been talking to my nephew on msn today n ytd
althou he's my nephew, he's 22yrs old already
a very nice guy..
today he gave me some advice
"if to you, he is ur motivation, burt to him, you are just a passing cloud that leaves no trail in his heart, why still hang on?"
"one should nort live in another's shadow."
so inspired.
im pondering on these words.
hopefully it will help me.

tis is in response to qin's blog.
it gave me some urge to write smth back. hahas.

all i want for new year is someone who'll love me whole-heartedly n be there for me all the time. of cux, tis someone mux be someone whom i love, too. isnt it jux so simple?

burt life is nort like tat. heaven wldnt even give u this most-simplest thing.
im nort expecting anything. im nort even hoping cux hope gave up on me so many times.
burt im yearning.. yearning so much for something yet so far away from me.
it's unreachable. unachievable.

working for it does nort necessarily means u'll get it.
love dun work tis way.

if only it does.
if it does,
i dun care whether the process will tire me out.. or even kill me
i will jux work for it even if it means my everything.

burt it doesnt.
and i can only content myself with ward's left.
and still working for it.
with a heart that wouldnt give up no matter how much i wished it would.

im jux stating my thoughts.
so nope this is nort emo-ing too.
hahas congrats me i havent been emo-ing today. =)

~3 more days and he's leaving~

today nvr really emo
cux i was so happy to be chatting with my dear qinqin huitingting n huiminmin
after toking to them the heavy feeling in my heart is slightly removed
=)
hms.
he's nort online now eh.
think he's trying to enjoy the last 3 days of freedom he has.
and soon it's byebye to his hair!
LOLS.
burt even if his hair is gone,
still... ... ... =)

kekex.
im trying to maintain my slightly above average mood now.
dun wanna emo ler! =)
starting to dislike emo-ing despite it being my fav hobby in the past.
starting to think emo very painful and uneasy.
so im trying to kick tat habit lo!
YAY!

went for interview today.
dun care ler.
im trying to apply for many many job
see which one accept me.
i wanna work fast!
it will help me kick the bad habit of emo-ing! =)
hahas im abit "self high" now.
despite the fact tat most of my close frens r nort online to tok to me
(-______-)
jux toking to my sec sch senior now.
so actuali kind of sian.
hahas *shrugs*
he still look the same.
and my the other senior is still as good looking.
hahahahahahahas.
no wonder xinrou was head over heels over him in the past =x

argh! im getting bored again.
and he just came back!
burt im NORT talking to him.
he deserve a good rest after playing the whole day
and he definitely needs a good time before he's stuck in NS.
so im NORT disturbing him.
NONONONONONONONO.
*controls myself before i type smth to him.*
ok i btr go offline
before i cant control myself and go kachiao him.
byebye all my beloved frens!
good night!
good night fan =)

im sho. damn. bored.
guess i've to quickly find a job n get occupied before im bored to death.
when i was in hk i was busy everyday
going out n stuff
suddenly being back in singapore feels so quiet.
and..
WHERE ARE MY FRENS???!!!!!!!!!
zzz... ...

he's coming back tmr!
burt anth 5 more days, 11th jan
his going away again
to tekong this time.
(T~T)
sigh~~~~

hi everyone im back to singapore.
hongkong was so so so great.
came back on wed night
then on thurs i jux slept ALORT.
then early morning today at 7.30am i woke up from an excellent dream
i shouldnt say who i dreamt of huh? hahas.
so i wanted to go back to sleep to continue the dream
burt i started feeling DAMN uncomfortable
so i ran to the toilet n started puking.
so yupps. tat's ward i've been doing today.
puke. stomach ache. diarrhea. puke. stomach ache. diarrhea.
oh yes n slept throughout the whole day.
from 8plus to 11am
then went to see doc
then slept again from 12pm to 3pm
eat med watch dvd play my ds lite
then pukepukepuke cux the med effect was over
so went to sleep again from 5-7pm
and the doc gave me a SUPER BIG JAB on my BUTT.
super painful de.
nw my butt feels sore whenever the painkiller effect is off.
(T~T)

still feeling abit nauseous now. argh.

when i left hongkong i was sad.
on the plane i looked out of the window at the country..till it was out of my sight as the plane rose higher n higher.
then a few drops of tears rolled down. burt wasnt obvious.
so i wiped it off.
then i tort of the time when i boarded the plane in singapore.
i was so happy at the tort im flying to where he is.
then now im sad leaving where he is.
burt hey! he's coming back in anth 2 days! =D
i was thinking when i was on the plane.
i felt so at loss n empty when i left hongkong for singapore. and when i left singapore for hongkong.
i hate tat kind of feeling. it's so... ...uneasy.
then i wonder y i feel tat way?
cux of my frens. n cux of him.
so sian.
hongkong's so good i wan to study uni there.
almost didnt want to come back.
burt i missed my frens n all here.
zzzz~~~

sigh. i btr get going. the med's making me drowsy.
so yupps..bye all!

