautiful especially at the ruins of saint paul's.
it's like u totally dun feel like u're in asia
everything is so colonised haha u see portugese words everywhere instead of english.
freaking cool.
i shall upload the pics after i get back to singapore.

hongkong here hasnt been too cold since i've got here
thankfully.
and i was still wearing my shorts and stockings ytd
haha but was nagged by my mama saying dun fall sick cux afterall it's still 14-15degreesC here!
after i come here i had been trying to msn whenever i can with my pathetic baby ipodie.
so several nights i had been chatting with my frens before i sleep.
but reception is really bad =x

it was around the 21st dec barhs
i talked to ahfan on msn
he just went back to singapore from hongkong.
and then he told me i got the date wrong
his commissioning ball was on the 16th dec and not the 23rd.
lols...
well he went with his classmate in the end.
well.
ok at least after that on the 23rd when i was going macau i was with a unburdened heart.
yet last night while i was talking to shushu on msn i was also browsing facebook
and i saw some photos that made me so sad.
shushu asked me not to think so much.
after a whole night of thinking i cleared my thoughts.
i shall not let my imagination run wild unless i really hear the words from him.
and thereafter i've been shaking my mind off the photos i saw.

im fine really.
wouldnt think too much.
but im definitely looking forward to going back to singapore where i can have slightly more freedom and convenience in contacting my frens.

I MISS YOU GUYS!!!
kinda sad i wasnt able to celebrate xmas with u guys at shushu's home SOBSOBS!
i missed shushu's mum's cooking yet again HAHA!(T~T)

IM TALKING TO AHFAN ON MSN NOW!!
WOOTS

so glad i can talk to him again before i fly off okie.
=)

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okie i know it's his big day not mine why am i blogging bout it right.
but i feel very proud of him okie!
so proud so proud so proud
gleaming at his achievement.

last night i talked to him on msn
saying
"IT'S UR COMMISSIONING CEREMONY TMR!!!I WAN GO!!!!!"

and kena complained at by him cux it's commissioning PARADE not CEREMONY.
he's still very insistent and say if reali become ceremony he will kill me LOL.
then i very happy cux he replied me!
bcux im leaving singapore soon and have less chance to see him online le..

they are only allowed 4 tickets each person so not enough tickets to give around
but he said he might take a vid and show me if there is
YAY!

i wonder how it went.
ahfan is online now but i dun dare disturb him cux he must be very tired le barhs.
"[ahfan]™ COMMISSION LO!!! tired"
see his nick oso know he tired so i better dun disturb?
should i talk to him or not?
after today i have less chance to see him online le leh...

haiya. duno=(

but anyway!
he must have looked really smart and good looking in his uniform
carrying the rifle and marching so-ever-smartly!

damn pro la=D



IM FLYING TOMORROW AFTERNOON!!!
=(

of cux i would have to come here and BLOG before i leave right.
i have things to say lor!
ya complaining stuff to complain before i go!

you know this afternoon i ALMOST told my mother that i didnt want to go.

im FREAKING SUAY OKIE.
my granduncle passed away so we have to go pray
so we have to go stupid guangzhou cheeena again.
freak right.
and the worse thing is. be prepared okie:

I HAVE TO GO GUANGZHOU FROM THE 17TH TILL 20TH BCUX THAT'S HIS DUNO 3RD WEEK DEATH OR SMTH.

i dun mind going cheena to pray la. he's my elder n i have to respect.
but why this date??!!!!!!
when i heard it i was so TOTALLY SICK.
17th until 20th!!!!
that's when fan's in hongkong okie!!!!!
there goes my only pathetic 4 days to be standing on the same ground as him!!!!
(T~T)
i totally went emotionless when my parents told me that.
when i was still happy from last night that fan replied me on msn.
I! TOTALLY! WENT! EMOTIONLESS!

so i told my mother with a freaking glum face.

"I DONT WANT TO GO ALREADY LA!!!!!"

my mother was totally shocked and ask
"huh?"

actually i meant that i dun wanna go hongkong.
but i could imagine the consequences so i pretended to say
"hais i dun like to go cheena la.."

