alrights..
just now eddy told me wei's phone gort stolen..
den he fell sick so din go school today..
*prays*
i hope he's okie..
burt at least now i noe he's fine..
and at least i noe ward happened..
hais..
ed gave me his hse no..
burt..
let him rest barhs..
i dun wan chao ta xiu xi..
*baby i reali love u*
*muacks*
*prays tat he gets well soon..*

today he din come to school..
actuali..
im more worried bout him den sad..
and more sad den angry..
it's okie
no matter ward i wun be angry at u..
can u pls let me noe ur whereabouts?
im reali very worried.
qin ling called ur hp..
and it was off..
did u lost ur phone?
ward on earth happened?
pls..
someone tell me ward happened hao marhs?
im very very very very very worried..
im very very very very very scared smth happened to him..
im scared he fell sick or smth..
i just wan to noe how r u..
it's a horrible feeling to wait for u to contact me
like im checking my phone every now n then
afraid tat i'll miss ur call or sms..
im wishing reali reali hard tat u'll be in sch tmr
so at least i noe u're okie
im reali scared..
i duno who to go to..

i feel very depressed.
ya it's him.
burt i dun noe the exact reason.
im very confused now
and i dun even noe ward im toking about.
i jux noe i keep wanting to cry
and i cant control it.
hao fan.
tis is reali bad.
i want to noe ward's wrong.
4 days ler.
do u noe tat 4days had passed?
and tis 4days are like hell to me?
time is passing real slow..
torturing me evry min n evry sec..
i hope it's just me
burt is it?
maybe tis my retribution.
maybe tis my retribution for ward i did in the past.
n i deserved it.
for hurting him so much
now it's my turn to get hurt
and experience the pain he experienced.
now i understand..
it is reali very painful.
hao tong hao tong
tong dao hao xiang yao si diao ler.
i cant keep myself concentrated on anything
i cant sleep
and i have no appetite.
i dun wan to tok to anyone..
like..
just let me be alone k?
let my thoughts run wild for all it want
let me cope up and be ignored
let the tears flow till it dries up
althou it wun.
meowmeow..
is as depressed..
n she dun wan to tok about it..
how i wished she's here
n we can hug each other n cry like we used to
i reali missed the days i had wid her
i reali missed the days i had wid et
life is so colorful wid them arnd
who cares bout anything?
i had them and tat alone is enough.
burt
now i feel as if im falling
without them to grab me
i reali need u guys..
burt meow is unable to listen to me now
just like im unable to listen to her.
we're both feeling miserable
n i understan.
so i leave her alone
n leave myself alone barhs.
the wound will heal by itself
right?

last night..
i came to know tat a girl n a boy had broken up..
they had been together for almost 5yrs..
yet..
sigh..
it made me feel tat love is so vulnerable
5years..
shuo fang jiu fang..
and just ended like tat
what's more when me n him 5months oso dun have.
why cant love last forever?
why do i always feel so insecure wid him?
nort tat i dun trust him..
burt his sudden cold sudden hot attitude
sometimes makes me feel afraid.
im scared one day
when i tort it's just him being cold again
den waiting for him to rmbr me
burt he'll just never come back.
no matter how long i wait.
yupps..
i noe im a paranoid.
burt i just cant help it.
and i cant tell him
cux i dun wan him to think tat im just being ridiculous
and getting worried over some stupid things.
im very happy wid him
reali.
when he's nice
he's REEALI~ nice.
and i love to lie in his arms
and put my head on his chest
he's xiang xiang de
maybe it's the soap he uses.
and it makes me feel so at ease.
when im tired
im so glad to have him to hug me tightly.
burt how long can this last?
how much i want to be wid him forever
i noe we'll end one day.
after the a'levels
i will have to make a choice.
stay?or leave?
my future?or him?
can tat day never come?
*i cant bear to let go*

[-x-] to the girl im toking about..
sorry to put your story in here..
burt i reali feel very upset after knowing it..
for u..
for ur him..
n for myself..
however..
dun worry too much
n dun get too sad..
cux i'll always be ur good sister
and support u no matter ward ur decision is.
rmbr..
im always here for u.

-zhu ni xing fu-

*hugs`*

doin EOM halfway come blog..
no..
should say haven even started.
SIAN~~
i reali hate PW duh..
(>.<)o
sigh..
i dun wan u after promos go poly leh.
den canort see u ler.
why u canort understand leh?
burt i dun wan force u study..
burt..
i reali scared u canort make it.
hais..