hi pple im back!
im sorry for the late replies n late updates
cux i went to guangzhou (sucky cheeena)
and onli came back on monday.
actuali wanted to come back n blog about how BAD cheeena is
burt im in a good mood today bcux IT'S RAINING HERE IN HONGKONG!!
so im sho happy to wake up to the nice, cold, fresh air
and the drizzling nice rainy view outside my bedroom window
which is jux right in front of my bed.
so yupps im sho happy so i wldnt wanna tok about the sucky encounters i had in stupid cheena.

since it's raining here in hk the weather is turning colder
which is great! seems like this christmas would be a freezy n nice one.
=)
ytd was 19degrees, i guess it's arnd 15degrees now barhs? ^^

im so so so glad n happy to come back to hk
and ytd when i checked my mails, blog, frenster facebk etc
im so happy to recieve all the mails, msgs n comments from my dear frens
thank u pple!=)
u guys certainly made my day^^

tmr i might be going to a "tour" to hk universities
cant wait! hahas!
yupps im going to take a look
then i will apply for both singapore n hk universities
see which is willing to accept me lor lols.
with my bad results i only can wait for schools to choose me,
i've no rights to choose schools sobs.

went surfing arnd the net
hinfan's frenster shoutout says he's sick, mental n physical.
i wonder ward tat means
and i wonder if he's okie.
sigh.
wish i could tok to him n ask him if he's alright.
huimin.
i saw yj's frenster leh
and saw tis photo.
i think u see ler will gek.
if u view his profile i think u'll noe which photo im referring to.
hais~~
we both lead a sad life.
zzz...
any updates huimin?

all my frens reply me fast!!!!
cant wait to recieve ur mails n msgs again!!!!!=D

~currently in hongkong~

hey pple im here to update!
it's nort very cold here in hongkong,
only arnd 17-19degrees
in fact im perspiring if i wore my coat
lols.

day 2:
nothing much actuali
went to pray to my gran uncle ytd
and then went shopping at Sha Tin's New City Plaza.
bought this pair of nice nice jeans at Espirit hahahahas..
it's a black jeans! woohoo love black~
went to Zara also
realised things at hk's Zara is cheaper than Singapore's
and all the shops here (Zara, Espirit, Mango, Miss Sixty, Morgan etc)
have more variety than Singapore.
burt Morgan n Miss Sixty r too ex for me to afford
(x.X)
so onli could buy some at espirit n mango hahas.
onli saw this shorts i like at zara thou.
burt i was too fat (-_____-)
wearing it makes me look like an elephant?lols!
kns.LOLS.

day 3:
then today..
kinda slack arnd
slept till 9am plus
watched tv
then went my house opp tat shopping mall to walkwalk
bought some stuff
and here i am back home blogging.
hahahas.

miss my frens too..
saw this pretty earrings for ting n siokwen =))
=p
i wanna see them sia! and go out to play hahas.
siokwen is everything fine?
qinling...i very long nvr hear from u ler leh
minmin...was ur fren's info accurate?keep me updated on it okie.
(you know ward i mean lol)
and huiting how's the job thing going ler?
jiamin still slacking is it hahas.
aw.
=(
reali miss ya all man.
=(

oh ya.
i realised my phone DIDNT HAVE ROAMING on day 1.
grrr..
burt nvm la
dun think there'll be any impt calls anyway
cux till the day the sun explode the most impt person oso wldnt call me one la.
...

after im here
i keep telling myself to keep my mind off someone
and dun emo when travelling.
yea kind of put him off my mind most of the time
cux when i start to think of him again i'll distract myself with other things
burt sometimes..
when doin little things
like locking the door..
like waiting for the lift..
when packing my stuff..
the image of someone will flash across my mind
then i will shake my head to tell myself to quit thinking.
so i successfully didnt emo so far
hahahas.
burt this morning i allowed myself to emo
early in the morning 9am woke up
i emo-ed until arnd 9.30am
i jux sat on my bed n watched outside the window
at the tennis court n shopping mall across
(the tennis court was a rooftop one tat's y i can see)
then i was kind of idiot
i tort about ward huimin said on the day i left singapore
"i reali reali hope u'll meet him there"
really?
i actuali wished tat i will and wished tat i wldnt.
i guess shushu understands the feeling n why i'd say tat.
well.
one more week he's flying to shanghai alrdy.
dun think i'll see him in hk ler.
maybe it's a good thing?duno la.
wish i could tok to him on msn like in singapore
n could sms him to take care n stuff lidat.
althou it's nort much.
3 days nvr tok to him alrdy.
miss him.