(T~T)

GOODNESS GRACIOUS ME!!!!!!!!

then after that i whole day no mood liao.
you can also imagine how i felt as i was packing my luggage.
i practically threw everything in without even considering what to wear n stuff.
no mood can.
and i feel very bad when my mama is all excited about getting a getaway from her work finally.
i didnt want to spoil her mood marhs.
so i only can try to appear very excited in front of her while deep down im weeping like mad.

hais. ward can i do? i've no control over my own fate.

i only can ask my mama
"can come back hongkong one day earlier anort?"

sorry ar. so pathetic until ONE DAY is better than NOTHING AT ALL.
(T~T)

i think my mood tomorrow will be worse.

im now online checking in for my flight on sunday.
choosing the seats and typing in my particulars.

every one letter i type.
i bleed.

siokwen is right.
no use pondering over it becux i couldnt have the power to change anything.
but i really couldnt stop my heart from hurting.

i made a very silly decision last night..
i know making this decision will hurt myself to the max but i still chose this path..
pls tell me that my decision would be a right one eventually..
that my efforts will pay off..

i know very well what the consequences could be.
that maybe in the end.
if i fail,
i might totally lose myself to become soulless.
yet i dun wanna give up and want to give it a last try.
cux i have the very strong faith that you would be touched one day.

or perhaps u can say that im pure bu yao lian.

after sunday i felt so happy
that the distance between us had been pulled a little closer.
yes. by a little but im reali contented and happy.
so happy im thanking god so much.
it's like. that little bit of improvement had gave me the total determination to hang on again.

but i realised.
after that day u are kind of back to a little colder again?
or isit just that u r busy...?
i duno.
but it's hurting.
nvm i guess i shldnt think too much.
maybe you are just busy...

maybe..

i've been playing the song qing tian the whole day today.
after that day during the k-session u said
"hey i've always been wanting to learn this on the guitar!"
i was so totally shocked.
bcux the song qing tian
is the reason why i wanted to learn to play the guitar in the first place.
bcux i wanted to play qing tian on the guitar.
see how fate can be such a joker.
and after ward u said
i've been searching frantically online on how to play qing tian.
i played qing tian over and over again today
just to try to play it right.
bcux i want to learn how to play it right.
and perhaps someday..
someday..
have the chance to play it for you.

today had been totally emo-ish.
especially after ward happened last night and ward shushu had told me.
but playing qing tian
makes me feel closer to you
and makes me slightly better.
so i played it over.. and over again..
until now i could actually sing n play the introduction part.
thanks ar. suddenly it's like my guitar skills improved so much bcux of a whole day of practice.
haha.

and i keep feeling very pekcek
that im leaving singapore soon and couldnt attend your commission ceremony and commissioning ball.
i keep feeling like stabbing myself when im constantly thinking that i've missed it i've missed it i've missed it.
althou u never directly asked but
there might be a tweeny weeny chance that u might ask if not for me not in singapore.
it's like
i waited so long for this opportunity and now i lost it just becux im not in singapore.
who knows when i will ever have a chance again?
i keep having to urge to tell my parents that
"hey mummy i dun wanna go hk with u all alrdy im staying here in singapore ok"
but i know how they'll react if i ever did.
and i keep having the urge to plead with my mummy to let me out on saturday night to at least attend the ceremony but i know the eventual answer would still be a no-no.
i feel so helpless and at loss can.
i have totally no control over what is happening.
huimin is right.
this is really a 孽缘
why must heaven and fate make fun of me again and again?

i cannot remember
when it was when i started to whisper a silent prayer before i sleep every night
praying u a good night, sweet dreams.

and secretly saying to you every night before i sleep
that i really miss you.

pls tell me i made the right decision.
i hope i did.

althou i would never know if i did
until i hear it personally from you.

im sorry.
thanks for being so understanding as always.
im sorry i couldnt change myself too.

this is from my primary school best fren's blog!

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

THE LEGGY QUEEN reminisced at 4:05 PM

Right now, I`m stuck in one corner of Bedok Library with the woman shown above.
We are both making use of the public wireless network to surf the net.
HAHAHA. Can`t help it. It is a public good.

Rushed home after school to get my vaio.
Met her for lunch at Bedok Mac.
We are both very very very broke because of the same reason.
Which will remain as a secret. Shh.