(x.X)
die ler lar..
i just finished the maths quiz..
n gort 5/10..
den wei tell me gort count marks..
zen me ban???!!
i still anyhow anyhow do..
tort MCQ so just close eyes tikam..
sobs sobs..

today early early go school
for the hist mock test..
zZz..
very early wake up..
den after tat go heartland have lunch
wid jiamin..
we go thai express..
first time go try it..
eh..
nort bad lars..
after tat wei came to look for me..
and euguene acc him..
after tat me n wei go watch silent hill..
gross lar..
burt nort very scarey actuali..
onli very er xin..
den funny lor..
he saw his fren (girl)
den the girl was wid her bf..
so tis kpo kia say
"go see go see"
den drag me stalk them..
lols..
burt a while onli lar..
den he caught flu..
keep sneezing n sniffing away..
i see him so xin ku so ask him
"u wan go home rest norts?dun need send me home.."
burt he insist..
so..
i asked him
"last night never cover blanket is it?"
he think for very very very long.
den reply
"hehe..last night sleep never wear shirt."
(-______-)||
last night so cold lar~!!
i was shivering in my blanket
den he never wear shirt~!
wun fall sick den weird ~!
den u noe his reason for nort wearing shirt?
very simple.
one word only.
the reason is..
L-A-Z-Y.
(-_______-)|||||
still dare laugh~!
take care of urself ars~!!!
(>.<)

ytd hao sian ar..
8am - 10am history,
10.30am - 12.30pm econs,
den 2pm - 5pm GP~!!
ward la..
holidays even worse den school days.
(>.<)
burt happie happie
cux he suggested seeing me home.
kekex..
(^-^)
he promised me twins' latest album..
burt monday go buy den no stock..
sobs..
den ytd while waiting for my lesson to end,
he went far east wid his frens..
den i was thinking horhs..
to go n meet him den buy the album..
cux heeren HMV confirm gort de..
burt was thinking..
HMV more expensive de neh..
so never ask to go wid him lo..
den..
after lesson i waited for him at kovan
was thinking bout stuff marhs..
so he was behind me i oso duno..
he sneaked up behind me n gave me a scare lo.
(-______-)||
xia si la.
den he saw me home..
den he told me..

"today i go heeren HMV leh..
den i saw twins de lastest album.."

den i din think of anything much lo..
so i said

"huh?oh..k lo..HMV normally new stock come faster de marhs.."

den he said

"ya lo..burt i never buy neh.."

when he say lidat of cux i noe he gort buy la
(-_____-)||
ben dan..
want give surprise oso so obvious.
burt i act stupid la,
so i say..

"orhs..nvm lor..free den buy.."

den he laughed..

"gort la..gort buy la..hahas.."

den he took out the album..
lols..
thou he's acting sucks..
burt im still very happy la..
hahas..

- make up post for June 8 2006, Thursday -

Today met up wid fangyu n meowmeow
to celebrate fangyu's belated birthday..
after my lesson i met them at ps,
den we watched the omen..
after tat we went cine
meow wanted to punch earhole,
n i pei her lo..
punched my 2nd 3rd on the left..
den he was angry wors..
tat i punched ler den tell him..
den we sort of quarrelled..
in the end din meet him..
quarrel quite long..
sian lor..
burt in the end okay liao,
den he asked me tmr de lecture sit wid him.
den i say okie lor..

- make up post for May 26 2006,Friday -

today performance neh!

*psst*
he came to see me orhs!
on wednesday,
after maths lecture,
he came to me suddenly
and waved the guitar tickets in front of me
omigosh..
u could imagine my reaction barhs?
of cux is surprised until like ward lo
den i kept laughing and smiling
like some idiot.
lols!
i noe im an idiot
burt pple in love r always blinded de marhs
hahas!
last night after guitar prac
i went home n pia history for the whole night
slept for 2hrs ++ onli
zZz..
burt no orhs,
i wasnt moody at all in the morning.
yupps i was tired
burt i was super high.
*smiles*
den
at 2pm lidat
i already very kancheong liao.
actuali nort kancheong bout the performance de
burt he's there ward.
so like super scared i play wrong.
the performance started late,
and the audience came in at around 6+7pm
i was waiting in anticipation
burt i didnt manage to see him.
ya i was abit disappointed,
burt i understand tat he has soccer training,
and it may end late.
so,
although i was disappointed,
i trusted him tat he would definately come.
until it was the JC1s' turn to perform,
i told myself
he's here supporting me
i must do my best.
so it went fine,
burt i din dare to look up
and search for him.
after my turn was over,
i went to the LT again from the back
and try to search for him.
yupps i saw him
=)
and he saw me too
and kept looking at my direction.
lols..
stupid forrester was teasing me bout him the whole day la
(*>.<*)
forrester was like saying
''where's dawei?he coming specially to see u ar..''
''dawei fetching u home ar?woot.....''
now my whole section knows bout him liao.
(-_________-)''
darn.
den fonz was teasing me when i went home too.
grrr..
after the performance..
i met him at heartland
and he pei me for dinner.
and so coincidently,
i went to Mac for dinner,
and chose the table beside forrester.
(-_________-)''''''
so qiao.
and beside forrester
was rueben a grp of soccer boys.
and before tat
we knocked into samuel n anth grp of soccer boys.
duh..
of cux gort teased again..
den after the dinner..
he saw me home..
he wanted spend more time together,
burt i was reali tired.
so he was caring and understanding enough
to ask me to go home n rest.
i noe he missed me alort..
so i was feeling bad
bout letting him wait n pei me so long
den nort being able to pei him.
burt he was so sweet la.
(^^)
darling xie xie ni..
i din expected u to come to the performance,
it was reali a pleasent surprise
and made me feel so loved.
u always do surprising things
and always makes my day.
*muackies*