~he's flying away today..~

thoughts n feelings 1:
11:00am.
it's 10:47am now.
13 more minutes and u'll be boarding the plane.
and then u'll be flying off...to hongkong shek lap kok airport.
then 24hours and 25minutes later,
i'll also be boarding anth plane
and flying to where u are.
=)

althou i might nort see u there
im still happy to know tat im standing on the same land as u.
at least until 15dec.
then u'll leave hk
and fly off again to shanghai.

thank u.
for letting me hear ur voice before u go in.
althou it was jux a short conversation
im alrdy contented.

althou i've just put down the phone 10min ago
im alrdy missing u badly again.

when i called u
you said
"haha now u can go back to sleep alrdy =)"
yes, i could hear ur smile.
so i told you
"haha no la..i woke up early"
maybe u dun noe
i woke up at 8am
to wait for 10am to call u?
bcux i was afraid tat i would oversleep
and miss hearing ur voice.
so at 8am
i woke up automatically
and didnt dare to go back to sleep.
i jux laid on my bed.
and then at 9am
i saw tat singapore is going to rain.
praying hard for a good weather so tat u can have a good flight,
i hurriedly went online to check the weather forecast
hongkong's raining today too. 18˚C.
tis means it's going to be cold over there.
keep warm boy, althou i know u're strong n wun get sick easily
still... take care.

when i called u.. u were having ur breakfast
i think ur frens were there to see u off?
i tort i heard naiyu's voice o.O
LOLS
or was tat ur brother?
duno la.
and i think he said (or whoever said)
"tell me tell me say ward?"
(-______-)
or maybe i heard wrongly la.
then u were like entertaining him(or them?) at the same time.
zzz..
nvm la.
can hear u're voice im very, very, happy ler. =D

raining ler..
it still rained in the end.
11:37am now.
ur plane should be soaring in the sky alrdy?
pls pls pls let this be a safe and smooth trip for him.
pls.

``im waiting for you. no matter how long it takes. ``


thoughts n feelings 2:

tis morning
i recieved huiting's sms,
telling me she wanna quit.
serious,
kids like us get bullied in the society.
sigh.
i think it's really better to be a student.
u see,
we get bullied now when we first step into society,
years later,
when we grow up and get more experienced
we don't get bullied as much,
burt we'll still have to face office politics and socialising.
2 things tat i'll hate to do.
the fake masks on everyone.. it's difficult to find someone true.
i dun wanna be fake.
i wan to face pple true n real.
burt u noe how u'll end up if u're unlucky n nort careful?
backstabbed.
maybe im being pessimistic,
burt isnt tat how the world works?
all i can pray now
is tat all my frens, from childhood till now at least
will be my frens forever.
at least in the far future,
i know these pple r true to me, just like i'll be to them too.


thoughts n feelings 3:
jux received a msg from minmin too
telling me bout a news
which made her so sad.
it's okie minmin, dun be sad.
we're in the same boat.
i share ward u feel.
you know we cant control this kind of thing,
so we can only sigh in despair,
upset tat there's nothing we can do about it.
burt hey,
we shouldnt be upset.
bcux we've gort ward she hasnt gort.
years of memories tat she will nvr be able to achieve.
days walked past together,
that she had never experienced.
so cheer up.
when u feel depressed,
turn arnd, look behind
u'll see a whole gallery of good times you guys had together.
and if u feel despair,
look beside u.
u'll see me there,
always here to lend u a listening ear,
and always here to give u a crying shoulder.
=)

im here again.
kinda happy tonite
cux he's back from genting!
burt..
duno if i hurt his heart sia
cux i said my fren saw his pic (wearing the prom suit de)
then he seemed hurt.
he was saying
"i looked like SH*T in tat photo sia!!!"
T.T
then i say "dun hate me..=("
he said he joking la..
burt i still scared he's angry.
T~T

dun angry.
T~T

ytd went marina sq
my fav hangout again
hahas.
then had dinner at "dian xiao er"
mummy's treat
hahas.
then my daddy bought me a x'mas present.
HUGE winnie the pooh !!!!
XD
love it! hahas
when i free take photo of it then upload here
=))
then went topshop
and i saw tis grp of pple
then gort tis guy there
i think look ALORT like my ex.
was wondering if it's him
cux too long ler
i forget how he look like sia =x
kind of spoil mood
burt duno la. dun care oso.
if it's him it's him lor.
who is he?HAHAHA.
*shrugs*