Was supposed to return her the book that she lent me- PS I Love You.
I read the first chapter and stopped reading it.
Decided to return it to her because I would rather buy the book and finish it in the capacity of MY book.
Sounds more meaningful that way.
Ok weird thinking I know.

Anyways, look! She took so much care of the book!
In plastic packaging some more.
I vow to treat my book in the same way, or even better. Ha.





Look at what she is playing... AUDITION?!
I`m speechless....



AND SO ENGROSSED SOME MORE!!!
=_____+



Temasek Primary ROCKS!

i want to go on this saturday=(
i want to go next next tuesday=(
i want to go and give you support!=(
i want you to know that someone cares alort.=(







but im not in singapore.
=(

TODAY WENT TO TOFU'S UNCLE'S HOUSE.

haha ya sounds abit far-fetched (according to shu n fan)
but tofu invited us marhs THANK YOU TOFU!

her uncle house very big la.

we were supposed to meet each other at parkway for brunch at 12pm de.
before tat i met minmin at 11am to pass her the novel.
and oso show her photos and videos that she's been screaming that she wanna see hahaha!
then i was already on my way there then shushu msg me ask me meet qin they all first cux she eating with her parents.
then i was like faint! cux im already reaching.
and before that tofu tell me qinqin still sleeping=.=
my frens very good to me hor thank you thank you.
haha joking la! cux they really very good to me=)
when i tell shu im alone she was saying ok then i see ward i can do lo.
and when i tell tofu she n qinqin drove over here as soon as they can.
see. where can one get such good frens? (^.<) and shushu sent me the msg almost got me a heart attack ok.
i practically scream when i called shushu with trembling hands.
then she say "no la. i suggested to him whether he wanna come along. then tell him we'll inform him after we asked tofu for permission. duno yet de la."
but it's enough to give me a heart attack ok.
i practically screamed as soon as shushu picks up the phone and then the person sitting in front turned around to GLARE at me.
(heng the bus 2nd storey onli got that 1 person other than me)

so i sms-ed tofu telling her i'll be waiting at the place that she dropped me the other time.
and it has been drizzling since last night so the weather's like damn cold.
tofu said "very fast one 5min"
then i wait.
then i wait wait.
then i wait wait wait.
and i shiver.
and i shiver shiver.
and i shiver shiver shiver.
somemore there's 3 kns children beside super noisy and irritating run here run there.
the way they shout ar. damn high frequency can.
i almost died in the cold.
then suddenly i felt very sad for myself.
LOL i duno why.
just started emoing.
so i just stood there, staring at the drizzle and emo-ed.
hahahaha! paiseh ar.

then after that i received qin's call.

"WHY YOU SO SILLY GIRL STAND THERE IN THE RAIN SO SAD??!GO IN LA!!!"

lol.

and so i went into the mall and waited for her n tofu to come find me.
just as they reached i was so happy to see my frens i practically run over.
hahaha
and then so qiao we bumped into shushu and her family at the entrance!
tofu's first reaction was "SHUSHU UR SISTER AND U LOOK DAMN ALIKE LA!"
hahahhaa
so we went to the coffee bean for a very sumptuous breakfast thanks qinqin/tofu who helped me pay cux im reali BROKE (T~T)
in the meantime contacting fan asking if he wanna come cux TOFU SAID OKAY!
but he say "nah nvm u girls enjoy urself."
(T~T)
nvm 知足知足 okie eunice goh.
ytd go out with him very happy le=D
then he say he is going to PUNGGOL PLAZA buy ingredients to cook pasta for himself.
hahahahaha!
=D

so after the meal we went tofu's uncle's house in her uncle's car drove by tofu
the moment i walked into the house i saw red beetle!
hahaha..
and the house really got everything.
rock band(we spent hours playing that).. pool table.. swimming pool.. gym.. BBQ.. soccer table.. mahjong..
really like. dun need to go out oso can play so many things at home le.
so impressive.
so we played there the whole day and BBQ-ed at night.
once again.
THANK YOU TOFU AND QINQIN!
=D
but swimming in the pool at this weather is really damn freaking cold.
HAHAHAS!