fri is guitar performance ler..
hms..
so tmr gort practice ar..
den wed oso..
thurs..maybe?
hopefully thurs's free..
tat day's 2 months ler..
wan spend it wid him..
xiang gong wo hao xiang ni..
do u rmbr tat day is our 2mnths?
thou it's nort any impt day
burt i reali hope u can rmbr..
actuali..
being wid u changed my life alort..
it's jux tat i never show it..
deep down..
every thing u do..
every word u say..
makes an impact on me..
when u walk by..
a slightest smile u give to me
will make my day..
i miss you.
do u noe tat?

-x`` song of the day : bad day by Daniel Powter ``x-

hms..
long time never update ler..
so busy nowadays..
have to juggle alort of things..
i feel very tired..
burt i reali love the current life
it's fun..
fell sick ler..
din go school today..
ytd end school at 5.30pm la..
den after school,
xiang gong pei me go see doc..
den alort pple
in the end 9pm+ den reach home..
paiseh neh..
u so tired still ask u pei me go see doc..
and thanks for being so nice to me..
lols..

haix.. so suay kena choosen by pearl.. sobs..

Rules of the game : Post 5 weird and random facts about yourself, then at the end list the names of 5 people who are next in line to do this. Dont forget to leave a comment that says" You are tagged" on their blog and ask them to read yours.

1) i hate bananas. real or fake ones. n of cux, i hate banana in pajamas.

2) i have a room, burt i like to slp in the living room.

3) im afraid of the heat, i love the cold. i love cold so much i dun even want to wear more clothes althou i feel as if im frozen.

4) sometimes im very noisy, sometimes i soo quiet u'll think im upset. actuali, i jux dun feel like toking tat's all.

5) pearl, i lurve my darling too. hahax..

many thanks to pearl anyway,
for asking me to do tis stupid mission.
i haven been blogging for months.
hahax..
here's my excuse to blog tis.

next 5 pple choosen:
...
...
...
...
...
seriously no one.
im nort as que de as u.
lolx~!!

我不想再愛你了。

我真的好累。

-x`` song of da day : [[hei se xi ju]] by *twins* ``x-

...
im worried
im so scared u'll hate me..
or at least
im afraid u'll be angry at me
n ignore me again..
haix..
y am i always doin things tat make u angry?
ur msn nick is:
hate noobs who talk so much
是在講我嗎?
pls dun hate me.
cux..
u noe tis kind of things cant be controlled de.
jux like u like tat ger..
u should be able to understan how i feel.
hopefully..

[[最怕你生氣了]]

-x`` song of da day : [[qing tian]] by jay ``x-

alrights.
originally
i wasnt in a very happie mood.
n y is tat?
i dun wana tok bout it
cux it's nort impt at all.
n i dun wan 2 seem childish.
: )
now im feeling much much btr
after listening to my beloved kenny's songs
(^-^)
n..
tokin to fangyu on msn..
diedie..
nv study
hahax..
jux wana say im missing him.
lidat lo.
u noe rite
he so li hai
sc(chem) gort very good grades
n he was very neat
so the teachers showed all the sc(chem) students his paper leh
woahhhh..
so proud of him..
to think he still played initial-d so much
still study so well orhx???!!
omg..
u r my jiao1 ao4~!
let's study n work hard 2gether k?
den get a 10 n below L1R5
n go jc 2gether~!
(^.<)
n hor
when haf u become so neat huh???
pri6 tat time handwriting still like shit.
lolx..
good lar..
feel like seeing ur handwriting again..
long time liao leh.
mux be very nice ler..