then happy happy
fan reached singapore at arnd 9.30pm last night
then i received the sms
"Juz reach singapore..."
=D
at first was abit unhappy i knocked into my ex (althou im nort sure if it's him la)
burt as soon as i saw the sms i was smiling from EAR TO EAR.
=D
=D
=D
burt i guessed he's tired..so i ask him to have a good rest
and "good dreams sweet night"
hahas!=))

job interview on monday..
hope it's good la!
wish me luck hahas^^

nxt tues's tpjc's prom..
nxt wed fan's flying..
nxt thurs im flying..
happy cux im flying
sad cux im flying
im so gonna miss my frens!
=(
cannort tok to them sia
mail me ok guys?!
T.T
and....
have a good prom minmin n fan!
fan dun worry
u look GORGEOUS in tat suit!
and minmin~
i noe ur prom's theme is "frost" (according to fan)
so u must win the "ice queen" seat okie?!!
hahas =))

okie dokie~
time for bed~
-``*hope i'll knock into u in hongkong.*``-

~everyday's a happy day!~

event 1:
i went out with siokwen ytd
bought quite alort of makeup stuff at the face shop
i love the eye shadow i bought duh.
spent quite alort..
burt the things were super pretty
hahas =)
and shushu bought her prom dress!
yay!
and we sang at kbox for HOURS
the both of us can reali sing hahas
onli the 2 of us and we still exceeded time
so we extended to anth 1 hr
and still couldnt finish all the songs we wanna sing
hahas..
fan's also singing with his frens ytd orhs!
LOVE SINGING!!!!!
LOVE kboxing hahas.
new term by fan.
hahas. =)

event 2:
did my nails today
loves black.
i wanted to try it out
before formally doing it again for prom

here are the manicure i did..
hope it's alright.. give some comments n feedback ok! =)






for thumb


for other fingers

how is it?
i came up with the patterns myself
hopefully it's nice.
asked siokwen for her views
she said it's nice
wanted to ask fan too
burt he's away from keyboard
so well..
tmr barhs.
im so bored now ok.
wan to tok to fan =(
burt he's busy
zZzZzZzZzZz.........
im listening to tat song the hundredth time
lols.
thanks ar siokwen
for getting it from dixon n sending it to me
oh man..
love it
it's damn damn damn nice.
ok i've decided to listen to it for anth hundred times
or more.
hahahas!
i wan to let huimin listen oso!
tat can shut her mouth up for saying tat his singing sucks.
tis is evidence tat he can sing!
he's the best singer among the 3 okie!
hmphs!
XD

event 3:
oh man~~
fan's flying back to hk on the 5th
im flying on the 6th
he still said
"why u everything behind me one day de? lols"
how i noe duh.
(-_______-)
ward shld i say?
if i flew one day earlier
we would bump into each other on the plane AGAIN.
just like 4 YEARS AGO.
when both of us finished sec 2,
going sec 3 the following yr.
duh.

i wan go hongkong disneyland!!!!
i wan to take the ferris wheel!!!!!!
burt i dun wan to do all these ALONE.
cux i wanna go with YOU.
tat's the main reason why after all these years
i STILL haven go to hk disneyland before.
becux i wanna go with .YOU.
NO ONE ELSE BURT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!
=(

burt i guess..
tis is jux a dream tat will never come true huh?
...

k la stop it.
otherwise i'll emo again.
alrdy starting to emo.
think i better go sleep n bury myself in my blankets
before my emo gets worse.
tat's all folks!
good night sweet dreams........
~good dreams sweet night~ (by someone)

~you girls rock up my world!!!!~

event 1:
on 21st november 2007
IT'S THE BEST BIRTHDAY CELEBRATIONS I EVER HAD!!!
with special thanks to-
qinling siokwen anna n janet
and of cux
the other 2 bday girls huiting n jiamin
we had the day at palawan n siloso
early in the morning @ 11am
met the girls at harbourfront
then i realised qin was carrying a few lunch boxes
so i asked
"dun tell me tat's our cake?-.-"
she said yes.
so i was -.-
then she say "no la!lunch la!"
lol
then she even lied to me n ting tat it's vegetarian food
and we believed
(-________-)

so we took a train..then a tram to palawan
played beach ball
and wanted to fly kites
burt the lao pok kite
tore even b4 it flew into the sky
so de ne ne.
burt well..thanks for the tort girls
me n ting were damn excited bout flying the kites
hahas.
so we played beach ball for some time
then settled down for our lunch
were eating halfway
when anna n janet popped out from nowhere
with our CAKE
=D
i tort no cake...cux qin n shushu carrying alort of things alrdy
burt i was thinking
"ok la..cake is nort impt..the celebration is good enuff"
burt nvr did i expect tat!
thanks girls...i know u guys spent alort of effort into planning.
*huggies*

so after the cake
anna n janet went to meet pam at vivo
and we 5 chinese girls took a tram to siloso
and kayak
then at the end
i capsized jiamin alone
WAHAHAHAHAAS
then when she came out
she came to me for revenge
reali dragging me across the sands into water
(T~T)

we even exceeded the rental time and had to pay anth $18
zzz.......

