ytd was the release of A'level results.
first of all,
congrats to my little junior kuan wu
who scored 3As for his H2!!
woohoo~u are one smart son!
so proud of you=)
i rmbr one year ago
we were experiencing this same veryvery intense feeling.
worries, anticipation, fear.
one year just flew by like that,
unknowingly, our year 1 uni life is also ending soon.
i really missed the jc times.
i miss my dear frens and the life we had tgr.
i saw this on minmin's blog.
i've asked for her permission alrdy,
and i've decided to share it with everyone.
~adapted from minmin's bloggie:Anyways like I said, I was feeling a teeny weeny bit of sadness when I saw how happy my friends were when they know that they are able to enrol into local unis.Maybe what I felt was something known as "envy".Then I started to ponder...What if I have re-retaken A`s as well?Could I have achieved good results like what my friends have gotten?Could I be able to enter the prestigious local unis as well?And by doing so, could I have been able to fulfill the dreams of my parents and I?I know it`s useless to think about this now because well, life has moved on for me.To quote Mindy`s catchphrase, maybe "God has other plans for me."So while making our way to TM Mac with Amina, I thought over what happened to me that time last year.I remember the nerves clearly.I remember that I was very excited before I got my results.I was smiling and laughing and playing with my girls though we were nervous.When I saw my result slip, I stoned for a moment and laughed.Laughed out loud.Just then, HQ caught me and dragged me to a corner.That was when she gave me a beary hug and I collapsed in her arms.Drama, I know.Then Amina brought me out and we walked from the school to Tampines Interchange.We never talked for once during the walk.It was an antagonising walk, as far as I can remember.I reached home, without uttering a word to anyone, threw my dreaded result slip on the floor and locked myself in the room.Cried myself to sleep.My parents were clueless as to what to do about me.There were some things which I came to know about during the dark period of my life-Murphy`s Law: Anything that can go wrong will go wrong.And this very own motivational phrase from dear Mel mel: Form is temporary; Class is permanent.I remember how Talia used to counsel me as well, telling me that it was not the end of the world even if I flunked my A`s.I thank all my friends who brought me out of the emotional distress.One year on and I`m living life well.Though the thought of being unable to further my studies in a local uni seems like a regret for me, I will, however, say, who doesn`t have regrets in life?RIGHT?PS: Sometimes being too optimistic in life helps.~when i saw ward minmin wrote on her blog i felt like crying.
these are the things we have to go through to grow up
the harshness of reality and life
the inevitably of getting hurt.min's words reminded me of my very best fren.
she'll have to start facing reality very soon.
and im very worried for her.
be strong. pls be strong no matter ward the outcome is.
stop avoiding. pls. dun hide in ur own world anymore.
it hurts me to see you like this.
i missed the days. i miss you.
i miss you so much.and i wan to see u happy and cheerful. from the bottom of ur heart.
not just false fronts.
everyone will meet their ups and downs.
it's part and parcel of life.
u're not alone,
u have us.like me now..
i have to say. i hate my uni life.
im not as strong. you know eueu had nvr been a strong person.
im always reliant on my frens arnd me for support.
but im learning to love my life. or at least
trying to accept it.
bcux i know
no matter how much i hate my life,
there's nothing i can do to escape from the things i hate.
i will have to face it anyway.
i can only make things btr by looking at it from anth perspective
or working on different aspects to make myself happier.
im still a unhappy eueu.
i still hate uni. still hate studying.
i still cant enjoy my life. im still deprived of my freedom.
i still cldnt get on good terms with my family, and its getting worse in fact.
and i still miss jc life and my jc frens very much.
i couldnt extract myself out of all these troubles.
but im trying. bcux life has to move on.
i try to do my work. bit by bit.
and i make myself feel btr by thinking bout my bunny.
i talk more to pple. since i cant go out to meet them. msn. sms. phonecalls.
cux i love the pple arnd me.
i try to communicate patiently with my mummy. althou im not giving much a damn to my dad.
and i try not to think of jc all the time. occasionally i do emo over it thou.
its tough. im tired of trying all the time.
but giving up will only mean that i will feel even worse.
so dun give up too, okay?
we'll all be working on our lives. making it better.
its a forever thing.
bcux we want happiness dun we.
and one last thing.
you are my best fren. and it will stay that way.