-x`` song of da day : [[diu jia]] by *twins* ``x-

poof~!
im sho tired
went to ecp today
wid ting cat pearl n weeshuin
nort play okie
we went to study at the mac'
good news orhx~!
the school allow the 4md pple
to stay in school after school
to study
until..
9+10pm~!!
yups.
in the night.
and we will be provided wif free transport
to the bus stop outside school
cux our school very dark at night marhx
summore mux walk such a long distance..
and the teacher will cook desserts for us leh~!!
if they have the time lar..
hahax..
so good rite?
special treatment for 4md pple
-ONLY-
yeahx~!!
x)
sho happi bout it
all thanks to the vp n p
: x
hehehe..

-x`` song of da day : [[shou fang kai]] by li sheng jie ``x-

im.so.tired.of.my.life
y study so hard
y mux haf O's
y am i still a child?
i wan 2 grow up.
and get out of the current life im living in.

-x`` song of da day : [[yi ge ren de jing cai]] by elva hsiao ``x-

woot~~
after 1 month n two weeks
i finali saw jean again.
pronounced as "jon" okie.
nort "jin".
okie..
den after school i stayed in class n completed my amaths hw
and i did abit of my SS mind map
den i went to pizza hut wid jinyu n vanvan
they went home first after tat
cux jinyu gort tuition at 4pm
vanvan gort tuition at 8pm
den i waited faw minmin at the tkgs bus stop
she had her chinese oral 2dae.
we toked and took the bus 40 bus.
went to bedok library and slack lo.
hmx..
asked her some "info"
hahax..
u noe ward de lar..
and we went home lo..
okie yar nth much again.
burt missed minmin marhx..
lolx..
(-.-)||
she like to say
"jin ri yi bie,he ri zai jian?"
he ri?
i oso wish to meet up often lar.
i dun wan the frenship to turn sour
like it almost did.
: D
burt didnt lo.

-x`` song of da day : [[don't phunk with my heart.monkey business]] by black eye peas ``x-

after sch 2dae i went to pizza hut
wid olizhu n tingx
after tat
when it was around 3.30pm
olizhu gtg
den me n ting went to bedok library to study
i did my SS mind map
and ting did english TYS..
afta tat we went to NTUC to buy junk food
for us to eat when studying at home de.
den we went home lor.
lolx.
nth interesting happened.
burt i did enjoyed my day wid these 2
so i decided to write out lor.
: D
duno ward's wrong wid hinfan sia
goin offline n online......
(-.-)
think he's having probs wid his comp
hahahahax..
k lar..
im happy now cux im listening to kenny's new song
fen1 shou3 bu4 yao4 tai4 bei1 ai1
分手不要太悲哀
cool huh?
i lurve him mans.
he's soooo shuai~!
*faints*

-x`` song of da day : [[fen shou bu yao tai bei ai]] by kenny*lurve ``x-

i dreamt of u again.
in the dream
i was toking to u on msn too
we were happily chatting,
and u made alort of lame jokes out of our conversation
and i typed
"u very lame lehx..lolx"
and u replied
"hahax..i long time never say joke 2 make u laugh ler hor?"
[[ *sighs* ]]
[[ yar. ]]
[[ it's been a long time since u made me laugh ]]
[[ a long time since u tried to cheer me up. ]]
den in the dream again,
i was toking to u halfway
when my mum called me out.
so i left the comp n the conversation for a while.
when i came back
u were gone.
u left a msg on the msn conversation window.
it was like tat
"er.i gtg for now.."
"u there?"
"im leaving now,ok?but before i leave i wan 2 tell u something."
"i love u.i love everyone beside me.but it's not tat kind of love.
i thank you for loving me for so long, i really appreciate it,
but i hope u will stop waiting for me.im not worth ur time.
dun let me be ur obstacle to ur happiness."
"i can still be ur good fren. : x"
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
is tis ward u wanted to tell me all along?
izit?
in the dream
i cried upon seeing the msg.
in reality
i can cry no more.
it's useless ward.
so long ler
all the tears
im numb.towards u.
i hate to say tis burt
i wish very much to forget u too
however,
it's nort up to me..

-m a y b e.i.w i l l.f o r g e t.u.o n e.d a y.w h e n.w i l l.t a t.d a y.c o m e.?.-

-x`` song of da day : [[chi xin jue dui]] by li sheng jie ``x-