after tat we went back to our shelter
then gort into water!
i cldnt swim
so i was so scared can
jux tat i nvr say =x
then i tried to learn to float with my frens coaching me
and siokwen learning with me too (cux she oso duno)
and there was tis time when
i tried to practice floating myself
and my frens were playing
and i choked quite badly.
i jux sunk and choked.
me n my frens panicked like hell
i tort i was going to "die"
LOLS!
althou it was very shallow onli
(-_____-)
ya i know i suck
>=(
and the seawater taste like ...er!
huiting still said ward
"salty water...cooling"
-.-
so cute ar.

then yupps..
me n shushu managed to learn to float abit
then we went back cux the tide was rising
and showered n stuff
and went back to vivo
had dinner
then stayed at the rooftop took photos with the xmas tree
blowed "bubbles"
then shushu went home
we went arcade to play the 3 puck play
then home
then zzz....

it's really the best birthday i ever had.
=)

some peeks at our beach celebrations:


at the train station waiting for beach train..


jiajia n huiting on beach train..


qinqin n me waiting for beach tram..


the beach tram..


where we're heading..


us on beach tram!


me n ting @palawan


qinqin loner playing with sand alone lols.. @palawan


SHE'S A HAPPY QIN!!! =D @palawan


our names! @palawan


qinqin n her "crocs" @palawan


qin's "crocs" @palawan


our birthday cake!! @palawan


lighting up.. @palawan


on beach tram back to train station @siloso


tingting blowing her bubble! @siloso


qin ting jia n wen!pretty x'mas tree! @vivo


ting eunice jia n qin!pretty x'mas tree! @vivo


ward the hell is tis???!!! @vivo


wen jia ting qin blowing bubbles @vivo


jia n her biggest bubble @vivo


shuwen n her bubbles chain @vivo


qinqin n her biggest bubble @vivo


me n shushu with our bubbles @vivo


huiting n qin's biggest bubble lols @vivo


event 2:
somebody tok to me on msn!!!
and sent me the pic of ward he's going to wear for prom!!!!
and asked for my comment!!!!!
=))))))


event 3:
went back to pri sch today
and saw mr gan
sigh..i miss pri sch
the life
the people
the everything.
=(
went shopping after tat
gort a free new wallet!
lol
a present la.
love it!
it's the wallet i always wanted! =)

HAPPY DAY!!!!!!!
=D
tmr going singing
anth happy day!!!
hahas...
alrights i need to sleep
haven been sleeping much tis few days
and playing alort.
my eyes r closing
my arms r aching
my legs r breaking
ok i know im weak n ah ma ok?
burt reali..
im dying from fatigue..
so good night all!!
muacks muacks muacks muacks
(kisses for my girls)
*snore~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~*

~went out with minmin n qinqin ytd!~

we met at cityhall mrt..
and ah herms.
ms late queen was late
so me n qin waited for her
while chatting bout stuff..
well i didnt know i was so honoured n powerful huh
ms late queen took an hour to decide ward to wear
when she's only meeting me.
(-________-)

so
we went marina for lunch
and chat till 2pm+3pm
and then went shopping arnd
marina's topshop didnt have the pants qin wanted
so we went to the wisma outlet
then bought the pants
and went shopping arnd again
trying on clothes here n there
lols.
min super funny
she went forever21 and fell for tis dress
she went in the fitting room
took ages to get it on
and woo!
isnt she gorgeous in tat!
"yupps it's perfect on you, buy it =)"
tat was ward me n qinqin said
so well
ms lim huimin went back into the fitting room
after waiting for ward seems like ages again
the door opened
i thought she's done changing back into her own clothes
burt no.
she opened the door n said
"omg i just LOVE tis dress. it jux looks SO good on me."
.....(-____-)
so i practically screamed
"you took so long inside n u were admiring urself in there??!!!!"
so well i had to threaten her to get changed quickly.
ms late queen is also miss drama-mad queen.
after tat we went for a drink n rest at starbucks
and chatted bout tons of stuff including tat black demon(according to minmin lols)
and wasnt she disgusted when she heard bout all the things he did.
well i guess anyone would anyway.
then we went heeren and cine..
and just shopped arnd
and went to the arcade at cine
we played the game where we played at vivo the other time
qinling's a damn tough opponent
or shld i say
me n huimin were jux too weak.
-.-
yupps.
so tat's my day with qinling,
and huimin -- qinling's new met (mad) fren.

had a great time with them
before i left house to meet minmin n qin i even spoke to fan
it was a happy day for me.
=)

here's a sneak peek at our meet up:



that's me n huimin at heeren's toilet



qinling & her new met (mad) fren.wahahahas..



the 3 of us!



me n qinqin~~

alright!
now i cant wait to go out with them again
=D

tmr's fan's last paper orhs
morning paper
study hard!
i know u are studying cux u're offline hahahas..
jiayou =)
and be careful when u drive
so scary la u!
(-____-)
so dangerous can!
=(

alright
im going to "meet" qinling now
tat's all folks!
=)

~it's one day after the end of A's..~


my feelings and thoughts 1:
YAY A'LEVELS FINALLY OVER!!!!!
...
feeling kind of empty.
lols...(-_________-)

was on the phone with siokwen jux now
and toking about how sian we are.
yupps.. i think human all r retarded creatures.
when u're busy..
u complain about too much work,
too less time to play.
now you have all the time in the world to play
u think there's too much time and feel bored cux u duno ward to do.
humans suck.
in my next life..
i wan to be a cat.


my feelings and thoughts 2:
meeting huimin n qinqin tis sunday.
hurray!
althou time isnt confirmed yet.
burt i reali miss huimin sooo much.
and im so happy tat both my pri sch n jc sch best frens r there
althou the et isnt there
burt..lots of time!
herh herh herh.
=x
want to ask all my frens out
pri sch: minmin, xinrou
jc: qinqin, siokwen, ting, jia & anna's clique
sec sch: meowmeow et & fish!
lols i realised my sec sch buddies all nort "human" LOLS!
(-_____-) sorry being lame hahas.
yay!
miss u guys =)


my feelings and thoughts 3:
read qin's blog jux now
were u "inspired" by me qinqin?
hahahahhaahahs...
burt i am.
so here goes:

im the little baby..who only spend weekends with my parents when i was young.
who cried like hell every sunday night when my parents left me with my babysitter
and the little baby who dun even noe how to talk, burt took my baby shoes and waited at the gate of my babysitter's house for my parents, at friday 8am. (when they'll only come at 5pm.)
the little girl..who didnt have any siblings..and my teddy bears were my only listeners.

the little girl..who gort into a fight in pri3..and caused my good fren to have bruises n nailmarks all over her arms (hahas =x)
the little girl..who always liked to do stupid things like mixing baby powder with water and made dough figures out of it.
and stupid things like putting medicated oil on my feets and pretended i was ice-skating. and ended up making the whole floor oily (i finished the big bottle of new medicated oil lols.)

then tis little girl went to sec sch..
and quarrelled with frens over the slightest things.
(i wldnt do tat anymore. sorry xinrou.)
the little girl whom i think sucks.
for doing such things to hurt the pple arnd her.

so now..little girl is slightly older..
going on to jc..
still as stupid..
she still did stupid stuff like singing and dancing tian2 mi4 mi4 with qinqin at the bus stop (with ting n jia pretending they duno us and siokwen laughing like hell)
she had qinling piggyback her arnd the school every now and then.
and she bites. lols!
and tis girl always liked to hug her frens.
especially qinling & huiting
cux she feel tat she had a group of great frens tat r always there for her.
oh ya.
she always always liked to emo.

so yupps.
tat's the girl u're reading about now.
she's changed alort since then.
for the better and for the worse.
ward bout u?
how have u changed?


my feelings and thoughts 4:
happy~
cux on wed night
i received a pleasant surprise.
actuali it was only a phone call la.
and the conversation was quite retarded
throughout the whole phone call
the thing i heard most is
"STUDY AR.GO STUDY NOW." (x 1000000 times)
burt it reali made my day
and made me mug like no tmr.
and it was funny
"GO STUDY AR.IF NORT NO DINNER.*herh herh*"
i hear u laugh "herh herh" i wanted to laugh out loud.
cux ur laughter very funny lols.
then everytime when i started stoning when i study until tired
ur voice rang beside my ear
"STUDY!IF NORT NO DINNER.*herh herh*"
then i will stupidly laugh to myself
and continue studying..feeling completely energetic.
so i nvr stone or slack orhs!
cux althou i hate studying history
i studied hard, bcux u asked me to do so.
so thank you.
i was able to study despite sleeping onli for 3hours.

been long since i heard ur voice.
so long.
almost a year plus i suppose.

and after tat call till now
i still rmbr ur voice.
it was such a pleasant surprise.
i tort u will only reply me a sms.
when my phone rang
it's reali the last thing, tat i will think tat it's u.
bcux it's been so long.
still..thank you.
u duno how much tat call meant to me
how much it impacted me
and how much difference it made.


my feelings and thoughts 5:
siokwen's nort going hk with me.
sadded.
nobody go disneyland with me alrdy.
=(
ok la.
enuff emo-ing.
tat's all guys.
update tmr lo.

~ 6 more days to play.. ~


6nov was fan's birthday
and my gran's lunar birthday too
so my gran n i celebrated our birthdays together
went to her house on her bday..
here are some photos we took..



from left: my maid, granny, me n my mum

how cute my gran is..hahas..




yupps..glad tat my gran was happy.

so well..
*counts*
26 hours and still counting.
hahas..i dun think anyone know ward i mean
it's alright
i jux wanted to let myself know how many hours it had been.
hahas.
went to check out facebook
wanted to sign up burt i guess i wanna change my email after A's
so maybe till then..
yupps.
cux like ward tim said...i feel tat my email's too kiddy too.
been using tat since pri6..
it's time to change i guess.
been lazy hahas.


was studying econs earlier on
and was searching for some stuff
when my pri6 class photo fell out.
fated?
hahs. why did it fall out.
so i jux gort abit emo
tat's why im here.
(-_____-)
then i was looking thru our faces one-by-one
and trying to figure out the names of every faces
and i realised.. hey i rmbred quite alort
maybe only forget 10+
hahas.
=p


my clique was made up of 3guys, 5 girls.
althou 2 of the guys always bully us la.
and hey i tort we were in the SAME CLIQUE?
>=(


i recalled once,
when me n huimin were at the block beside our sch
playing with the cats
(yes i loved cats since young)
then there was 2 little kittens
a black kitten n an orange-tiger kitten
that we loved to play with everyday.
burt they were so thin..and weak
and was always hungry.
and i rmbr tat stupid WK always bully the cats
and me n huimin always scold him whenever he does tat.
and ya CW oso.
anyway they bully US too la.
lols.
well so tat day as usual
WK come disturb us
so minmin n i were hopping mad
and shoo-ed them away
then fan came and hey! he loved the cats too.
he even bought catfood for the kittens using his own pocket money
(althou his parents dun give him much money)
then huimin n i were amazed
n he told us
"i used to feed the cats every evening in hk,
cux my house there the hillpark alort of cats"
huimin was like so surprised tat a guy wld do tis kinda things.
me too.
burt i guess he wldnt do it now in spore
will kena warning from the police lols.
anyway he's the first guy i know who like cats.
or.... no, who like animals. cux he likes dogs too.


burt my pri6 class was quite big
hms..arnd 32 if i didnt rmbr wrongly?
and yes tat number 33(or was it?) who joined us only on 24th july 2001.
i still rmbr it was a thursday,
the day after our school anni celebrations.
and tat thurs morning
my classmates were all discussing softly bout tat new classmate tat's joining us
and wondering ward would the person be like
we didnt even know if it's a boy or a girl
burt i was hoping for a girl to join our clique hahas
so tat we can outrule the 2 guys who always bully us.
(-________-)
and tat huimin was hoping for a boy so tat she can gossip again.
duh. (-____-)
so we saw our form teacher Mrs Kwek talking to auntie n uncle,
with our new fren silly silly standing one side.
then auntie n uncle left,
and tis little new fren joined our line.
Mrs Kwek told us to be friendly,
and kind of told us he transferred from hk int sch to here.
bcux i was the only one who can speak cantonese
i was forced by everyone to ask for his name.
so well tat's when my nightmare begun.
and well..
since then.

and yes.
huimin realised her hope for a new gossip.
till now.


oh damn i think im thinking further n further.
soon i'll be writing out everything tat has happened btw my pri sch clique
so yupps.
=x
better stop.


yupps i better leave alrdy.
been here too long.
study hard guys~~

happy birthday boy..
happy birthday.......



and yes.
i'll . always . always . remember ur birthday.

here's something i grabbed from eddie's blog..
it's long burt it's reali meaningful..
do spend the effort n a short 3 min to read it kies?

Life's Paradoxes; Paradox of Our Times
borrowed from Pootchkee

We have taller buildings, but shorter tempers; wider freeways,
but narrower viewpoints; we spend more, but have less;
we buy more, but enjoy it less.

We have bigger houses and smaller families; more conveniences,
but less time; we have more degrees, but less common sense;
more knowledge, but less judgment; more experts,
but more problems; more medicine, but less wellness.

We spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast,
get too angry too quickly, stay up too late, get up too tired,
read too seldom, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values.

We talk too much, love too seldom and lie too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life;
we've added years to life, not life to years.

We build more computers to hold more information,
to produce more copies than ever, but have less communication;
we've become long on quantity, but short on quality.

We've been all the way to the moon and back,
but have trouble crossing the street to meet the new neighbor.

We've conquered outer space, but not inner space;
we've done larger things, but not better things;
we've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul;
we've split the atom, but not our prejudice; we write more,
but learn less; plan more, but accomplish less.

We've learned to rush, but not to wait; we have higher incomes;
but lower morals; more food but less appeasement;
more acquaintances, but fewer friends;
more effort but less success.

These are the time of fast foods and slow digestion;
tall men and short character;
steep profits, and shallow relationships.

These are the times of world peace, but domestic warfare;
more leisure and less fun; more kinds of food, but less nutrition.
These are days of two incomes, but more divorce;
of fancier houses, but broken homes.

These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers,
throwaway morality, one-night stands, overweight bodies,
and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.

It is a time when there is much in the show window,
and nothing in the stockroom.

Indeed it's all true. Think about it...read it again.
~Anonymous

posted by shunqiang at 8:32 AM

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
yeah i know i said i wun be blogging till after a's
burt jux suddenly felt like saying something

it's the start of sept term break
burt prelims are coming.
as soon as school reopens
our prelims start
and i guess all jc kids noe the kind of life already.
hms..............
....
........
........................
(-_______-)
damn.
suddenly im speechless again.
i think i mux be suffering from the lack-of-sleep-syndrome.

anyway.
today we have a history mock prelim exam
despite the fact tat today is teacher's day celebrations.
burt after the paper,
we were supposed to stay back n go thru the paper
burt me n my sisters grabbed the answer key n scooted off.
lols..
well..
i needed a getaway before i start mugging again la.
so i went shopping n bought tons of things
n my mum took me out for a sumptuous dinner at a restaurant along katong
thanks mummy, i noe u wanted to give me a time away from studying =)

oh ya!
im SO disappointed can!
suay pok!!!!
tat day me n qin went parkway parade shopping
den we saw tis damn pretty pencil case n music box
today i went back to buy
burt the pencil case was OUT OF STOCK
and it will onli replenish stocks in mid sept.
(-_________-)
AND
i wanted to buy the music box (there're a lot of different songs)
burt i wanted Canon In D
but it's OUT OF STOCK TOO.
kns.
the pencil case n music box is SO.DAMN.PRETTY. can!
the pencil case is red color de..like a school bus
then gort pandas sitting "inside" the bus
i love pandas duh!!
and the "bus" can move!!!!!
(T~T)
then for the music box
u have to manually turn it for it to play
so it's unlike those tat u wind it up,
it wun be damaged so easily.
and the Canon In D sounded soooooooooooo heavenly!
(T~~~~~~~~~T)
and there was also the "You Are My Sunshine" music box
it's very sweet too, and i loved it.
burt tat one..
hahas...

oh well.
bad luck i guess.
=(

alrights..
enuff crapping..
i wan go zzz already.
finally it's term break
althou need to study
burt at least i get more sleep.
tatas..
*snores*-

monday econs test
tues history lect test
wed hist & econs STAR test
fri c.lit & hist test
in other words
everyday test test test.
mug mug mug.
study study study.
i ought to be studying now.
nxt tues c.lit test on song ci
nxt fri hist mock exam paper (full).
burt jux wanna come here to say
i wun be blogging from now on till after the end of A's.
reali gort no time la.
so ya.
and to all my frens out there~
my darlings..peeps of srjc..and fangyu et pearl oli huimin hinfan n etc
all the best lo!
jiayou..study hard=))

love holidays!!!
*muack muack muack muack*
great week no school =))
enjoying the temporary period of rest
and prays hard tat monday comes later.
(O.O)

do you know what it feels like,
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?

baby since you walked away,
i miss you,
i miss you more n more each day.
tell me do you think about me,
cux i think about u all the time
a million miles just stand between us
burt i wont stop until u're mine.

~ lyrics from songs by Enrique Iglesias ~

went meridian pool with the girls after sch today
was allowed to wear civilian to sch hahas..
kinda..uncomfortable actuali cux the weather sucks.
had a great time.
very funny n "entertaining" cux huiting keep disturbing us.
(-_______-)||
then qinqin abit stern when teaching us lols..
(>.<)! then i keep worrying my eyeliner would smudge cux i was using non-waterproof. gr. damn troublesome.

currently : emo-ing
life's fallacious.
would you still believe in life?

i'd upload the photos taken today when im free =))

GASP!
i FORGET there's econs revision timed practice
damn damn damn
gotta run mug AGAIN.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!
=(